"You can do this, Lil.", Ryan said, trying to sound all brave and confident as they sat in the school parking lot. Lillian looked in his eyes and saw concern in his eyes also. Of course everyone knows him and Jeanette broke up since she changed her status to single on Facebook but they aren't sure if she told anyone the reason why. "I'll be with you when you go in and when we leave.".

"But what about during classes?", she asked. "I have at least two classes with Jean and I don't think I could be able to be in the same room as her or any of her friends.".

He took a moment to say something, "Ignore them, it's not like they could do anything to you in class but give you looks. Just do your usual stuff by being a nerd and pay attention to the lesson.".

She glared at him, "Nice, real nice.".

He smiled and leaned over, kissing her cheek, "It's what I like about you, though.", he said and she blush, smiling though. "The most we'll have to deal with is at lunch and like before, just ignore everyone.".

"I hope your right, Ryan.", she said. "I mean, look how they treated Tamara Rogen.", she said, who just went into labor over the weekend. "Pregnancies at this school like someone just died and they never stop talking about it.".

"She had a one to many night stand and didn't know who the father is.", he said. "You have me with you.".

She lowered her head a little, wonder how long it would last between them. She didn't want to seem doubt full and start thinking he'll realize how much work this was and Lillian was no 'Jeanette'.

She felt his hand go under her chin and left her head up, "Hey, what's wrong?"

She shook her head and pushed her hair behind her ear, "Nothing, just a little sleepy. I'm still getting use to only sleep on my sides only and it's kind of uncomfortable right now, keeping me up sometimes.", she half lied. It was true, for being one of those people who are use to sleeping mostly on her stomach, it was becoming pain getting use to only sleeping on her side or back since her stomach was more hard now.

"Okay.", he said. He brought his wrist up and looked at his watch, "We should go in now, though. Classes will be starting in five minutes.".

She sighed, hesitating but nodded. They got out of the car and she wrapped herself in her cardigan. People were confused as they watched both of them getting out of the same car and Ryan wrapping his arm around her, making their way to the school entrance.

Lillian felt uncomfortable with people watching her. The school probably see her bump over the black t-shirt. It was the first time she would go without wearing her hoodie. It was no point in trying to hide it now anyways and she was getting tired of wearing hoodies. Ryan thought she looked real pretty though with the black t-shirt, white cardigan, dark skinnies, and tan moccasins shoes with her hair down.

When they got to the sophomore hallway, people around looked at them with either confusion, shaking their heads, or snobby looks--mostly from Jeanette friends but Jeanette was no where around. People around already started the rumors as Lillian went over to her locker and wanted to go in there and hide the whole day. She heard 'pregnant' 'baby' boyfriend stealer' 'how could she?' and 'both are crazy' or 'stupid'.

Ryan leaned against the free locker next to her and leaned down to her, "See, you didn't faint or anything.".

She frowned up at him, "Be more supportive, Ryan.", she said with sad eyes and she heard a few people coughing a 'slut' as they walked passed. She didn't really care what they were saying, but it did hurt a little.

"Right.", he said. He put a hand on her arm, "Hey, I almost forgot to tell you. My mom wanted to invite you over tonight for dinner.".

She groaned, "I can't, I have to help my mom and Cassandra clean the whole house up because my brother Brad coming home tomorrow for vacation for one week."

"You--your brother?", he asked, shifting uncomfortably. "You mean, Brad Monroe?", he asked and Lillian couldn't help but grin at his nervousness. Her brother was pretty popular in high school and being as smart as he was, everyone loved him. He was also on the football team, not quarterback but still in a high part.

She giggled, "Don't worry, I'll make sure he doesn't want to end up killing you once he finds out.".

"You haven't told him yet?", he asked.

"No.".

"Oh, well, I guess my mom beat you to tell my brothers cause she called them right up after we told them.", he said. "But okay, I'll make sure she understand. I better get going to my locker now before I get late for Mr. Gilbert gives me a detention.".

She frowned, not wanting him to leave her alone here with everyone still watching her. But she nodded, "Okay.".

He leaned down to kiss her and before she could stop him since she wasn't a fan of public display, he kissed her. Her cheeks blushed up and she heard more whisperers. "I'll see you at lunch.", he said before leaving.

Damn you, Ryan, she thought, loving the kiss though.

She grabbed all the books she need and the one good thing about having a bump belly, she had something to help hold them up when she placed the button of the book on top of belly as she closed her locker and turned around.

And she just thought of the idea of hiding in her locker when everyone left in the hallway looked at her again. A knot formed in her throat, but she kept her head high and walked to class, hoping the rest of the day she wont puke.

~

At lunch, Ryan and Lillian sat with some of Ryan friends who were trying to act as if their buddy hadn't gotten a girl who isn't--well, now ex girlfriend, but their tried their best not to stare at her and her stomach.

Lillian didn't think today would be so awkward as it was. Not only did teenagers look at her but so did her teachers. Not one of them talked to her and none of the teachers picked on her when she wanted to answer a questioned. She felt like little tiny ant while a group of kids around watched her struggle carry a piece of bread. Bad example of how high she felt but true. And Jeanette must've decided to stay home today since she didn't arrive today yet.

"So Lilith-", a guy name Dillon said.

"Lillian.", Ryan said.

"Right!", he quickly said, nervously chuckling at the mistake and Lillian just sank her in her seat, feeling awkward. "So how far along are you? Ryan said around twenty two, but I have no idea how much that is.".

"Five and half.", she said.

"Boy or girl?".

"I don't know yet.", she shrugged. "We'll find out in two weeks though.".

"What do you both want?", another friend name Max asked.

"A boy.", Ryan said while Lillian said, "Either one.".

