Two weeks later...

Lillian walked next to Jeanette and two of her friends around the mall but she was really bored since the three girls were the ones mostly having fun. Lillian was always considered the fourth wheel. She didn't have fun talking about the same things they did.

Lillian suddenly smelled something that made her mouth water so mad. She looked down the mall and saw a few feet away a soft pretzel stand. One sounded really good right now.

"Lil, come on." Jeanette said and Lillian's head snapped to her right to see Jeanette and her friends going into Hollister.

"Give me a second. I'm going to catch something to snack on." she said, pointing at the stand.

She shrugged, "Okay."

Lillian practically skipped over towards the stand like a little child and she smiled at the lady behind the stand, "Hi, can I get one salt pretzel with icing?"

"Sure," she said. "Anything to drink?" she asked.

Lillian looked to see what they had, "Yes, uh, a berry smoothie please, medium."

The lady just nodded and punched it into the cash register. Lillian handed the lady her last five dollars and impatiently waited. She lit up when the lady handed her the pretzel bag and her drink.

"Thanks," she said excitedly and walked over to Hollister. She started dipping and chowing down on her snack when she met up with the other girls. They all gave her weird looks.

"What?" she shrugged.

"Hungry?" Jeanette asked.

Lillian took another bite and nodded, "Yes, it's so good." she said, taking a sip of her smoothie.

"You know Lillian, I go to the gym across town. You can join me if you want to." Brittney said, giggling with the other girls. Jeanette gave them both a look and shook her head.

Lillian frowned and looked down at her stomach, she was getting fat. Her eyes watered up, but she blinked them back. She turned around and walked out of the store, not wanting to be in there and went over to the bench to finish her pretzel.

Fifteen minutes later, the three girls finally came out of the store each with a bag. They were giggling and went the opposite way from Lillian. Lillian got up with her mouth hanging open. Jeanette totally forgot about her.

She was pacing back and forth, trying to think of what to do. She wanted to be mad at Jeanette but she also felt sad she was losing her best friend. She walked over to the trash can, threw her stuff away, and left the mall in the opposite direction of where the group of girls she was with parked.

She walked outside and started on her way home. It was kind of a long walk, but she didn't mind. She crossed her arms over her chest and wondered how long it would take for Jeanette to notice they forgot about her.

She was half way there when a sudden pressure went up her throat. "Oh no," she said and ran over to a bush, puking up the soft pretzel.

~

Lillian tried on her third shirt and she grimaced at the mirror. She was only three months but you could see the small bump. She was never the skinniest girl in school but the bump would be noticeable. She grabbed her blue jacket and zipped it up, deciding she was going to have to wear it throughout the day.

She braided her hair up into a side braid and put on her glasses. She went downstairs and decided to eat an orange since big stuff seemed to make her throw up more. Her mom gave her a questionable look on the orange but ignored it.

Lillian sat at the table and as she peeled it, she thought of a way in which she could tell her parents. Hell, she could tell them right now since they were both at the table but a heavy weight was on her stomach and she couldn't get the words out. She was scared to tell them.

She knows she won't have much time soon since she'll be getting bigger and they'll start to ask questions but right now, she can't. Her tongue was heavy and her stomach turned at the thought of them kicking her out.

After eating, she grabbed her aviator and threw it on over her blue jacket. She climbed in her mom's car with her sister and her mom drove.

When she got to school, she went to her locker and did her usual stuff. She took off the aviator and grabbed her stuff.

She wondered if it was normal to not feel pregnant. Does not feeling pregnant mean you're not pregnant? She was so confused right now. She didn't want to see a doctor, though. She didn't want her parents to find out.

Lillian felt someone come near her and she turned her head to her right to see Jeanette coming her way giving her an apologetic awkward smile. When she got to Lillian's locker, she said, "Lil, I'm so, so, so sorry about yesterday. I didn't mean to diss you like that. I'm so sorry, I'm such a horrible friend, I know."

"It's okay." Lillian said and Jeanette looked at her in shock. It's not like Lillian has been the perfect best friend either. She slept with her boyfriend after all! Whatever Jeanette does is not as bad as what she did, so she'll have to forgive her.

But Lillian's sure when she finds out from Ryan, Jeanette's going to flip on her. Hopefully she'll forgive Lillian.

"Are you sure?" Jeanette asked. "I mean, what I did was horrible. I completely forgot about you and I'm so sorry-"

"Jean, I'm serious, it's okay." she said. Lillian couldn't take her apologizing for something so little now that she thinks of it. She closed her locker, "Come on, let's get to class."

"Okay.", she said, following in next to her.

*

Lillian and Ryan sat across from each other awkwardly at the lunch table, both ignoring each other. Lillian stirred her spoon around in her yogurt, not really much in the mood for it. Actually, she could go for some Chinese food right now.

Jeanette's laughter woke her up, "Oh my god, that's so true! Lil, wasn't that funny!"

Lillian's head snapped up and she looked at her blankly, "Huh?"

Jeanette gave her a confused look, "You weren't listening?"

"I'm sorry, I've just been tired lately." she said, not really lying. She just wanted a nap right now.

"Oh, why?" Jeanette asked.

Lillian paused, not sure how to explain herself. It was a moment before she opened her mouth, "Um, just...late studying."

"Late studying?" Jeanette questioned, looking at her confused for a few moments. She then gasped and squealed, "Oh my god, your joking!"

