. Day 1 .

I sit at the table by myself, not that I had anyone to sit with. "Sir, your mother wanted you to know that she left the weekly allowance for you." The main maid tells me. "Thanks." I say under my breath. "Sir, would you like me to add the money to your bank account?" She asks. "Sure." I say bluntly. "What happened today sir? That girl again?" She asks. "She has a name." I whine. "Jennie." She quickly says, making sure not to upset me. "And no, well.. yeah. Today after school..." I start.

**
•A Few Hours Ago•
-After School-

"Baby." I say as I walk up to her as she's at her locker. She doesn't even turn to me. "Taehyung." Is all she says. "Yes? Can you look at me and talk to me?" She closes her locker with a heavy breath. "Taehyung, I'm not in the mood to talk to you right now. Okay?" I raise an eyebrow. "'Not in the mood to talk to me? Excuse me?" I shake my head. She finally looks at me. "Look, I've had a pretty bad experience happen today and I don't really need to hear it from you right now." I'm taken aback.

Bad experience? I was with her the whole day. How could she have experienced something bad when she was with me the whole time? I don't understand. Was I the bad time? Does she not want to be around me whatsoever? "How could you have had a bad experience today, if I was around you all day today?" Her eyebrows knit. "You wouldn't understand." She spits. "I wouldn't understand? I can guess right now what it's about." I tell her. "You don't know everything that goes on in my life." She says.

"Is your problem about Jungkook?" I ask. She stares at me and I know right away. "I really don't appreciate you still talking about him, it's affecting our relationship." I tell her. "You know what Taehyung? I'm done." I've heard this before. "Done?" I ask, though I know what it means. "Done as in, I don't want to be with you anymore." She tells me, my heart pounding hard in my chest. "Are you kidding me? Again? How is this fair to me? When you can't even talk to me man to woman? It's ridiculous.", "I guess you don't have to worry about that then, huh?" She asks.

I stare at her, hoping it's not true. "Jennie.. no.. please no. I just want to be with you.. and-", "I think we just need time apart right now." She interrupts me. "I don't need time apart." I tell her. "Yeah, well, I do." She tells me. "Goodbye Taehyung." She walks past me with her books in her arms, not once hesitating to leave me behind. I stare into space. "Taehyung." I hear behind me, I clench my jaw and don't turn around. "You don't deserve any of this." She tells me. "I love her, there's nothing that can be changed about it." I tell her. "Let me buy you something to eat." She steps next to me.

"I don't want anything from you, don't worry about me." I look at her. "I'm just trying to help." She looks at me. "Areum, you can't. I just need time to think about how to get Jennie back." She stares at me, "I'm sorry." She whispers as she looks down. I turn and walk out of the front of the school where I see Jennie waiting. "Jennie!" I call her as I run up to her, but I don't end up meeting her because she gets up and approaches her mother's car. She doesn't even see me, and I just stand in place, watching her get taken away from me.

I barely even blink as I stare out at the street and then I call my Uber. "Taehyung." I hear her voice again, she's going to give me a headache. "Areum, I don't want anything from you." She looks at me, "But why not? I like you, Jennie doesn't deserve you.. and.. I would never do all the things she's done to you. Or make you think I like someone else." My eyebrows knit and I stare at her. "And I can make you feel good about yourself.. and you wouldn't have to worry about feeling alone." She says to me.

I stare at her even longer, why would she want me? Obviously I lack something that makes Jennie not want me. But I want her, gosh I want her so much. And I can't get myself to not want her. "Can't you say something to me?" She asks, I shouldn't be so cold to her. "Wanna get out of here? I'm already sick of the sight of this building." I ask her, and it's like I see the light in her eyes. "Really?" She asks. My jaw clenched, "Yeah." I say. She slowly looks down. "I wouldn't want you to feel obligated, just to make me feel better about myself." I let out a breath and think about it.

Let me just take a break from feeling like I need to follow Jennie around everywhere. I can chase her tomorrow. "I'm not, I need to actually feel better about myself too. I'll buy you something to eat." She slowly smiles. "Really?" She asks again. "Yes." I say more confident this time. She nods and steps forward. "Okay." She looks up at me. When my Uber arrives I give the driver a location that's been my favorite place since I was little.

"S-So you have nothing to say?" She breaks the silence. "Mmm?" I hum to her as I had my attention out of the window looking at dogs walking on leashes and small children being pushed in strollers. "Forget it.." She whispers. I don't even have to think, "About your confession." I start. She stares at me, then I figure we should wait until we are alone. I wouldn't want to sound mean in front of a stranger. It's quiet again, not the good type of quiet. A bit of a uncomfortable and worried atmosphere, uncomfortable coming from me.. and you can guess who's worried.

When we arrive, I thank the driver and we walk up to the destination. I turn to her, "look, I just want to tell you that just because I'm bringing you hear, doesn't mean that I like you or anything." Okay, that was harsh. She looks down and nods, "No, I know. You don't have to tell me. I know my place." She says. I bite my lip, "You like.. sweet bread?" I ask her. She looks up at me and nods. I think I ruined the mood, but I'm sure she understands. "Let's go." I tell her. We walk in and the smell of sweets hit me in the face. "I'm buying, order whatever you want." I say. She looks in through the glass display at the different pastries.

