Kyu Aisa karra hai mere saath ?.... She asked as she bit her lips holding onto his arms tears brimmed in her eyes as he looked up to her

Tu chahta kya hai mere se ? ... Kya chahta hai ? ... Tu ache se jaanta hai na that

I LOVE YOU

Ye baat pta hone ke bawajood bhi tu mere itne kareeb ata hai mujhe ummeed rehti hai ke hn ...ab tu mujhse pyaar krega ...

Tears rolled down her eyes as her voice broke ...she felt her heart to heavy the burden was making it difficult for her to handle the things ...

Mai nhi smjh skti tujhe ...mujhse nhi hota or ...she moved back closed her eyes as more tears fell

She was weak on her knees as she slides down and sobs

Mujhse nhi hota ab ... Kitna dukh dega ? Itna bhi kuch bura nhi kra maine ke tere pyaar ke kaabil na bn Pau ... Itna bhi kuch bura nhi kra ke maine

Maarna hai toh abhi maarde par ab bas kar

She holds her head in her hand

Sidharth's heart broke looking at her in this condition

He felt a pang of guilt that slides down his heart to bleed

He can't help but his eyes brimmed with tears as with slow steps he approached to her

Sitting down on his knees he gently tapped her shoulder

Sana ... He could barely whispered

Sana looked up at him ... Her heart fluttered at his eyes glancing with tears

Tu door reh merese ...bas door reh tu mere se ..mere pass mat aa ....

Mujhe ...mujhe dar lagne laga hai Terese .... Ke tu ajj mere pass aayega....her chin wobbled with emotions as for the first time in the last 4 years she is speaking her heart to him

Or kl Jab mujhe teri zrurt hogi ... Ya mai tere liye awaz dungi tu nhi ayega

Tu kbhi nhi aaya .... Mujhe aisa lgta hai jaise ... Abhi ajj mai apni aankhein bnd rkhu toh tu mere pass ...kl ko jab apni aankhein kholungi ...tu gayab ho jayega

Tu chla jayega ...tu hamesha thi krta hai .... Tu e hamesha yhi kiya hai ...fir kyu aana hai mere kareeb jab jaana hi hai toh ek hi baar par chla jaa na ...

Khatam krde sidharth ....

Sidharth nodded his head in no biting his lips his eyes brimming with tears as her voice came up in utmost pain

She gently raised her hand and kept it on his cheeks as he couldn't speak

Khatam karde ...her voice broke still she whispered

Nhi ... He whispered as he pulled her into his embrace ...she froze at his act ...

Mai bas ... Mai bs chahta hu ke tu khush rhe ... Mujhe tujhe dukh dena acha nhi lgta ... Hum bache the ... Mai .. mai jab tujhe dekhta tha apne ..psnd ki wo har cheej chorh di tune ..mere saath rehne ke liye ... Tune kaha tha ...you wanted to be an archeologist... Jab maine science li toh tune bhi li ...

Tujhe problems hoti thi mujhe acha nhi lgta tha ...tu kabhi mujhe smjh hi nhi payi ..or Mai bhi tujhe samjha nhi paya

Mere peeche aane mai tune kitni cheezein chorh di jo tujhe pyaari thi. ..tujhe music seekhna tha jab mai tujhse door gya tune wo bhi bnd krdiya ... Tujhe paints pasand the mujhe nhi the tune wo bhi chorh diye ....

Us waqt mera tujhse door Jana ek zrurt bn gya tha ...agr us waqt Mai tujhse door nhi jata toh Teri zindagi tere liye nhi sirf mere liye hoti ...he whispered his voice broke as he made his point to her

Tu mujhe smjha bhi toh skta tha ... Itni der kyu ki ? ... She sobbed she understands his every point...as she holds onto him ...

Ab fayeda nhi hai smjhane ka ... He bit his lips...

Tu mere saath kbhi khush nhi rhegi ... Mai tujhse ... He gulps ...

Mai tujhse waisa pyaar ..kbhi kr hi nhi skta. ..jaisa tu ..mujhse chahti hai ... He whispered his voice low as his heart broke

She pulls back from the hug as she gently cups his face

Jaanti hu ...par tu mujhe apne ass toh rehne de skta hai na ?....thode time ke liye ? ... Please mujhe apne pass rehne de ...

