As this book has finally come to an end, after such a long long time, I really want to tell you guys about this book on a deeper level. So please kindly read, just like this story I put a lot of time to write this analysis in this author's note. Thank you 💘

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A N A L Y S I S : H M T

MY PLAN FOR THIS BOOK: I wanted this book to be very different from my other books, and as you guys can tell it's really different. There's no cursing and no smut. Though I do mention that Jennie and Taehyung have an intimate moment, I did this all on purpose.

TAENNIE INTIMACY/RELATIONSHIP: This part of the story was supposed to be a lesson. As we all know, Jennie's character is very very confusing, she's not only confused about Taehyung but about herself. And I made her this way for a reason. I wanted there to be a huge barrier between Lalisa and Jennie, I did this to show a clear transition in Jungkook's love life. The intimacy that Taehyung and Jennie share is very important, unlike my other books, I didn't want this book to be so.. explicit. I wanted to keep adult things to a minimal and I'm certain parts of this book.. PG13/ appropriate. And like I've said before, I feel like the sex and cursing would take away from the innocence I was trying to maintain in the book. And anyways, those two things wouldn't necessarily benefit the story.

The lesson I wanted to teach with Taehyung's and Jennie's first time is, YOU DON'T NEED TO HAVE SEX TO SAVE A RELATIONSHIP OR TO FIGURE OUT IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE. Because I make it very clear that this is what Jennie thinks she needs to do in order to decide if she loves Taehyung or not. And I feel like nowadays, since everything is evolving around sex. I find that people just have sex, just because and it's never about love anymore. Taehyung and Jennie represents that. Also, if you're in a relationship with someone toxic like our girl Jennie, you shouldn't stay in that relationship any longer.

This is also supposed to be a clear difference between LizKook's relationship and TaeNnies relationship.

LIZKOOKS RELATIONSHIP: Now, I've always had a sweet spot for innocent relationships, and I find them so cute in ff. But, I do this on purpose, again, to show the difference in relationships. And I show the (tension?) and evolvement of adult things. And what I mean by this is, on the Manoban's trip.. (I'm just going to be straight up, though in the book they don't say it at all) Jungkook got an erection/boner/ a happy willy/ a stiffy. I didn't plan on doing this the first time I wrote that chapter, I wanted it to be a innocent vacation. But I personally felt like it not only added humor but something new and different to the relationship. Not making the relationship TOO innocent and unrealistic. Towards the end of the book, I realized that I didn't want their relationship to be too much of a .. fairytale relationship, you know what I mean?

So, that's why I put an obstacle in front of them. Moving in together and talking about "being more intimate". That's a huge step to adulthood, I feel that this shows how Jungkook and Lalisa are doing things the right way. And I know that in the story, it may seem like they're very clingy and they're always together. It's because they're best friends, most of the time they can just be together like best friends. They sort of represent the type of relationship I want in real life.

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C H A R A C T E R S :

On this part of the author's note I'll explain more of the characters background and where I was going with each persona that I wanted them to pursue. And let's see these Character POV stickers for the last time..

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As I later decided, this book is a Jungkook Fanfiction. I wanted Jungkook's character to be the sweet innocent boy, and for these characters I feel like this is where I fall into the cliché route of fanfics. With my own want of incorporating things I personally like of course.

Jungkook, he's just the sort of character that flows with everyone. I wanted him to be the type of character that if you wanted him to interact with other characters, he could do so. Much like in the beginning of the story, how he was nervous around Chaeyoung. Then he warmed up and they ended up being great friends. There were even moments in the middle of the story and obviously at the end where he was nice and was able to flow with Taehyung, before things went bad obviously and even after that Jungkook was still a flexible character.

He's a pure being and tries to see the good in everyone even if there isn't. This is well represented when he was little and kept telling himself that his father loves him. Or when he always thought so highly of Jennie.

I know, there was a part of the story that a few people / or I think a person, complained that Jungkook forgave Jennie way too quickly. I think the idea of Jungkook's character was forgotten. Jungkook, even if he said he hated Jennie or he thought differently about her, he wanted to believe that Jennie could be good. And he was never the type to hate forever (besides his father which was changed in the last two chapters before the Epilogue) because that's not the way his mother raised him. He was raised to be humble and forgive, though she was unable to forgive for a long time. THIS is why Jungkook forgave Jennie so quickly. He had faith that Jennie would change, and in a way he was right. I mean, took a year, but he was right.