She taps her chin as her eyes light up because of the display lights. She lets out a breath and her front bangs barely off her forehead before falling back into place. She finally smiles and turns to me, her shoulder length hair flops around. "I know what I want." She says. "Okay." I say. I already know what I want so I let her say her order first, then I order mine. We are handed our breads and we sit together at a table next to the window. It's quiet as I pick at my bread, "You come here often?" She asks, I look up at her. "I mean, cause you already knew what you wanted.." She says.

"Yes, when I was in grade school I'd have my nanny bring me here and I'd get this bread." I tell her. She looks at my bread, "You wouldn't want to try another bread?" She asks. I bite my lip thinking a bit. "I get scared to try other breads, I feel like this bread keeps me in my childhood." I then feel like an idiot for saying that, I had the worst childhood ever. "Sometimes it's good to try new things." She tilts her head and grins. "You think so?" She looks down at her bread before looking back up at me and smiling, "Yes." She answers.

"Okay." I nod, "Here, try mine." She says. She passes it to me and I look at her with scared eyes. "It's okay, it's just a bite." I inhale deeply before I take a bite of it. My eyebrows raise and I hum. "This is so good, I should order that the next time I come." She smiles and I hand it back to her. "It's good right?" She asks. "Now you have to try mine." I say. I see her face turn pink. "Are you sure?" She asks. "Yes yes, take a bite." I hold it in front of her face and she looks at me as she takes a small nibble. "Bigger." I whine. She covers her mouth as she laughs.

"Take a bigger bite." I tell her. She fixes her hair with her fingers before she takes a bigger bite. I then begin to feel guilty. I'm sharing my bread with another girl who isn't Jennie. "That one is good too." She explains. I nod, "I know." I say. "So what do you do usually after school?" She asks. I bite my lip. "I'm usually home, or out with Jennie." She bites her lip as well, "So you don't do anything else?" I shake my head. She slowly nods. "Maybe we should do something this weekend." She suggests.

"Like what?" I ask. She hums as she looks up at the ceiling and she puckered her lips. She then grins. "Have you ever been to the trampoline place?" She asks me. I shake my head. "Well then, that's where we'll go, my treat." She smiles wide. "What's the trampoline place?" I ask her. "It's this huge room and you can pay for a certain amount of hours to jump. There are trampolines on the floor and cushions on the walls, and I think that one has a square pit." It sounds amazing.

"That sounds like fun." I say. She nods quickly in response, "It is." She says. I smile and nod, "Okay, what time tomorrow then?" I ask her. "What time are you free?" She asks before she taking a bite of her bread. "It doesn't matter." I tell her. Her eyebrows go up, "Really? You don't even mind being out all day?" I shake my head, "Of course not.. as long as I'm doing something." I smile at her. Her face lights up and she smiles back at me. "Aye, my treat." I say. Her face drops and she shakes her head. "No, I said I'd-", "No, I'm paying and that's final." I say. She looks down at her bread and just nods.

I take a couple bites of my bread before it's gone, and I sit back and wait for her to finish her bread. "Thank you so much for the bread, you didn't have to." She says. I smile. "Of course, I had nowhere to be anyways." I look down at the napkin my bread was on and I press my finger on the crumbs that had made their way on the table and I let them fall on the napkin. "Me too." She says to me. I grin and cross my arms over each other on the table. "Tell me a little more about yourself, I like learning about people." I tell her. "Well, there's not much to learn about me." She shrugs.

I shake my head. "Tell me anyways." I plead. She smiles, "I have two little brothers and they act older than me." I sit up straight. "You have siblings? Why don't you bring them tomorrow?" I ask. She looks surprised. "You'd want that?" I nod quickly. "I love kids." She smiles. "I have a dog, her name is Minnie." She tells me. "Wow, you're so lucky." I become envious of Areum and I feel a little more lonely. "You have siblings and a dog." I say. She frowns. "Why don't you get a dog?" She asks. "Mm, I don't know." I shrug. "Are you sure you want me to bring my brothers tomorrow?" She asks. "Of course I do." She slightly grins.

And for a slight moment, I could have sworn that I felt wanted

**

"Was I cheating?" I ask. She had sat across from me at the table. "Of course not, you made it clear several times that you don't like her." I gasp, "Did I really say it a lot?" She slowly nods. "I'm so rude, she deserves to be treated nicely.", "Of course, everyone deserves to be treated nicely." She shrugs and stands, "You should get out more sir." She suggests. "I don't have any friends, but I'm going out tomorrow." I whisper. "Make new ones." She talks to me from over her shoulder as she walks up to the island that has cleaning supplies on it.

