❝ Ｒｅｍａｉｎｅｄ Ｙｏｕｒｓ❞

I compared Marlon to you
But I knew that you are better than him
How you say sweet nothings
And how you say I love yous

It was ten years ago
Back then I was just an undergrad student
And you are graduating for a moment
We stared at each other for ages

We bumped into the hallways
We shared a couple of friends
We said hellos then we parted ways
And after the long wait, we met

I was a waitress at a night club
You are the customer that always ordered whiskey and some chips
After that night, I was surprised when you texted to my number
I could feel my heart was casted under a spell

We started hanging out
Dating for hours
Texting for questions
Calling for suggestions

It was so slow for me
How you put so much effort for me
Months were nothing to you
And those years were everything for me

I was your girlfriend then we married
Never thought that it will all come to an end
Wrecked reality for your course
It was the reason for my anxiety

You left for war and fought with all your energy
I was left with our house giving birth to our child
After a year of being paranoid and thoughts that made me crazy
I received a letter that you were killed in action

I cried for hours and hours
Everyday my heart were getting worst
I was devastated for all that I lost
You are the man I love the most

After two years of being a widow at age of 24
I met Marlon who was divorced at that time
We hanged out and then I was shocked that I was in his arms sleeping
But everything was just for fun for him

Every morning when he's sleeping
I looked at your picture and always apologize for my behavior
I kept on finding you on him
But my heart aren't beating anymore

He kissed my lips but I tasted your mouth
Everytime he touched me I was disgusted for myself
That's when I realized it was so wrong
So wrong to gave on his temptation

Edward, I cutted my ties with him
I focused on our child and give him the love he deserves
I always told him how a great soldier you are
And he said he wanted to be like you

I know I should stop thinking about you
I should just date another guy to satisfy my needs
But every time I do that, I keep on seeing your face
Don't worry about me, Edward

Soon, we'll meet again
And I wished that you will not sacrifice yourself anymore
It must be selfish for other people
But I couldn't take another time losing you

Because I know to my heart
That I'm thinking about you again
Our memories, our moments
Because I don't think I could stop.

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Inspiration:
Katy Perry - Thinking of You
Date:
May 22, 2019
Time:
4:05 PM