She looked at him surprise, thought he actually wanted a girl. He looked uncomfortable, "O-or a girl, doesn't matter either.", he said and Lillian guessed he thought she was mad at saying that, but she wasn't.

She looked back at his friend, "A boy would be nice though. We wouldn't be disappoint if it was a girl though, she'll be great to."

"Yeah, Xavier.', Ryan said, chuckling. Lillian looked at him as if she was telling him, 'no' with her mind and he cleared his throat as he stopped, "Nah, we were thinking Zane Gabriel or Gabriel Zane.".

"And for a girl, Mickenzie Carlee.", Lillian added.

"Wow, you already have names picked out.", Dillon said. "Must be excited.".

"Yeah." they both said.

A guy next to Ryan hit his arm, "You'll be a great father, Ry."

Ryan smiled, "Thanks man."

A boy name Kayson spoke, "I'm sure you both can do it, my sister had her daughter pretty young also. It looked hard but she manage with school and taking care of her.".

"And how's she now?" Lillian asked.

He shrugged, "Happy and getting married three years later.".

Lillian kept herself smiling, but she blushed at the word 'married', thinking if her and Ryan would ever get married. She felt crazy for thinking that since they haven't even said 'I love you' to each other. Oh god, what if he never does and we never get married? What he just leaves us?, she thought and wanted to punch herself for freaking out at the thought, but they were having a baby without being in love.

Well, actually, Lillian thinks she in love with him. She has strong feelings for him like she never had before. She thought of him all day and when she was always in his arm, she felt loved and special. When he kissed her, she just wants more and more. He knew when to make her smile and make her chest feel tighter and she knew it just wasn't acid relief since she shouldn't get them until a little later.

~

Ryan and Lillian laid in the back of Ryan car, just listen to music after school at a park they were on Saturday. Lillian didn't want to go home just yet, wanting to spend time with Ryan. They hands were entwined together as they just took in each other warmth's as they laid down.

"I don't want go home." she said, sighing.

He smiled, "And why's that?"

"I hate cleaning.", she said and they both chuckled. "I guess I should get use to it, since I'll always have to clean up once the baby here." she said.

"I'll help.", he said and Lillian rolled her eyes. "Hey, I can clean up a few things here and there."

She chuckled, "I know, but boys--their not as good as girls. Brad was an awesome person, but he was lazy when it came to cleaning and I was always stuck finishing up cleaning his room when he only clean one fourth of it."

Ryan surprised her by jump onto of her and in-between her legs, tickling her, "Oh really? Saying I can't cleaning up a little baby mess?".

She chuckled, trying to stop his hands, "O-of...course not! Stop it!", she giggled. "Ryan, stop it!".

"Not until you beg.", he said.

"Never!", she said, giggling more.

"Okay, I wont stop then!", he said, continuing to tickle her more and it was becoming hard for her to breath, so she decided to beg just for him to stop before she start hiccupping, which she hates.

"O-okay! Please, Ryan, stop! I beg you!", she said and he finally stopped and she took a few deeps breaths before propping herself up on her elbows, "You're evil.".

"Well I'm sure Zane/Gabriel or Mickenzie thinks I'm awesome.", he said, rubbing her stomach.

"You know, babies can hear your voices when their in the womb.", she said and he looked up at her surprised.

"Really?", he asked.

"Yeah, well, at least my voice I'm pretty sure but I don't see why not yours since my mom says playing music also it can hear.", she said. "That's when the baby likes to move the most when I play music like the shower."

"Hmmm, the shower.", he said almost purring like and she blushed up. She watched as his eyes fell to her chest where her boobs are getting a little bigger and she hit his chest and he chuckled, "I'm playing! I don't think you can have sex while your pregnant anyways.".

She blushed more, "Well, actually, you can. My doctor told me if I was going to be sexual active again, it was okay and healthy, helps with labor even, which I don't see how, but yeah.".

She watched as his cheeks blushed, "O-oh, really?"

"Yeah.", she said awkwardly since they never brought up having sex again before.

"Well, whenever your comfortable and ready, we can if you want.", he said.

She couldn't help but wonder if she was ready again. It kind of sucks being pregnant and you only had sex one time. And being pregnant doesn't help her hormones where she feels horny a lot more often. She couldn't stop thinking when was the last time him and Jeanette had sex. It made her frown thinking how much he could have enjoyed it with her and Lillian isn't even close to experience as Jeanette.

"What's wrong? Was it something I said?", he asked and she shook her head, looking down at her stomach. "Then tell me--and don't says it's nothing, I know there something wrong, Lil.".

She hesitated before taking a deep where, "When was the last time you and Jean had sex?".

"What?", he questioned and her face redden, not wanting to ask again. "Almost three months.", he said and she looked up at him confused. "Yeah but right after we found out you were pregnant we tried but I. . .well, couldn't get it up. I was freaked out for one and second, I was freaking out about getting her pregnant then since I thought if it could happen to you, it could happen to her. That was one of the reasons why she started fighting with me Saturday.".

She raised an eyebrow at him, "Are you being for real?", she asked.

"Ask her if you want.", he said. "And do you know how hard that is not to have sex for three months? For a guy at least?"

Her face just redden as she laid back down. She hesitated, before asking, "Well. . . do you want to soon?'.

He looked confused for a moment before realizing what she was asking and his eyes widen, "Um, well, like I said, whenever your ready again.".

Wow, this is awkward, she thought.

"And let it be in one of our beds this time.", he said, making them both chuckle. He leaned down and kissed her, his stomach pressed against her bump one.

Suddenly something vibrated and he jumped off her, "Was that the baby?".

She chuckled, "Of course not! That was my phone.", she said, reaching in her pocket and took her cellphone out, getting a text from Cassandra telling her to get home cause she doesn't want to have to do the laundry all alone again.