"We only have a few weeks left of school, there's really no point. I won't see those people ever again." I explain. "Go to the arcade." She suggests as she starts to wipe down the counters. I let out a heavy breath. "Boring, there will be a lot of people there, it's Friday." I explain. "Ah, I saw that a new pet shop opened up at the shopping center a couple blocks down." I stare at the table, "What's the point?" I ask. "You do have an allowance." She says, hinting something. I then look up at her, "You think I need a animal companion?" I ask. She shrugs. "But you didn't hear it from me." She winks.

I smile, "Don't worry, I won't get you in trouble." I tell her. "Very much appreciated." She says. "Okay then, I'll go." I say standing up. "Gunho is in, I think he would take you so you don't have pay for an Uber." She says. "Okay." I nod, a bit more excited now. As if on cue, Gunho walks into the kitchen. "Ah, Gunho, take Taehyung a few blocks down to the new pet shop." Eunjung orders him. "Of course." He then starts to walk to the front door and I smack the front of my pants to make sure I have my wallet, and I do. "The deposit of your allowance will be there and ready to use by the time you make it to the pet store.", "Thank you Eunjung." I bow to her before I walk out of the house.

We head out to the car and I'm driven to the destination that Eunjung told him to. "Sir, would you be buying a pet today?" Maybe a hamster?

**

•Earlier that day•

I give Taehyung a kiss on the cheek before I feel a gaze from the other side of the table. I slowly meet that gaze. Areum. She slowly looks away. I then smile and kiss Taehyung's cheek again, making him look at me. "I'm going to the girls room, Areum, come with me." I tell her. "Okay." He whispers before looking at me lips and I only smile bigger before I squish his cheek and stand up. I give Areum a glare and she stands up as well. She follows me out of the canteen and we head into the girls bathroom, when we're inside I turn to her, "You got a problem with me?" I ask her.

I see her jaw clench. "Say it, I don't need you giving me looks or staring at me when we're at the table.", "I don't.", "I don't believe you." I spit. "I don't!" She yells. "Just admit that you have a problem with me, I can feel it when you look at me!" I yell at her. "Fine, Fine, Fine. It's not that I have a problem with you, I'm jealous." I find myself laughing. "Of course you're jealous of me, ever since grade school you've followed me around like a lost puppy." I chuckle, "You're just another version of the the blonde and Jungkook." I spit.

"I'm not jealous of your looks, or whatever else you think I'm jealous of. I'm jealous that you have a guy like Taehyung who loves you." I stare at her. "You like him, don't you?" She bites her lip, "I didn't mean to fall for him Jennie." I fill up with anger. "You just want to be me so bad that you'd take the only thing I have in life, away from me!?" She throws her head back and laughs. "You're so full of it! You're over here making yourself believe that everyone wants you, and that you're irreplaceable. And maybe you think that you actually deserve Taehyung.." she pauses and stares at me.

"When in all reality you don't, he cares so deeply about you and you can't even be straight up with him and tell him that you're in love with Jungkook." I stare at her, this reminds me a lot about when the stupid blonde cried to me about Jungkook after his confession. "You think you know everything." I laugh. "Yes, I do know everything about you Jennie, you've been my best friend forever. I even saw that Jungkook loved you before he even confessed to you." I shrug. "So what do you think you're going to do about liking my man?" Her lips shut tight together. "You can't do anything about it."

"You're not the IT couple anymore, you know it too. You know that it's Lalisa and Jungkook. Why are you forcing something that isn't going to work? You're making Taehung think that you want him and love him." She tells me. "What kind of person does that? A manipulative one." She wrinkled her nose. "I've done nothing to him, all I ever wanted for him was to be happy. But I guess you're too ignorant to see that he's happy with me, you would never make him happy. So don't even try." I smile as I look her up and down. Yeah, she's pretty but not as pretty as me. I'll always be the prettiest girl in school, with the hottest boyfriend, and that has the most talent.

"And I'm not manipulative, if anything the one who is trying to manipulate someone here, is you." She looks at me confused, "You didn't have to do this to yourself, you could've let me be and you didn't have to hear what I have to say. Because I know at the end of the day, you don't really care." I smile and tilt my head in a teasing sort of way, I just want to get on her nerves. "Yeah, you're right. I don't really care what you have to say, because at the end of the day he's my boyfriend. He would never like you, who would like a girl like you?" I chuckle at the line, it seems like I've used it before.

She stays quiet and she doesn't meet my gaze, she looks away from me slowly. I smiled to myself, "You might want to find another place to sit from now on at lunch." I tell her. She finally looks up at me, "I wouldn't want to sit at a table with a person like you anyways." I clench my teeth together tightly before a walk up to her and I let my hands fly across her face. Her face flies to the side and her short hair covers her eyes. "I hate you, I never want to talk to you ever again." I bite my lip as my eyes start to water, I hate that I'm losing a friend over something so stupid. She's been my best friend for as long as I can remember.

I turned and headed back to the canteen, none of us see her for the rest of lunch. I start to question everything that has to do with Taehyung and I. Do I really deserve him? All I'm doing is hurting him, should I let him go?

