⚠️Self harm⚠️

Pj's pov

After dinner was over me and fresh ended up in my room. I sat in my bed couch.

Fresh sat in my laps and we just kinda sat there. I ran my fingers through her hair and she didn't move or anything.

I grabbed her hands and she just laid there. I looked at her but she didn't return it. Now I'm confused. "Is everything alright?" I asked. She did say anything. "Fresh?" I asked again. Still no reply. I got up carefully and faced her. She looked at me for a split second.

"Why do you even love me.." she said. "I love you because I want to be with you. For the rest of our lives. I love you because your mine and I'll never stop loving you" I said. She looked as if she wanted to believe me but there was something keeping her from believing it.

"What's wrong?" I asked again. Holding her hands and looking directly in her eyes. "Nothings wrong" She said. I looked at her. "What's happened. Something's off" I said again, "I'm fine" she said. Aha. "Your not fine you never just say 'I'm fine' you'll always say something like 'absolutely perfect like a perfectly picked diamond' or something" I said.

She didn't speak. I moved closer and kissed her cheek. She didn't do anything. Not even a blush. Dropped my hands and they landed on he thighs which I regret immediately after hearing her wince. "Sorry did I hurt you?!" I said. "It wasn't you it was just the-" she cut herself off.

"Just the what" I asked. "Nothing" "don't lie" I said. I placed my hands on her legs and slowly moved them up her dress. All I felt was bumps and she hissed with some. I looked at her In disbelief. "A-are those sc-scars!?" I asked trying to stay calm. No answer.

I took off the jacket she was wearing with my magic and low and behold scars that traveled left to right up her arms and shoulders. I felt tears threatening to fall. This is my fault. Why didn't I realise sooner. "H-how long have you felt l-like this?" I asked. "It been awhile... I guess I just needed better luck..." she finally spoke.

"W-Why?" I asked "this way I have control of the pain inside" she said. "What pain. Who did this. Was it me I'm so sorry I should have know-" I started to ramble on. She just had a few tears flow from her eyes.

Her eyes are so dull and there's no sparkle anymore. I placed my hand on her cheek as tears fell. "If you want to cut... cut me" I said. She looked horrified. "I could never hurt you like that!" She said. I kind of just looked at her and something clicked. "It'd be the exact same as this.." I sobbed out. I placed my forehead against hers and we stayed there like this.

"Baby... never cut" I whispered out. "Promise me." She looked up. "I-i..." she couldn't speak she was in tears... I hugged her and she hugged back...

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Sorry for the short chapter.

Sincerely,
Me