30. Your high and lows for the month

April 21th, 2020

Honestly because of the situation we are in right now, I feel like there are a lot of lows, especially hearing all the new deaths every day. I also had many fights with my sisters and family this month. It's difficult to come back to your parent's home with so many rules that aren't yours when you've lived alone for more than a year. It bothers me to eat so early and stop making noise so early in the evening because my parents are asleep. I have a different living schedule than my parents, I'm more of a night owl and my parents are early risers. They would vacuum the house at like 8 am when I went to bed at midnight the previous day. Being stuck here makes me more determined to move out of my parent's home. 

For the high, I've been on a 31-day streak on Duolingo (my username is Justine-Kit14 so follow me if you want!) and I'm proud that I'm learning a new language. I've also started to look at universities where I could do a master's degree and looking at those gave me hope, hope for a better time. Also, not a long time ago it was BangBangCon. It was amazing and really made me happy. I didn't watch it all because 12 consecutive hours is a lot and with the timezones, it was from 11 pm to 11 am so directly during the night. They are amazing entertainers and I fell in love with so many new songs, seeing them performs makes me more excited to see them in Toronto when they can tour again!

It was fun to do this challenge but to be honest some days I liked to do it but others I really didn't feel like it. I'm not someone who adores writing. I like coming up with storylines but writing is a different thing. I want my writing to be good since I read so many stories of my friends on Wattpad which are so well written and I want my stories to be as good as theirs. Like other students, I have an ever-changing schedule so I can't plan times to write because I never know when will I have a meeting or do homework. I also don't really feel confident about my writing because English is my second language and I learned how to speak in English and not really how to write stories. This puts me down as I want to write good stories for you all. I get discouraged and stop writing for a while so most of my stories are half-written. Finally, I'm starting my summer semester next Monday so either I'll never be on here or I'll be here because I'm procrastinating.