For most of the day, up until the end of the school sessions, I make my decision that having a break would be what's best for Taehyung and I. When I'm able to, I leave class faster than I've ever left class before, I head to my locker as fast as I could. I open it and grab all the things I need, leaving books I don't. "Baby." I hear him say as I sense him walk up to me. I don't want to look at him right now. "Taehyung." Is all I'm able to say. "Yes? Can you look at me and talk to me?" I close my locker with a heavy breath. "Taehyung, I'm not in the mood to talk to you right now. Okay?"

"'Not in the mood to talk to me? Excuse me?" I shake my head. I look at him. "Look, I've had a pretty bad experience happen today and I don't really need to hear it from you right now." I explain to him. "How could you have had a bad experience today, if I was around you all day today?" My eyebrows knit. "You wouldn't understand." I tell him. "I wouldn't understand? I can guess right now what it's about." He says in a petty tone. "You don't know everything that goes on in my life." I grip my books.

"Is your problem about Jungkook?" He asks. Seriously? Does he think everything is about Jungkook? He has everything wrong, the whole idea. "I really don't appreciate you still talking about him, it's affecting our relationship." I feel my blood boil. "You know what Taehyung? I'm done." I pull my lips tight together. "Done?" He questions, "Done as in, I don't want to be with you anymore." I say straight up to him, not wanting to waste anymore time saying things to him because he wouldn't understand at all.

"Are you kidding me? Again? How is this fair to me when you can't even talk to me man to woman? It's ridiculous.", "I guess you don't have to worry about that then, huh?" I ask. He stares at me in complete silence. "Jennie.. no.. please no. I just want to be with you.. and-", "I think we just need time apart right now." I interrupt him. "I don't need time apart." He rebuttals. "Yeah, well, I do." I say to him, having to hold my breath and fight back tears. "Goodbye Taehyung." I walk past him as I grip my books with all my strength, trying not to cry. I can't, I refuse to let myself breakdown right now. I sit and wait for my mother in the front of the school.

I cover my mouth with my hand, and hiccup as I try not to let a cry leave my lips. "Jennie." I hear him call me, and as if in cue, my mother pulls up. I run to the passenger side of the car and get inside, I look at my mother and she pulls away from the school. She finally gets a good look at me. "Jennie, baby, what's the matter?" She asks, "Your eyes are all pink my love, have you been crying?" She gently touches my face. "It's nothing Eomma." I whisper. "Don't tell me it's that boy again, ugh, I feel like Taehyung is just full of it. He's trying to just use you, so wrong that he keeps breaking up with you." I bite my lip, "Yeah." Is all I say.

**

I lay in bed and look out of the only window in my room, I see the darkness of Jungkook's room. He's away in Thailand with the blonde. Ugh, I've been hearing huge rumors lately that he's asking her to Prom. I mean, why would he ask anyone else? But whatever, I don't care. As of right now, I don't think that Taehyung would ask me to the dance after the thing I pulled today. I think a lot about Areum and what she said, I mean, not that I care or anything. Cause I don't, her opinion doesn't mean anything to me at all. She's just another worshipper of my brilliance.

I let out a breath, I grab one of my pillows and wrap my arm and leg around it, reminding me about how Taehyung would hold me when he fell asleep because that's the only way he can sleep at night. I slowly smile to myself as I think of him, holding me and whispering in my ear with his deep voice. I know in my heart that I love him, but whenever people start talking about Jungkook, there's a part of my head that clicks and all I think about is him.

"Jennie, baby, you doing okay?" My mother walks into my room. "Ah, Eomma, I'm fine.. just tired from school." I whisper. "Awe, my baby, I know." She sits on my bed and she sets her hand on my back, for some reason I feel really sad and bury my face in my pillow to cry. I hear her click her tongue. "Eomma, why is everything so complicated in life?" I cry. "It's life baby, but it depends on what you make of it. That's all." She pulls my hair out of my face and behind my ear. "I love him Eomma." I whisper, "I know you do." No, she doesn't, because I don't even know who I'm talking about.

**

"Taehyung, do you really think that keeping this dog is the best thing right now!? You should be focusing on your studies, do you know how much work it is to take care of a dog?" My mother yells at me. I look down at the little black and brown Pomeranian bred dog on my lap. "I'm lonely Eomma, I just need someone to love me." I whisper. "WHAT!? Say it louder so I can hear you." She demands. "I feel alone Eomma!" I exclaim as my eyes tear up and I look down at the puppy I've named Yeontan.

"Get out of my face, take that rat up to your room. The second I see him outside your room, I'm throwing him out on the street where he belongs." She says. "Okay Eomma." I say before I clench my teeth tight together. I grab Yeontan and stand up with my head still down as I walk out of her office. I walk up to my room and close the door. I hold him to my chest and he kisses my cheek, I slowly grin before quickly frowning. "They don't understand." I whisper. "All these years I've been alone and then I had Jennie.. but now I have you." I tell him. He blinks a couple times.