BUT, I did say (that he said) that he needed time from her. This showing that he forgave her, but wasn't going to give her all she wanted. He wanted to test her and really push that apology that Jennie gave, that vague apology, to see what it really meant to her. I wrote her apology sort of in Jennie's language, though Jennie made it seem like she didn't mean it.. she did, in the crappiest way, the only way Jennie understands or can do things.. crappy. Which transitions us to the next person.

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Now, Jennie.. though she can be called the antagonist, she's really just a troubled girl. I feel like she was sort of just given a Strong personality by me. I wanted her to be a very.. "i know what I want", type of girl. Of course in the beginning, then for basically the rest of the book until the end, she's just hard core bitching everyone. She's a bitch. Please, I was afraid of this but, Jennie is NOT like this in real life. I just used her name and her appearance, the Jennie in real life is the sweetest person ever and I love her lots. So please don't throw hate at the real Jennie over something fictional.

So, proceeding. Jennie, is like this for a reason because of her father leaving, when she was younger, she had symptoms of being a b. When she was little and just bossed Jungkook around cause she's older. I feel like as I think over her character, because her father left her at a young age for her, her emotions and attitude got stuck in being a young girl. She never really grew up, she wasn't able to coupe as well as Jungkook. (More like couldn't hide it as well or in the same way as Jungkook). And because of this event that happened, that's why she is the way she is. Though, it's barely explained in brief moments, her father meant a lot to her.

I find Jennie to be the daddy's girl type, but her father just didn't want that responsibility, he didn't feel the fire anymore with the mom (who was literally nameless the whole damn story, wow... good one) so he just left, and was a total ass and took the dogs with him. There really isn't much to talk about Jennie, just that she craves the attention that she never got from her father. She's actually a very broken character if you ask me. (Not as broken as Taehyung but she's up there in the category of "Broken Characters") I feel like, when I decide to revise this book again in the future, I'll try to be more straight forward with the type of person Jennie is.

But I guess what I wanted was for the readers to really analyze her, but I think everyone got so blinded by her bitchery that it was hard to see that she's actually a character who needed help. I guess I've done my job in making a stone hard character, but es okeey. (If you read the okeeey in Miranda Sings voice.. you're the real MVP)

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Now, when I think of the kind of character I made Taehyung, it makes me real sad. At first I wanted him to be a stuck up guy who goes for what he wants because he's rich and cocky, but doesn't settle with what he can get. Like, he really really wanted Jennie in the beginning of the book, and Jennie being the tease that she is, dangled the worm in front of him. And when he had her, I feel like he thought they were on the same page on affection. But it was just Jennie using him for reputation, again, getting the attention she wanted from her father.

But! (Idk why I fell back into Jennie, let me finish this thought real quick) she liked him in the beginning of course until the whole Jungkook thing happened, moving on.

Taehyung, he's sort of the, "she's mine and not anyone else's" kind of falling under the rich brat category or "I need attention and love" category. But at the same time, he had this sort of obsession because literally, once he was out of the damn womb his mother wanted to leave him to work. Never did he once get affection from his mother, that's who he wanted the most affection from. Yeah, at one point in the story he connected well with his father, but he was hoping his mother would notice. When obviously she didn't and she just doesn't give a flying rats booty.

This is the reason that when she tries to show her affections, for all the wrong reasons, he's like "not not.. no" (idk if you got the reference lol) this is why he stuck and tried to stick to Jennie like glue. He didn't want to lose the one good thing he had in life, cause remember. The beginning of the relationship was perfect, minus Taehyung being a douche to Jungkook. But Jennie and Taehyung in the beginning were my favorite. I honestly really shipped them together real hard but I guess the way I made Jennie, a really jealous and selfish person, it really ruined the relationship.

Taehyung is an extremely broken character, he's alone and has nobody. And at times he makes me wish I just made him a happy character, but if he wasn't this way the book would be completely different. And let's be honest, at times Douche Tae was pretty hot. I find him to be very insecure, and he becomes more so after the several breakups with Jennie. So basically, because Jennie is all messed up and broken, she worsens Taehyung. Taehyung and Jennie were so much alike and broken that they clashed and just couldn't work.

And because Taehyung is so broken that he takes the first time very seriously, as I feel like Jennie should've. Taehyung did genuinely love Jennie, and I know some of you might have shipped him and Areum, (I don't think anyone did) but for me, it was always supposed to be Taennie. Even though they went through a lot of things, they still found their way back to each other. They have another chance at love, after the both of them have had some time away and have been able to fix themselves a bit better. And that it's possible for people to find love again with the same person.

