"Are you really making me do this again?" I ask Colton as we get into the car.

"Yes. You know the drill," he tells me. I roll my eyes as I take my sweatshirt off and put it on backwards. I pull the hood over my face.

After our flight landed, we stopped at Alex's apartment and Colton grabbed stuff that he put in the back of the car before I figured out what it was. Alex let us take her car. I think it's all part of his surprise.

I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I know Colton is really thoughtful and the last time he did this, it was really sweet. But it is almost one in the morning and I have no idea where he's taking me. Nothing would be open right now.

"Where are you gonna take me this late?" I ask.

I hear Colton laugh softly before saying, "A strip club."

"Colton," I say dryly. I hit his arm even though I still have the blindfold on. "You're not funny."

"What if I was taking you to a male strip club?" he asks as I hear the blinker turn on.

"You have the body of a male stripper, so I wouldn't care," I tell him. I'm guessing he's smiling, but I wish I could see it. I love it when the dimple on his right cheek comes out.

"That's sweet," Colton says. I hear the blinker again.

"Where are you taking me?" I ask again.

"That ruins the surprise."

I sigh. "How long is it gonna take?"

I hear Colton laugh again. "You have no patience," he tells me.

"Shut up," I mutter. I feel his hand lace with mine and I relax a little bit against my chair. I rub my thumb against his palm. "And I do have patience."

"I know," Colton says.

"Are you sure the sweatshirt is necessary? It seems a little bit excessive," I tell him.

He laughs again. "You're really excited aren't you? You're like a kid on a road trip asking how much longer it is."

I shrug. "It's kind of that situation."

"We're almost there," he says. I nod and I feel his hand pull away. The car slows down and then stops. I hear the engine turn off. "I'll come get you when it's ready. No fucking peeking."

"I wasn't going to—" I start.

"No fucking peeking," Colton tells me again. I shake my head with a grin. I hear his door shut and then the trunk open. I wonder what he has planned.

I feel so fucking lucky and loved. I know that we don't have a happy ending but it doesn't matter. It feels like we do. It feels like Colton and I are going to love each other until we're old and wrinkled.

I don't know how it took four years to realize that Colton's my soulmate. And I don't know how I've managed to fall so fucking hard for him. It's like he's my entire world and I revolve around him, and the sun won't come up when he's not here.

I don't think I'll ever find a love like this again.

Colton knocks on my window and I jump. I can tell he's grining even though I can't see him. He opens the door and I get out.

"I'm gonna take your sweatshirt off, but keep your eyes closed," Colton says. I feel the hood come off my face and Colton pulls my sweatshirt off. I don't know what he does with it but I feel his hands brush my face gently. I shiver. "You trust me, right?"

"Of course I do," I tell him as a smile stretches across my face. "You're such a fucking nerd."

"I thought you said I was a stripper," Colton says. I shrug and I feel his hands cup my face. My smile fades as butterflies pool in my stomach. Somehow, his touch feels even better with my eyes are closed. My other senses are heightened. "Are you gonna keep your eyes closed?"

I nod and his thumb brushes my bottom lip. My hands fumble blindly until I find his chest. I can feel the heat radiating off of him and my pulse quickens. I feel Colton leaning into me and then his lips find mine.

He kisses me slowly and deeply and my head starts spinning. I slide my hands up his chest and stop at his neck. I press closer to him and I feel one of his hands on my waist. He continues to kiss me until the slow burn feels so good that I'm about to forget my name.

Colton pulls away. "Keep your eyes closed."

"Whatever," I mutter. Colton takes my hand and pulls me a few steps. I feel his hands on my waist as his back to my chest.

"You can look now," he says.

I grin as I open my eyes. But my smile fades as awe takes over my face. Colton covered the hood of the car and windshield with pillows and blankets. There's a picnic basket and a thermos with something in it.

"I figured we could watch the stars," Colton tells me. "Or you can. All I have to do is look at you."

I grin as I turn around. "This is...no one has ever done anything like this before," I tell Colton. "I swear, you don't have to make me swoon this hard to get laid."

Colton shrugs. "I wanted to do it for you."

I smile as I wrap my arms around his shoulders and press my face into his chest. His hands slide around me as he hugs me back tightly.

"Thank you," I tell him quietly.

I feel his arms rubbing my back. "You don't have to thank me for anything," Colton says. "I'm going to spend the rest of my life loving you as hard as I can. And making it up to you and doing stuff like this. You really are my fucking star, Andy. Everything is so dark right now, but you're such a blinding fucking light. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me."