I click my tongue and rub his head, "You don't understand either." I whisper to him. I lay on my bed and he follows me, his face in front of mine. "Maybe you'd be better off with someone else.. maybe I can't love you enough." He blinks before he licks my face. I smile, "Thanks for the encouragement." I rub his head and turn myself on my side. "Sleep with me tonight." I say. "Don't leave me.. Yeontan." And to my surprise he lays right next to me and gets comfortable. I run my fingers over his soft fur, before I slowly fall asleep.

**
. Day 2 .

"My name is Sejun and this is my brother Leo." The middle child tells me. I smile. "Nice to meet you, I'm-", "Yeah, you're Taehyung, my sister never stops talking about you. Are you like, her boyfriend?" Leo asks. My eyes widen then go back to normal and I chuckle as I look up at her. Her face is so red and she shakes her head, "They're teasing, they know that you're my friend." She says quickly. "Okay, I'll pretend." Sejun wiggles his eyebrows at me.

"Oh! I've decided that I'm going to take you both back home." She tells them. "Oh, so you can be alone.. I see." She smacks her forehead. "Don't break her heart or I'll smack you in the ear." I straighten my back, "Of course not." I grin. "Good! Cause I wouldn't be able to reach your ear anyways." The youngest says. "We should go." Areum says quickly. "Are you rich?" Sejun asks. I raise an eyebrow at him. "What makes you think that?" I ask as we start to walk to the trampoline place. "You're paying for us." The youngest adds. I chuckle, "I just thought that you guys should have fun, I don't go out much and I'm an only child."

They look at each other and nod, "You're cool." They say together. I smile, "Thanks?" They run ahead of us and I catch up to Areum, we walk together. "Why are you so embarrassed?" I ask her. "Sometimes I forget that they're like this and they like to make a fool of me." I smile when she finally looks at me, her face pink again. "That's the luxury I never got." I look ahead to the boys pushing each other around and I smile. "Yeah, I got the house, the money, maybe even the looks." I let out a breath, "But I don't have siblings." I let out a breath.

"You can take my brothers." She says, making me laugh. "Maybe you just need friends.", "Like you?" I ask, she blushes again. "Like me." She then looks up at the sky and away from me. "But I spend your money." She says. I smile, "I've always liked spending my money on girls." That came out wrong. "You take out a lot of girls, I'm assuming." I shake my head, "In a serious way, only Jennie." And I want to bite my tongue, right now isn't the time to be talking about her. "We're here", She says, changing the subject and I'm happy about it.

We all walk inside the building and there are some employees at the front desk which is really long. They're wearing black polo shirts and tan khaki pants. "Welcome to Jumpy World, how many I help you?" One of the employees asks. "I would like to buy four slots for two hours." The boy clicks something on a monitor and then he hands me four pairs of blue socks. "Sometimes the trampolines tend to be hard to grip on with regular socks, so we will provide you with grip socks so you don't slip and hurt yourself." I take them from him, take one for myself and hand the rest to Areum.

"Before we let you in, please read the rules on the bulletin that are posted on the wall. We will call you up in a couple of minutes, can we please have a name for the party?" I nod and tell him my name, then we all read the rules. "This was really sweet of you again to pay for us, you didn't have to." She says to me. I shake my head, "It's my pleasure." I tell her. We read the rules, they're very simple.

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1.No Roughhousing
2.Use the socks given by employees
3.No Food or drinks in the trampoline area
4.No more than 4 people to a single trampoline area
5.Do not run
-

"Taehyung, party of four." They call and we are allowed to go pass the front desk, we are escorted to the back of the building. When we walk through a door there are several people jumping off walls into several structures.

I smile, it looks so fun. "Please walk over to those benches next to the cubby and take off your shoes and socks, then put on the socks that were given to you." The employee instructs. We do as we are told and then we are free to go and have fun for two hours. "Hey, the buddy system, I don't want to jump by myself." I grab her wrist as her brothers run off together. She turns to me and grins, "I wasn't going to leave you." She says and I slowly smile. "Come on." She says, slightly pulling her wrist out of my grip, which makes me hold her hand instead. We head over to an area where her brothers are at.

I'm so excited to be jumping on trampolines, Areum and I share a rectangular shaped trampoline. I start to bounce and I hadn't noticed that when I jumped, it sent Areum flying in the air. "Taehyung!" She laughs as she flaps her arms up and down like crazy. I can't stop laughing, and I jump even harder, which sends her flying even higher. She's now covering her face with her hands as she laughs. I stop bouncing as I grab a hold of her and stop her from bouncing as well. She slowly drops her hands, "I never went up so high before, it was so fun." I smile.

We jump a little longer in the same shape, but this time I hold her wrists so she doesn't go up too high and hurt herself. "We're going to the squares!" Sejun yells before he pushes Areum really hard while she's in the air which causes her to fly to the side and the force causes me to fall after her. When we land, I'm next to her and she throws her head back and laughs. I look at her and smile, "You okay?" She sits up, "No, my brother is a little brat, help me get back at him." She says, I nod quickly. "Okay." I say.