He nods his head in no as he holds her hands removing it from his face he makes a distance from her

Tujhe pyaar krna chorhna padega ..
Aage bhadna hoga unke saath jo tujhse pyaar krte hai ...

Mujhe pyaar krna chorh de ... Mujhe nhi chaiye Tera pyaar ...bs krde ab ... He whispered his voice broke the only thing he knew was now that he doesn't deserve her love shivin do ?.... Atleast she is happy with him

He keeps her happy ...he was reminded everytime he left her shivin was there for her

Seedha Bolde pyaar nhi krta ...ye bkws kya krra hai ..
Mujhse pyaar krna chorh de aage badh ye wo ...nhi badhna mujhe aage ....

Nhi chaiye mujhe wo zindagi jaha mere liye tu nhi hai ....nhi chaiye mujhe Mai bhi jis wajah se tune mujhe chorha hai

Tujhe door hi rehna hai na ?.toh thik hai ab nhi aungi mai ...kbhi nhi aungi....or jab chli jau toh kbhi mat dhoondhna mujhe ...

Or ye decide krne wala tu koi nhi hai ke mujhe tujhse pyaar krna hai ke nhi ...

She stood up as she wiped her tears and left the room ...

Tu samjhti kyu nhi hai ... Kyu itna mushkil kar rahi hai sab mere liye .... Mujhe nhi krna tere liye wo sab feel ye jaante hue bhi ke mera tere kareeb aana sirf tujhe taklif dega ..or wo de bhi Raha hai ... har baar sirf taklif hi di hai fir bhi kyu chahti hai mujhe ...

Mai nhi smjh skta tujhe ... Mujhse nhi hota ...

How hard he is trying to push himself away from her ...

It's difficult ...

Sana walked out of his room as he made her way down the stairs walking away from the hostel it was already dusk till then

She was emotionally exhausted and felt her body too weak her head almost bursting with pain as she walked not knowing where she is going .... But somewhere where xmsge can get some peace

Where she could just collect herself ... And prepare herself to not to go to his anymore

If that's what he wanted it fine she will do it for him it will be her last gift to him

She sat down on the grass she had walked and reached and empty open garden across the river ...it was peaceful as she looked at the sun which is setting

She closed her eyes when she reminsed his words

Tu mere sath kabhi khush nhi rhegi

She chuckles painfully her eyes welling up again  ... The irony is he says that she will never be happy with him when the only happy moments she have in her life was with him

Tu mujhe kabhi nhi smjhta ... Toh mai tujhe kaise smjh skti hu ?

Kya itna mushkil ai Tera mere saath rehna ?

Kya itni si baat bhi tujhe samajh mai nhi aati ke mai tujhse pyaar krti hu ...

Kyu karti hu mujhe nhi pta ...lekin pyaar krti hu ...sabse jyada ... Sirf tujhse ....

Par tujhe sirf yahi lgta hai ke tujhse door reh ke mai khush rhungi

Mai already mar rahi hu or tu mujhe or khud se door karta jaa raha hai

Tears fell down her eyes as she sat there .... Her knees wrapped closer around herself as she gept her head over it and reminded the way he cared for her

But he still never realised his feelings for her

Was it that difficult to love her

She felt her heart crack ... ....

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Mai usse khush dekhna chahta hu ... Jab bhi uske kareeb jata hu usse bas dard deta hu issiliye mujhe dukh ho Raha hai ..

Dar lgta hai ke aj uske pass jaunga kl ko kuch aisa ho jayega ke mujhe fir dobara usse door jana pdega

Mujhe uske pass jane se dar lgta hai ..usse dukh dene se dar lgta hai ...

Mai jaanta hu wo mujhse jitna pyaar krti hai shayad mai utna pyaar usse nhi krta

Lekin fir bhi bohot krta hu

Usne zindagi Mai bohot kuch khoya hai

Agr Maine ab door kiya toh shyd ab khud ko bhi kho degi ... He whispered biting his lips when his phone ringed

Whatever the other person said on the call felt like the misery started to creep upon sidharth as the ground slipped beneath his feets ...

He felt his breath shortening as he murmured

Accident ? ....

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Ram ram bhai sareya ne mai toh chali gaaliyan mat dena mujhe 👽👍🏻