I smile against his chest and I feel tears slipping down my cheek and making his shirt wet. I sniffle and more tears fall but I'm smiling.

"I'm not crying because I'm sad. I'm crying because I'm so fucking happy," I tell Colton. "I'm crying because you're the best thing that's ever happened to me too. I don't want to love anyone else because it'll never fucking compare. Being with you is the only way I want it to end."

Colton nods as I pull away. I smile as I wipe my tears away. Colton grins as he sits down. I sit down next to him and lean on my elbow.

He pulls the picnic basket in between us. He grins as he tells me, "It's not fried chicken, I promise. I brought crackers, dark chocolate, berries and sandwiches."

I grin. "I swear I owe you five gold stars now. Look who's healthy?" I say. "What's in the thermos?"

Colton grins. "Hot chocolate with almond milk."

"You're really trying to get laid, aren't you?" I ask as I grab the chocolate from the basket.

"Maybe," Colton says with a smile. He takes a drink of the hot chocolate. I pass him the chocolate and he takes some.

We sit there eating for a few minutes and it feels so dreamy and romantic. My head hasn't stopped spinning in the best way. Colton feels so unbelievably good to be around. He makes me feel so special and unique. It's like loving him has painted everything so vibrantly. Everything is just better. There's no grey anywhere.

God, I love him so much that I don't care if it destroys me. I just want him. And the thing is that Colton is mine and I don't have to want for him. I have him and nights like these are almost enough to last me a lifetime, but they're also never going to be enough.

All I want is to spend the rest of my life loving Colton. And I will. He has me so head over heels in love with him. And his touch sets me on fire and sends chills down my spine in the best way.

I don't know what I'm going to do when he's gone, but all that matters is right now. And right now I'm staring into Colton's green eyes and everything feels like it's going to be okay. It feels like we're going to hold onto each other until we can't anymore. It feels like forever might be tonight.

"Your eyes are too pretty," I tell Colton. "And I love that dip in your bottom lip."

"Am I turning you on?" Colton asks playfully. I shrug and his face turns serious as he moves everything off the car except for me and the blanket and the pillows.

I laugh. "Wow. That was fast."

He shrugs. "We have the whole night to fuck. I want to look at the stars first," he tells me as he lays down. I slip my blanket over him and put my head on his chest. I sigh when Colton starts playing with my hair.

"The stars are really pretty," I tell Colton. There are a few clouds out and the moon is crescent-shaped. It's the stars that steal the night. The weather is perfect. It's slightly cold out but it's the perfect temperature with Colton and the blankets.

"I know," Colton says. He sighs. "Can I ask you something?"

"Of course."

His fingers keep playing with my hair. "What was it like for you? After high school?"

"It was okay," I tell him as I sigh. "Boston was great. I did well in my classes. Bryce was fun, but nothing was special. With Bryce, it was only fun until it wasn't. We burned out and a lot of it was hormones, and then he was gone. And then we moved to New York and he was never there. But Tasha, Brooke and Bobbe we're always so solid and good."

"Do you regret anything?" Colton asks.

I run my finger along his chest. "Yeah. A lot of stuff. I wish I did things differently in high school. With you. I wish I hadn't been so stupid. I wish I realized that I loved you and that it wasn't love with Bryce."

"Did you ever love Bryce?" Colton doesn't sound judgemental or anything. He sounds more curious and calm.

"I thought I did," I tell him. "But it wasn't like this. I never saw the rest of my life with Bryce. I never loved him like it would destroy me."

"Am I your only love then?" Colton asks, and I call tell he's smiling.

I smile as I prop myself up and shift so I'm on top of Colton. "You are. And you're my true love," I tell him as I kiss his forehead. I pull away and stare into his green eyes as I run my thumb over his lip. "I'm never going to love anyone else in a way this raw. I'm never going to love anyone else like I love you."

Colton smiles slightly. "Good," he murmurs. I smile before I kiss him. I kiss him slowly but passionately and slip my hands under his shirt. Colton kisses me back urgently and he flips me around so I'm under him.

He kisses me harder as he pins my arms above my head. I wrap my legs around his waist and I can't help but smile because he's kissing me the way he used to in high school. He always kissed me like the world was going to end and pinned my arms above my head.

An alarm beeps and I frown. I pull away and he grins sheepishly. "What was that?"

He smiles and says, "It's 2:29 AM."

And then he goes back to kissing me and making me dizzy.

And even  if the world ended, I would die happy.

I just hope tomorrow at the hospital I'll be able to get some answers.