No one notices your tears,
No one notices your sadness,
No one noices your pain but
Everyone notices your mistakes.

Imran:
It has not been easy since our parents passed away..I tried alot in the beginning I had to be strong for my sister and she had to be for me and we had each others support I knew she was missing them as well but we became each others strength Alhamdulillah.

I was told Dad handed me business just a year before he passed away he taught me everything in advance yet Aisha's dad was told by my parents to hand over to me dad's business when I complete college and he had everything planned for me as if he knew one day they won't be here.

I was one of bright student and mum always said I was more mature than guys of our age, our business was being handled by Aisha's parents since we were always close why was she always stuck with me even after I tried to avoid her I knew all these later after reading letters from dad's personal files.

I have hidden alot from Yumna till the fact that my tumor was removed successfully last year and there were risks but still I din't want her to worry she was newly wedded it was worst phase of my life people thought I ran away for two years and news flashed everywhere little did they know my real story but I never cared I knew people judged and there came in between my personal life Aisha the one girl that has always been Stuck with me and I have no idea why she always stood by my side.

Aisha always knew about me the hurt which was deep, the sorrow everything and she even tried to find out more about me.

She said she loved me yet I pushed away I might hurt her or she might leave me life is not fair and people play dirty games in business world and the more I pushed her away the more I felt something trigger in my heart the loneliness, emptiness hurt after hurting her with harsh words but did the girl listen?Instead she went and found out about my disease?wasn't she afraid?I knew she said she liked me but still no I can't be with her.

Yumna was extremely angry with me when she found out I hid from her my disease she din't even talk to me for months but thanks to Ahad he helped and explained her then I apologised and I knew she has soft heart and a heart of forgiving.

I still kept away one more thing from her which I found out about their accident since Ahad told me it would hurt her let us not inform her for now.

I had too many stuffs going on in my head as I lay on my bed while Aisha still here waiting for her mum she's crazy for falling for guy like me.

She was too innocent to enter in my loneliness life and there were too many risks once I allowed her there will be no backing out.

Better she stays away from me I still have alot alot to figure out, my life is a mess at moment and my feelings for her I am still confused and I need to talk to someone about it.

I had tumor once which  might come back anytime of my life, my life is my business, my sister got married and I decided to work more to distract from thoughts.

I asked her after she told me everything but still she was stubborn.

"I will not since you are stubborn and let's see whose more stubborn,"she said while sitting changing her sitting position on coach.

"You will be tired just go home I will be fine by myself,"she said and I decided I need to do something she needs rest she needs to be away from me.

"Just leave okey and first you interfered in my personal life, who even told you to search,"I told her sounding harsh so she would leave but she always had a come back to whatever I said.

Ya Allah this girl will make me go crazy.

I am glad few more minutes then her mum would come with food.

She wasn't even going to kitchen or somewhere,"Why was she stubborn?"

"Is that your way of telling me to leave you alone and if you want someone else to sit I am fine with it,"She said sounding annoyed and she looked cute but I need to do something.

We can't be together and she has to move on even before being with me.

"I had told your mum that if I agree to see a doctor In return she will accept something from me,"I told her trying to make her understand.

"Yeah so?"she asked and focused back on her phone I guess she was reading books that's what even Yumna does my sister is a crazy wWattpadlover.

"I am going to ask your mum about my friend's proposal for you he has been waiting since long now," I told her and her face became pale and she just kept staring I knew It's not easy but it's for best.

"You can do Istikhara(prayer performed to ask Allah to guide you when you are confused)"I told her furthermore and she was just silent not even looking at me and that hurt more but still.

"It's better to be alone than drag someone else and hurt her or was I making the wrong decision by pushing her away?"

Her mom soon came and Aisha just excused herself even after her mom called her twice she just told her she had to go somewhere but I knew better than anyone else.

"What did you do to her?"Aisha's mom asked me while opening the packets which she brought and placing drinks aside.

"I just talked to her about my friend's proposal you know aunty she needs to settle down, "I told her trying to convince her from my point of view.

"You know she has been stuck with you and she tried but she likes you if am not wrong she even told you her feelings and yet you are pushing her away hurting her, "Aisha's mom told me about Aisha's feelings and she didn't want to hide anything from me so she told me how Aisha tried to forget me and yet when she tried I came back.

"Was that Allah's plan?"I thought.

"Should I let her in?"

"I am not good for her aunty my life Is mess at moment I had tumor I went away for two years for surgery and I had to push her away she was better off without me and now tumour might come back anytime I have side effects and Aisha found out from the internet, "I told her and she was wiping her tears telling me from now on they are with me and I shouldn't hide anything from them.

I told her everything.

"You are strong MashaaAllah and please don't hurt my daughter she's really into you," She told me and my eyes just widened.

I missed my parents but Allah never burdens a person more than he/she can handle I have some amazing people in my life Alhamdulillah.

"Ya, Allah aunty you are the best and please this stays between us, "I told her and she kissed me on my forehead.

"Your secret is safe with me," She told me and soon door opened Yumna and Ahad entered with bug smiled plastered on their faces.

"We go and you do this to yourself, "Yumna said while keeping her luggage aside door and coming to hug me while Ahad joined and Yumna asked for Aisha.

"So all of them knew you two were coming except me?"I asked sounding hurt and they all laughed.

They said yeah it was surprise for me.We ate dinner and talked.

"Where's my best friend?"Yumna asked me as if I was the one at fault since she was told by Aisha that we will have dinner together.

I looked at aunty and aunty looked back at me and made an excuse and soon they left I woke up slowly made ablution and prayed Isha(last prayer)
I hate this loneliness...I need to do something but I have no idea what am so confused, Aisha was in my mind, Astagfirullah I asked Allah to guide me.

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It was third day I so wanted to go to the office I miss my work and Aisha must have been alone for two days.

"Why did I care all of sudden?"

"I checked the time it was 11 am I should go so  I decided to stand up but these two had to interrupt ya Allah am stuck here till when?"Yumna and Ahad came to my room and I decided to pretend I was sleeping but they knew.

"Look whom we have brought?"Yumna said with a bright smile as if her friend was lost somewhere.

"What was she doing here again?"