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Lalisa, Okay. There were two ways I was going to characterize/design(?) Lalisa,

The characteristics I gave her, the sweet girl
Bit of a opposite of Jungkook, a bit closer to Jennie's personality

I'm personally happy that I chose the route of what became Lalisa. I also believe that I went off a lot by the pictures I chose.

[ bout to get off track from Lalisa ] [ we will return after these few messages ]

• Jungkook's picture is sweet, he has a soft smile on his face and overall represents his character in the story
• Jennie's picture, she's very.. slightly straight faced and she looks hard to read. And it's because she is, from the picture I chose.. to me with the way her head is tilted just really gave me a sassy/stuck up/ little actress character, but I could really play around a lot by just looking at her face. Not saying that irl Jennie looks like this, for the pictures I chose for the POV stickers, I wanted to Over Analyze on purpose and try to really search for differences in all the pictures. Just as inspiration for possible characterization
• Taehyung's picture gave me more of a mysterious bit also a.. "I'm not sure" vibe. And I feel that it connects well with the persona I made him and the characteristics and just the type of "broken character" I made him in the book.
• Lastly, Lalisa. Now, I didn't plan on making the ones I ended up putting together at the end.. have sort of similar pictures (TaeNnie not smiling, LizKook smiling). I just honestly picked aesthetically pleasing pictures and when I picked the right ones and came to a decision, I then analyzed and put my creative Brain to the test and really tried to see what I could make out of the pictures I picked. If I wanted to specifically go off the picture, which I did. And it's clear because Lalisa is very similar to Jungkook, sweet and kind.

[ Welcome back to the regularly scheduled program ]

So, I'm very pleased with the type of girl I made Lalisa. I feel that because I made her so.. tender and gentle (sorry if I've reused these words), Jungkook was able to connect with her more. And again, this made her very different from Jennie. I think not only.. would you guys (the readers) have hated me for making a second Jennie, (Little douche girl with a high ego and is really mean to people, then making Jungkook fall for her too..) but I would've hated myself.

And plus, y'all hated Jennie enough, thank god I didn't make Lalisa a Jennie. I just really wanted there to be.. same of same. Same boy and same girl, (Similar personalities). That sometimes opposites don't attract and sometimes similars attract and sometimes they don't.

Now, Lalisa.. she, I think besides Jungkook.. is the closest I set off of real life. I don't know if it's just me.. but I feel like Lalisa (in my book) is really a close representation of how Lisa can be in real life. But of course this could be wrong because I don't know Lisa in real life.. though I wish I did. Also, I choose to use Lalisa over Lisa because.. it's just a preference, I think Lalisa is such a gorgeous name and rolls off the tongue so smoothly (well.. my tongue) .. and it looked nicer on the POV sticker ahaha. So yeah, that was a huge factor.

Moving on, I feel like Lalisa changed a lot as well in the book. Easy, I think she changed a lot in similar ways as Jungkook. Was shy in the beginning, she meshes well with other people. Basically a female version of Jungkook, just with small differences that were obviously intensional.

YOU NAUGHTY GIRL LALISA: A huge difference is when Lalisa starts talking to Chae about sex. Now, I'm sure we all have a friends that's slightly dirty minded, (or very) and they really.. imprint on you and you slowly become like them. Yeah, that's what's happening, Chaeyoung (as the little horn dog of a character that I make her. She's very open, unlike Lalisa. Which is why I feel that she influenced her so much.) really presses.. adult things into Lalisa's Head. A huge thing being, sex and anything that has to do with touching. Now, I think this really.. flourishes during the weekend vacation.

One: because she just.. randomly wants to have a makeout session with Jungkook. (Which idk. I enjoyed putting in there very much hehehe *lenny face*) I felt it was a large move for her, being such a closed off girl that doesn't talk or even think about things like Chaeyoung and Jimin. I felt this brought her and Jungkook even closer, and I mean.. JUNGKOOK WASN'T COMPLAINING SOOO (of course he wouldn't.. I didn't make him complain haha)

Two: asking if they (LizKook) would become more intimate. Now, I feel like that this point in the relationship at prom (correct me if I'm wrong, I've been so caught up in finishing this book I can't quite remember when events took place) and Jungkook gets really frustrated with Jimin because he begins to think that this is what Lalisa wants (sex) and Lalisa asks if they could be more touchy touchy. I feel, that this is when Lalisa wants to BE more like JiYoung/ChaeMin. (JiminXChayoung)(idk the ship name) this is a huge representation of what I said before about the relationships slowly becoming more adult like. And Lalisa expresses several things like this in little parts of the chapters.

