Bikhri bikhri si zulfein hain kyun
           Khoyi khoyi si aankhein hain kyun

Gham ka yeh pal guzar jaayega
Phir koi humsafar Aayega

(Why is your hair tousled?
Why do your eyes feel lost?
This hour of sadness will pass,
And some companion will come)

Day 10 went by good. I mean it started off enthusiastic and then dimmed considerably. I'm watching a new series on TVF called < Cubicles > and it's really a good series about a software engineer. But even the thrill of the new series or my usual daiky hack videos couldn't draw me out of my mood slump.

Conversation didn't help either.

Fun fact: When everything fails I go back to watching 'Say Yes To The Dress' on YouTube. It's of no use to us. We don't even wear white in our weddings (Psah! Who cares about weddings) but the lovely dresses are fun to watch. When I was a little kid, I used to see the lovely dresses of Christian brides on TV. I've always wanted to wear one of those gowns but I maybe never will.

So, even SYTTD and Randy's bickering didn't help uplift my mood. So I resorted to making a new Instagram account.

I made some efforts on the icon, to incorporate Reading, Writing and Photography, the three of my best hobbies into that picture. That's how Graphic Designing came to help!

But doing all this and trying to keeo myself busy didn't help the thoughts that were churning, turning and burning inside me.

I took up continuing my recent read on Wattpad 'Tiny Tales from the Universe' by cchinu and the short stories plus 2 hours of nap time took away some of the gloom. At one point even the windows weren't enough.

So I left the room, went downstairs and met my friend, we talked a bit, all ghe while maintaining our safe distance and we talked about love, our ideas of love. I'm tired of love basically. What's the use of these feelings when they throw themselves at a person you have no future with? But thoughts barred, I feel love is overrated.

Coming back to my room, I tried to study but my mind went blank. Even when the message pinged that exams will be from September 2nd, my self imposed slumber didn't awaken. I tried a few magazine designs and brainstormed a bit of ideas which I sent to my team. Waiting for their reply, I gave up. Everyone is busy with their own lives. I'm the only one that does nothing, apparently.

So, I binged another episode, ate my dinner and then, sat down to write this.

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I Don't have any hopeful or positive feelings left today. I've been wondering a lot lately about people's perspective of me and my mentality. Unnecessary thoughts but they do come... So the positive song for today is...

Bikhri Bikhri by Sohail Sen

Beete pal bhool ja
Woh pal nahin hain kahin
Laayenge pal naye,
Ek Zindagi phir haseen
Yeh Bheegi Palkein utha
Yeh soch ke muskura
Laayega phir samay koi zamaana aisa yahan
Phir chalegi hawa manchali
Phir se mehkegi koi kali
Phir koi humsafar aayega
Dil koi geet phir gaayegaa

(Forget the times that have gone,
They're no where.
We'll bring new moments,
New happiness in life.
Raise these wet eyelids of yours,
Think about this and smile a little,
That time will bring such a moment again,
When the winds will blow
And the flowers will bloom with aroma,
Again a comrade will come to you,
Who'll sing the song of your heart)

This song actually gives me hope for love. Till when? Let's see.
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Day 10 thus ends on a not so happy note but there's always tomorrow!