We get up and head over to the squishy square pit. Both boys are running along the wall and they throw themselves in the pit. We stand on each side of the exit of the pit and they start to laugh when they can't get out from any another place but the two exits. When they get out I grab both of them and toss them back in the pit and they're laughing like crazy. Then I run over to Areum, "Taehyung, no no." She steps back and I laugh as I walk closer to her. "Toss her in! Toss her in!" Her brothers chant.

She throws them a look as they just laugh. I take the chance to grab her and she screams. "Shshshshshshs." I laugh in her ear. She wraps her arms around me, "If I'm going down, you're going down with me Kim." With that I just push the both of us in the pit, but I throw myself away from her so that I don't land on top of her. I feel myself sinking and I can't stop laughing, "Taehyung!" She calls me. "I'm sinking." She laughs. I somehow get myself up but I'm then jumped on by her brothers.

"No! Get off!" Areum tells them. "You're so much fun Taehyung!" The youngest exclaims. My heart fills with happiness.

**

"Thank you so much for today... it was a lot of fun and you didn't have to do any of it." She tells me. I smile, "This is the most fun I've had in awhile." I confess. She grins and leans against the table of the restaurant we are in. I've decided to bring them to eat barbecue, of course, all paid by me. "Really?" She asks. I nod and look down at the meat being cooked. "Yes, really." I say as I turn over the meat. I feel her eyes, "What do you even like about me?" I ask under my breath, maybe she won't hear me.

"What isn't there to like about you?" She asks in a whisper. My head shoots up and I stare at her. "I'm a lonely person, I don't know how to love. I obviously lack something if.." I stop myself. She lets out a breath knowing who I was going to talk about. "Don't define yourself in a certain way because of others, especially her." I clench my jaw and my mouth goes dry. "You're enough." She adds as she pulls meat onto her plate, I stare at her but she's looking down as she adds rice and vegetables onto her plate.

I stare at her for a very long time, but she doesn't look at me. Not once. I start to wonder a lot.

**

I lay in bed for most of the morning, feeling down about my emotions. There's a knock at the door and I just lay here. "Baby." I hear on that side of the door. I shut my eyes and bite my tongue. "Are you hungry my love?" I hear my mother. "No." I force myself to answer. "Jennie.. baby. Are you feeling okay?" She asks. "Yes, I just want to lay in bed." I tell her. It then goes silent, I know she's gone and I bring myself under my covers. The longer I'm under the blankets I feel like I can't breathe correctly.

The heaviness of the blankets makes me breathe a little harder in order to get the right amount of air into my body. I guess it sort of explains how I feel about Taehyung. Most times it feels like I can never breathe, and the longer I'm with him.. I feel like I'm suffocating. At the same time, I want to love and hold him. I bring myself into the fetal position again and begin to cry, I don't know why though. I pull the blankets in towards my body and press my face against them. I only cry for a few minutes more before I fall asleep again.

**

I stare down at the plate my mother is making me eat, I'm not hungry at all. I just don't want to eat, period. I sit back at stare at my mother, "Jennie, please tell me what's wrong? You stayed in bed until 2:50pm.. you always wake up at 8:30am." I bite my lip, "I had told you Eomma, I just wanted to stay in bed longer." I explain to her. She shakes her head, "What did that boy do to you? Did he break your heart? What? Just tell me." She looks angry.

"It's nothing Eomma, I swear." She shakes her head, unconvinced. I try to muster up a lie so she'd get off my back about this, then the perfect lie pops into my head. "It wasn't Taehyung Eomma, I've been thinking about Appa lately." She freezes on the other side of the table, her hand flat on the glossed wood. She doesn't even blink. This is such a horrible lie, I haven't thought of my father for years. Yet, here I am telling my mother that I have been. "Jennie.." is all she can say.

But I don't say anything else, we just stare at each other for a very long time. I see her eyes watering, and I instantly feel horrible. My eyes water too, though I've been crying all morning and I could have sworn that my tear ducts had dried out. "Please don't tell me that you've been thinking about your father." I just bite down hard on my teeth. "Jennie, we've been strong enough for almost six years without him.. and you think about him now?" I stare at her as her face turns pink and she begins to sob.

"He left because he didn't love me, and he didn't care for us... but you still think about him? He's probably happy without us Jennie." My mouth goes dry and I feel my voice get stuck in my throat. "You shouldn't be crying over him, Jennie. I'm here! Me! Who took care of you!? Me! I'm your father! I'm your mother! And you're my everything! You're only mine!" I drop my head and start to sob. I hate myself for doing this to my mother, why couldn't I just tell her the truth? I then feel her arms wrap around me and I turn to her and wrap my arms around her too.

"I'm sorry Eomma." I whimper. "It's okay baby.." She whispers in my ear. She pulls my hair behind my ear and I look up at her. She wipes my eyes. I really want to tell my mother the truth, but the fact that I'm sad, I like the comforting attention. I think about how I slapped Areum and got mad at her, how I didn't want to be her friend anymore. It seems that this year, instead of gaining something more, I've lost more than I had before. I wonder what Jungkook is doing right now and if he's okay. I heart starts to pound, what's Taehyung doing?

