I WANT TO HAVE TOP SURGERY SO BADLY BUT WON'T BE ABLE TO EVER GET IT UGHHHHH
LIKE I HATE LOOKING AT MY BOOBS SO MUCH BECAUSE OF THE BAD MEMORIES THEY GIVE ME FROM PAST THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO ME AND I ALSO JUST BECAUSE I HATE THEM :((
I JUST HATE LOOKING AT THEM AND HAVING THEM SO MUCH
SOMETIMES I DON'T MIND THEM AND OCCASIONALLY DO LIKE THEM BUT FOR THE MOST PART I WANT THEM GONE 
I WISH I COULD JUST GET RID OF THEM BUT I CAN'T *SIGH*

that's it that's all. just me and my gender dysphoria