I jump with a fright and open my eyes.

I pray my nightmare has said it final goodbyes.

But the next day its the same thing again.

Where did all this craziness begin.

If i close my eyes i know it will restart

Always at the exact same part.

the nightmares have become my worst fear.

The worst part being that they're oh so clear.

No i was never bruised beat or broken

But enough happened to have memories unspoken.

The canal bank, a friends house, even my room,

Thinking of those nights fill me with fear and gloom.

Pinned against a fence, his hands unwanted,

Lifting my dress now i'm always haunted.

In my room his belt came undone

asking me if i wanted to have some fun.

At his house, the alcohol i drank,

when i realized what happened my heart sank.

when he asked i said yes,

i was drunk as hell, but he couldn't care less.

he still took advantage of me

even though he had my permission on some degree. 

I was drunk while he was not,

he abused the chance, he took his shot.

In the end the choice was his, not mine,

and due to my mental state he crossed a line.

now every time i go to sleep 

My nightmares wake me up and all i do is weep.