"Jennie, baby, please eat the food I made you. I'm sure it's all cold already." My mother whispers to me. "Okay Eomma, no problem. I'll eat it right now." And I can't find myself to say the truth to my mother, I feel useless and like a horrible human being. The least I can do for her is to eat the food she made me. She sits right next to me, and watches me eat my food as she pets my head. I look at her for a second and she grins. I'm choked up and can't come clean to her so I just eat.

"Let's go out today baby, just you and me." She suggests. "Are you sure?" I ask her. She nods quickly. "Can Auntie come?" I ask her. "I can call her, I think it will keep her mind off of waiting for Jungkook to come home." I then become angry, Jungkook is worrying his mother because he's with the dumb blonde. I hate him so much for it, her.. I'd never stop hating her. When I'm done with my food, I go up to my room to change and my mother calls Auntie. I make sure that I look decent. "Jennie, Auntie can come!" My mother tells me.

I smile wide and nod to myself, she'll be happy now and she won't worry about Jungkook. I make sure to bring my purse and I leave my phone, I won't need it. I run downstairs and we're already going to leave. I'm wearing white shorts with my pulp fiction shirt, and my hair tied up. We leave the house and Auntie meets us outside. I greet her with a hug and we all walk over to the bus station so we can head out to the mall. I instantly get flashbacks of Jungkook and I going on the bus. I sit in the bus with an emotionless expression.

"Why are you so quiet, Kookie?" I ask him, wrapping my arms around him and setting my chin on his shoulder. "I'm not quiet." He says making me laugh. "Yes, you aaaaaare, why? Are you tired?" I ask. He smiles, "Stop with the aegyo, you look like a little cat." He says. I shake him. "I'm kitty Jennie!" I sing. He chuckles.

I smile to myself at the memory, letting out a breath before leaning against my mother. Why did I stop being Jungkook's friend, he was the best friend ever. And he was always so sweet to me and he cared about me. He even loved me.

When we arrive to the mall, it's really crowded, I hear my mother let out a breath. I didn't think that it would be this packed, but then again, it's Saturday. "Eomma, it will be crowded because today is Saturday. Everyone is always out on Saturday." I tell her, she nods and we get off the bus. I wrap my arm around my mother's arm and we walk up to the wall, I hold onto Aunties hand so she won't get lost. We do some shopping, like going to clothe stores and skin care stores. I feel refreshed and good to be out at the mall than being at home and doing nothing. I've found that I forgot about all the things I was sad about earlier today.

But at the end of our time at the mall, only one person crosses my mind.

**

. Day 3 .

When I wake up the next morning, I feel refreshed and a lot better. Yeontan wakes me up with kisses on my face. I smile and pet his little head. There's a knock on my door and I quickly stand up with Yeontan in my arms so that he doesn't run out of the room. When I open the door, it's my mother. She's in her usual business attire and she looks down at Yeontan. To my surprise, she pets his head. "There's a room for him down the hall if you don't want him in your room all the time." She tells me.

I stare at her, she doesn't even look at me.. but at Yeontan the whole time. "I think I like him in my room." I tell her. "As you wish, your father and I have a meeting in Seoul if you'd like to come." I don't have any plans today. "O-Okay." I say. "We'll take you out for dinner after, if you'd like. That's how long we'll be there." She tells me. I stare at her for a long time, wondering a bit about what she could possibly want from me. Or maybe she doesn't want anything. She finally stops petting Yeontan and she looks up at me as she straightens her back.

"Dress nice, I want you to wear your best clothes. Business attire please." She says. "Yes, Eomma." I tell her. "Be down in fifteen minutes." She then turns and heads down the stairs. I turn and close my bedroom door, I set Yeontan down and run over to my huge walk in closet. Gucci. Versace. Hermès. Prada. Dior. I tap my chin at all the choices that I have, I honestly need more.. I honestly still need Ralph Lauren, Giorgio Armani, maybe even some Chanel. I decide to wear my Versace suit that came out on their Spring Men line in 2017. Since I'm going with Versace today, I decide to also wear my shoes as well.

I walk over to my watch collection, F. P. Journe.
Richard Mille. Patek Philippe. Audemars Piguet. Vacheron Constantin, and not to forget the classic Rolex. I decide to just wear the classic F. P. Journe watch that matches well with my dark navy blue suit. I walk over to my bathroom and freshen up, washing my face and brushing my teeth and hair. In no time I'm downstairs meeting my mother and father before my time was up. They smile at the sight of me in a suit, ever since I turned eighteen they've been wanting to take me here and there with the company.

I always refuse though, because I already know what I have to. But today is different, I'm just bored out of my mind and want to go somewhere. This may be the only chance I have to be an actual family with my parents. I walk up to them. "Nice choice son, Versace." My father uses his thumb and pointer finger to rub the collar of my coat. "Here's your breakfast sir." Eunjung walks over and hands me a paper bag, I realize that my parents have one as well. "Let's go." My mother says and we leave the house. We take an escort car to the train station.