[ Lalisa is the longest analysis because I keep getting off track ]

Now, I had not originally planned on Lalisa getting forced on by BamBam. I was actually very close to taking that part of the chapter out, but I felt that it carried the story along. And when I stirred up a new imperfection in Lalisa's life, I feel that it made her less of a fairytale character with no problems and a perfect world/life. And it's kind of sad for me to do this to my baby girl, but it really got me out of a writers block and I feel like it added more emotion to the story. We may move on now-

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A S A W H O L E:

Overall I wanted my characters to be able to give you all as readers EMOTIONS. I wanted there just to be storms of everything. Anger, fluff, happiness, sadness, and frustration. And as much as I'm going to miss writing this book, these are the last two things I want to say.

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T H A N K Y O U:

I want to thank the very few that I've seen stay loyal to this story, as it is the longest of all my ff. Thank you for accepting that I wanted to try out something completely different than my other books. Not minding that this book was totally cliché, or that I didn't update all the time, but when I did I posted two/three chapters all 3,400+ words, you enjoyed it all no matter what. A silent reader or not, I appreciate you.

If I'm completely honest, writing this book has been a roller coaster. I've seen reads get lower and lower on each chapter for this book, and the comments becoming less and less as the story got longer and longer, I became very discouraged. I wondered what I was doing wrong with this story and I was thinking, DOES THIS BOOK NEED SMUT IN ORDER FOR PEOPLE TO READ IT? I asked myself everytime I wrote a new chapter. Because, I feel that for me, as a creator, I became very.. frustrated(??) that not many people were reading this book. And I questioned A LOT about my platform on Wattpad.. is it only about Smut? Am I only good at Smut? Is this all my readers want, SMUT?

This is why I believe that it took me so long with the completion of this book, because I went through a sort of.. identity crisis? I couldn't find my voice or who I was here on Wattpad. Not to mention the comments and messages about when I'd finish this book because they all want SENSATIONS soooo bad, and what is that book really all about.. S M U T. So I was honestly so close to just giving up on this book and honestly unpublishing it. But seeing that yes, even if it was only.. 5-7 people or even one person reading the chapters I published, I knew that I was capable of writing something pure (with dirty inside jokes lol) and people would still enjoy.

I feel that this is really important for me to say, for those who have stayed around and read this book until the end.. kept up with all my updates and made me feel accomplished. THANK YOU. When it came to this book, I really had to push extremely hard for motivation because I felt that no one wanted to read it. And I knew that it wasn't and isn't going to be as successful as my other books, but having people tell me I didn't a good job and that they liked the chapter.. or even laughing at parts I physically laughed at while writing.. or reacting the way I planned or reacting the way I didn't plan.

The little things really pushed me along with this book.

I appreciate every single one of you who voted, commented or simply just read.. THANK YOU.. and I love you.

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I WANT TO KNOW:

Now, because this book was so long and there were so many parts that were filled with so many emotions. I'd like to know, what were your favorite parts? Comment your favorite part next to the questions, you can answer as many as them as you want or even all of them. I'm just really curious and it makes me Happy to see what you guys think.

Favorite TaeNnie fluff part?
Favorite LizKook fluff part?
Favorite TaeKook fluff part?
Favorite ChaeMin fluff part?
Part of the story that made you cry out of sadness?
Part of the story that made you cry out of happiness?
Part of the story that made you laugh?
Part of the story that made you angry?
Part of the story that made you blush?
Part of the story that made you frustrated?
Part of the story that made you smile?
Part of the story that made you make a Lenny face?
Your favorite part over all?
Question you have for me about the story?

I just want to know, maybe we can reminisce about these moments together. Maybe someone will have the same faves, and we can all just talk about them haha. And really, just talking about little things like this make me happy about my book in general and having you guys interact with each other and with me.. I just like having you guys get involved.

Thank you to those who read this whole Author's note, it's very different and I wanted to just.. talk tbh. Hope you don't mind and it helped you understand the story and characters more.

Now let's see that End of Chapter sticker for the last time.

Love you all and....

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Completed: 07/27/2018