Lillian eyebrows forward together, "Huh?"

Jeanette grinned, "Oh like you don't! Did you find a boyfriend, Lil? And you didn't tell me?"

Lillian cheeks blushed up, "What? No, of course not! Where would you get a thought like that?"

She shrugged, "I don't know, you've been distant lately." she said. "Come on, who is he? There has to be someone you've been spending your time thinking about."

"Jean, come on, stop it." Ryan said, looking slightly annoyed.

"What?" Jeanette shrugged innocently. "Lil's my best friend, we're allowed to talk about this."

"I don't have a boyfriend." Lillian said clearly.

Jeanette bit into her apple, "Well then you need one." she said. "And since you don't like Todd, maybe Ryan can talk to one of his buddies." she grinned and Lillian blushed harder.

"I'm fine." Lillian said.

"Ryan, you should talk to Louis. I think they would make a cute couple-"

"Jean, stop it-" Ryan said.

"No to Louis? Okay, how about James-"

Lillian was annoyed and tired about Jeanette trying to hook her up. Look what happened the last time she tried! Lillian snapped, "I don't need a boyfriend!" she said and got up, not missing the surprise look on her face before leaving the caf to go to the bathroom.

She went into a stall, pressing her back against the door, and slid down it, feeling bad now.

Lillian placed her hands on her stomach and rubbed it. Her eyes watered up and a few tears left. She was an emotional wreck.

*

Lillian was lying in bed when her phone went off. She picked it up and saw a number she didn't recognize. Her eyebrows came together as she pressed the green button and brought it to her ear, "Hello?"

"Hey, it's Ryan."

Lillian sat up from the bed, curious as to what he had to say. "What do you want?" she asked, not meaning for it to come out rude.

"I'm outside your house, can you come out? I have to talk to you." he asked.

As she slid off her bed, she asked, "You're outside my house?" and went over to her window, pulling the curtain aside. She couldn't see his car well enough since it was dark but she did and was surprised.

"Yeah, so can you come out or not?" he asked.

She hesitated but sighed, "Yeah, one second."

She slipped on her snow boots, grabbed her jacket, and left her room. She went down the steps and when her parents gave her a questionable look, she simply told them she was going on a walk around the block.

She went outside and went over to Ryan's car. She quickly got in and rubbed her hands together before turning to look at him. When she expected him to say something she looked at him. Then she became awkwardly confused when he didn't say anything. "What?"

"I think we should tell Jeanette together." he said.

Her mouth dropped, "What? No. I can't just go up to my best friend and say 'oh, I slept with him and I'm pregnant. Sorry, hope we can still be friends'. It doesn't work like that, I can't handle her look of betrayal."

"And you think I can?" he questioned. "But we did this together, we should tell her together."

"I have to worry about my parents and you worry about your girlfriend." she said.

"What about my parents, huh?" he question. "My parents are going to flip a cannon when they find out I got a girl pregnant; one that isn't even my girlfriend. If you aren't going to take care of it," he said and Lillian knew he meant abortion, "You're going to help me tell her. You won't be the only one going to lose her."

They went into a glaring contest until Lillian knew what he was saying was true. She didn't want to but she knew she had to. She had to make lots of decision now and one of them is that she does have to tell Jeanette.

"Fine.", she said. He nodded, opened his month, then closed it and looked away. Lillian raised an eyebrow, "What?"

"I," he said, then forced a smile and dropped it before looking back at me. "I was wondering if I could feel your stomach. I know, weird, but I'm just curious to what it feels like."

Lillian was a little shocked at the question. She was hesitant since she was insecure about her stomach bump, but since it was his baby, she nodded and leaned up better, pulling her jacket and shirt up. She took his hand and placed it on her abdomen where it was a little hard.

"Wow," he said. "Have you made plans to go to a doctor yet?'

She shook her head, "No, I'm scared. I don't want my parents to find out."

"Well, um," he said. "My cousin girlfriend works at this place where it's only for ultrasound. I can talk to him and get you set up. I doubt they'll call your parents."

She stared at him in shock, "You would do that for me?" she asked.

He rubbed his hand around her stomach, "Yeah, don't sound so shocked." he said, chuckling.

"Well, um, thanks." she said.

After a few more moments of talking about the ultrasound, she told him she had to go back in. She got out the car and jogged up to her house as he drove away. She went in and went back up to her room, but was taken aback when she saw her sister Cassandra sitting on her bed.

"What are you doing in here?" she asked. Her sister was one of those pre-teens who think they're grown up. Long blonde wavy hair, glossy green eyes, and beautiful; total opposite and so annoying.

"Who was that boy?" she asked.

Lillian looked at her in shock, but quickly changed her expression, "What are you talking about?'

She crossed her arms over her chest, "Don't play dumb with me, Lillian. I saw you in his car. Who is he?"

Lillian thought lying was pointless, so she said instead, "None of your business, I'm the oldest."

"No, Brad's the oldest." she said.

Lillian smacked her teeth, "Get out of my room, Cas."

"Just tell me." she said. "He's cute, how'd you get a cute boy like that?"

Lillian pointed at the door, "Out, now."

"Why so quick for me to get out?" she question and Lillian groaned in annoyance.

"Cassandra, if you don't get out right now, I swear!" she snapped.

"Jeez, calm down." Cassandra said. "Keep your panties on. You got your period or something?" she asked as she walked out.

Lillian walked over to her door and slammed it shut, feeling moody already.