Saansein meri ab befikar hain
Dil mein basein kaisa ye pal hain
Baatein sambhal ja rahi hain
Palkon mein yunhi hassi hai

(My breaths are of relief now,
What's this moment set in my heart,
I'm unable to speak but
The smile is dancing along my eyelids)

Day 14....the day of freedom started off lazy. The nightmares and panic of the nightly dreams had worn off fast. I made a cup of coffee as usual and due to my carelessness the cup fell and broke. But the day didn't go bad in spite of the bad omen. I wrote a Hermione story for someone and he was over the moon. I chatted with Mr Invisible Quill and also some little banter with Mr Wizard and it all went good.

Had chole fof lunch... Entered the mess after 4 and a half months straight and so much has changed. They removed the tables and now we have to eat by carefully balancing the plates on our hand. In my case I artfully drew up another chair.

But what the best part of it was freedom! Though we need to wear masks and carry sanitisers in the pocket but the ability to move freely without restrictions is huge. The shops were closed so no groceries for today so I didn't step out until dinner.

After which I plugged in my headphones and set out to roam the campus a bit, just like old times.

The familiarity of the surroundings, compounded with the newness of the situation and the caution in all eyes, made for a heady new concoction of freedom. The trees danced in the winds as the strolled through lonely streets, capturing the essence of the night like I used to do. The winds through my hair, ruffling my flowy top and soothing my nerves, till I had an idea.

I cautiously entered the park and found an empty corner and I sat on the swing. Now people judge us a lot if they see us swinging, because it's after all a children's swing... But we're shameless so we go bavk to that swing time and again and today, I went to that very swing. The songs, the swing and the night breeze. The freedom that I had so taken for granted was showing me a new direction!

The song playing for today is

Saansein
By Prateek Kuhad

Man mein chupi kaisi ye dhoon hai
Har khawahishein uljhi kidhar hain
Pairon se jakhmi jameen hain
Nazrein bhi thahri huyi hain
Hai rukki har ghadi
Hum hain chalein, raahein yahin

(What's this tune hidden in my mind?
Where's the place where the desires are mixed?
Where the ground bears our footsteps,
Our vision is stagnant here too.
Even time has stopped for us,
But we're still going, on that way)

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This song speaks to me of liberation, of freedom and of completion of total 14 days in isolation! Thank you everyone for reading through this meaningless rant. It helped me a lot to cope up with life. You remember I was talking about yesterday's nightmare? It was just about losing people I value, losing them to this stark online world and yet it was just a dream. I convince myself that. And there has been a few people rgat have pulled me through this lockdown.

This diary is thus dedicated to the very few people that kept me sane in this gilded cage of isolation and they've been my living breathing diary more than this little rant book here on Wattpad

durriza jinnis KashishBelikov cchinu
Thank you so much for being here, for being a support and making me believe in every step that this is temporary and I'm stronger than my bad thoughts and my worst days. You four were my sun, the hope!

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