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I asked myself that evening
"Are you ready for it?"
Before I readied myself for the worst thing
Should I be scared for coming back at my city?
That was the start of the danger in the history

Back on late October three years ago, I turned my head to the man who abducted me
Maybe I should accept my defeat?
Maybe this is already the end game
When everyone's throwing shade at my lost kingdom
And I couldn't take back my crown

The whole world witnessed my reputation fallen
'Cause I am the heartbreaker of the year
They say "I did something bad,"
But why does it felt so good?
When I think about how I played with old men

When my abductor kept me away from the prying eyes
Sheltered me away from the cold and prejudice
My plan to escape was a lie
I could feel that I am getting crazy over the pair of cold eyes
Don't blame me for I felt his warmth even if he's the total definition of ice

When he untied me that early November, I didn't even tried to runaway
His thumb finger played with my lips as he whispered, "Aren't you scared of me?"
Maybe I am now insane for feeling something for him
But I knew in my chest was soft and pure than before
And I whispered to him, "Maybe I was crazy for staying by your side, but isn't it delicate?"

When he witnessed that I could stand on my own after three winters have passed
He swore to help me reign again
When my returned made noise to the city
The first person I saw beside me was him
And I screamed, "Look what you made me do,"

When we started dating three summers back
I told myself I should take care of our love more
But then there's scratches on his back and I thought to myself, "So it goes,"
I should let Him guide this fire as it ignites more
Dancing lights illuminated his eyes

How many times should I tell him that
"You're so gorgeous,"
Maybe if I taste him in the dark he will be delicious
And when he touch my hands in the unlit club I should know that
I fell more to his expressive eyes, gone was the cold mask

I remembered when I was riding on a getaway car
Two years ago, he thought I would never run
Words of his doubts and his eyes was sharp
He thought that it was just game for me?
If I was just playing then I should vanished before he could even asked me if I was scared!

Then he blocked the roads and slammed the door
Just so we can talk in the middle of nowhere
That's the night I said that, "You're the King of my heart,"
He said, "I'm sorry, babe,"
Even if I was the one who started it he's still the one apologizing and that's when I realized why he's so pure

When we walked on the busy street that morning
He tied our hands to always have a hold on me
When we are invited on a party
He asked for my hand and we are dancing with our hands tied
Marking me with his golden tattoo

Last week, he went home after our big fight
He still doubted if I was really committed to him and if I reciprocated his feelings
That's why I wore my best outfit and surprised him
Because I don't want him like a best friend
I whispered in the wind, "Oh, but what doe you feel when you take off my dress?"

"This is why we can't have nice things," I whispered while pouring wine
When we're both busy taking back our lost empires
Love, is this the end? Won't we try to mend this lack of time?
He kissed my forehead and say
"Baby, we only knew bad things,"

Then when I've completely defeated my enemy
People started talking, putting us through our paces
They thought that I brought a knife on a gun fight and I am only playing again with a prince
And that they're waiting for us to show our aces
Call it what you want, but we won't lose in this confusing maze

This is the last page and all I wanted to say that, "I stay when you're lost,
And I'm ready to let my reputation painted with ink if that means being with you,"
That midnight at New Year's Day, I saw you cried a rear as you kneeled
You asked for my hand in marriage
Before I kissed you with all of me, for I am so in love with you.

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Inspiration:
reputation album of Taylor Swift
Message:
I think I'm going to make an array of poems with every album, hmm? So excited!
Date:
September 17, 2019
Time:
11:20 AM