TO: go.dahee
SUBJECT: being with you

dahee,

it wasn't some great moment where it suddenly dawned on me exactly how i felt about you. it wasn't a "my goodness i've been in love with this person the whole time and never realized it". rather it was a simple and subtle realization of "oh, i love you".

i'm not going to lie and say it wasn't when we were apart that i realized i missed being with you. it wasn't because i wished we didn't have to spend that time separate.

truth is if i didn't have those moments away from you, then i never would have smiled in reminiscent of the things we had done together. because during all the times when we were, i never took the time to truly appreciate you until i was alone with my own thoughts.

the process of falling in love had been natural, something i used to think would never happen to someone like me. but instead of embracing it, i ruined it, because i was so scared that you'd leave me.

tae

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december 18
03:20