December 30th 2019, 27 days after Louis' death.

Dear Louis,

I can't do it anymore Lou. I need you with me. I can't function without you, I can't think straight, I'm losing my mind without you. I can't eat or sleep and it's driving me mad. Everyone keeps asking me if I'm okay and telling me it gets better, well I can't wait for it to get better because so far it's only gotten worse and I can't do it anymore.

I want to see you, Sunshine, I want to be with you, no matter where we are.

I'm coming to see you soon Lou. Wait for me.

Love H.