So today is the last day to fill up our admission to University. I had done my admission earlier to two universities. I received a confirmation from the first university but not for the second one (my favorite). So I looked up the website and I wanted to connect to an online account but I didn't remember my ID nor my password. I asked my parents if they knew what they were (because I did the admission with them) and they didn't know. My father began whining to me about being unresponsible. He was mildly angry. I tried many times and tried to connect to another internet page to see where my demand was.

At that moment I was pissed. My father had me driving the car and every 30 seconds he was telling me what to do. "You're going too slow, you're going too fast, you stopped too far, you stopped not far enough, beware the snow mountains, beware other cars, you're not driving well... ugh!" Anyway, I received my ID and it said that my profile was incomplete. I read that I was accepted and that I needed to check yes or no. I clicked on the button, yes and my father grunted and whined that I was too quick. After waiting for him to finish reading I understood that I had been accepted to the university I wanted. I smiled but the mood was sour. I clicked yes and confirmed. Then another page appeared and it said that I needed to pay admission fees of 300$ and my father was more preoccupied with the fact that he needed to pay than the fact that I got accepted. He grimly paid and printed the transaction. He sent to me the transaction and rebuked me for always keeping all of my passwords in the same place.

I went to my room and I don't even want to be happy and celebrate. I feel sad and feel like the news of being accepted isn't worth anything. I should be happy and ecstatic but the only thing I feel is sad.

I feel like my dad's reaction to me forgetting my password has made me doubt myself and the only thing I do is cry. He made me feel like forgetting my password is more important than getting accepted into the university I wanted.

But now I'm just going to let it all out and hope that tomorrow I can realize what happened and be happy and optimistic.