I follow my parents to a specific spot on the train and we sit down. "It will be a long ride until Seoul." My father tells me. I nod, "I know.. I've gone to Seoul before." I say. A gust of awkwardness runs over us. They stare at me for a while, "So how's it been with that pretty girl of yours? Jennie." My mother asks. I bite my lip, "She keeps breaking up with me." I tell her. Her eyebrows knit, "But I keep going back to her because I love her." I look down at my breakfast and start to take it out of the bag so I can eat.

There's a huge sweet bread, and other foods in little containers but I will eat the bread first. "Taehyung, it", "There's nothing you can tell me that will change my mind Eomma." I don't look at her. "How's school?" My father asks, changing the subject. "Straight A's. Our last play was a success." I rub it in their face that they weren't there to see it, like always. Then, as I expected, it gets dead silent and the noise of the train is all I listen to while I eat my bread.

**

"So you're Taehyung, I almost didn't recognize you." My parents secretary says to me, I want to tell him that I've never seen him in my life.. because he's new, but I get that he's trying to impress my parents. So I let it slide. I walk into their office and it's huge. "Taehyung, the real reason I needed you to come today.. is because we need you to sign paperwork." My mother tells me, making my blood boil. "Now that you're eighteen, we need you to sign a document saying that you'd be willing to take over when we die."

I stare at them in disbelief, they wouldn't trick me into thinking that they wanted me here to spend time with them. But I know that's exactly what they did, so I don't know why I'm trying to tell myself otherwise. "I want to go home." I tell them, "Taehyung.. we need you to do this so that the company stays in the family. We can't let the years of hard work go to waste." My father tells me. "Yeah, the years of hard work that you spent here instead of spending it with your only son. Why would I want to take over something that my parents cared more about than me?" I ask.

My mother looks choked up, she knows that she was the worst one out of the two. She literally spent the nine months when she was pregnant with me, I wasn't even born yet. Then when her month of maternity leave was up, she left me with a damn nanny to take care of me. Not to mention that she cut her three month maternity leave into one month so she could go back to work. What kind of burnt out crap is that? The kind of junk show that I was born into, the kind of sad life I was given. A life of loneliness and unimportance, like I said before.. it would be better if I was just never born.

"I refuse to take over this sob story of a company, that you supposedly do for me.. that you make the money for me. But it's just some pitch to get what you want, and I want nothing to do with it. I'm going home.. now." I turn to the door and I feel a small hand grab my wrist, I shut my eyes. My mother, she's my weakness, I really don't know why though.

Maybe because she's all I ever wanted when I was a baby, learning to walk. Because she wasn't around to hear my first word or see my first tooth. To see that I was fast to learn how to use the bathroom and how I learned to tie my shoes. I guess it's the lack of attention that I have from her, that makes her my weakness.. but it makes no sense whatsoever. "Taeh-hyung." She hiccups.

"No.. Eomma." I say sternly, not able to look at her. I feel a heavy hand pull her hand off my wrist and I know that it's my father, and it's his way of telling her to let me go. I walk out of the office, and out of the building that my parents invested their whole life into. When I get outside of the glass structure, I look up at it as the sun is barely peeking out from above the mountains. Streaks of red and yellow, even some orange and pink.

Yes, we are hear before the sunrise. The reflection is blinding me and I look away with watery eyes. This business is their child, this money and their reputation is all that matters to them. I'm just this cancerous side effect that's just a burden to them. I look down at my shoes, then up at many people who are going to work here in the Central District, also known as the business district. I bite my lip and walk in the opposite direction as everyone else. Maybe I don't have a home, or somewhere to go. I pull out my phone and I don't see a single text from Jennie. I haven't heard from her since Friday, and today is Sunday.

I've been a burden to her too, I bet she's living her life and being her happy self. She hasn't shed one tear for me, or thought about me. She doesn't want me. But anyways, being the annoying birth defect that I am, I text her though it's way too early for her to even reply back to me.

-

Me-
I know it's really early and you aren't awake right now.. but I wanted to text you before you woke up to tell you Good Morning. How ever you decide to dress up today, know that you look beautiful no matter what. I hope that you're doing fine. You're probably doing a lot better than me, I just want to kis.. I just hope that you have a good day today. I love you.

-

I bite my lip really hard before I send it, I don't regret telling her that I love her. I just want her to wake up happy and see a text that tells her that she's beautiful. I wish I could be waking up next to her right now, with an arm and a leg around her as my face is in her neck. To kiss her, not minding her morning breath or the little crusties she'd have in the inner corners of her eyes. The little line of drool that would flow from her mouth to her cheek that would possibly have hair stuck in it.

I don't care.

She's all I want right now. She really is. My heart begins to pound in my chest and I quickly nod, I walk at a quick pace to the train station.

**

I slowly stretch in my bed and look out the window, across to the other side. Sit up and look at the clock, 7:15am. The sun has risen and it makes my white curtains shine. I decide to just get out of bed and I go to the bathroom to freshen up. I take a forty minute shower and as I walk into my room, my phone is lighting up. I quickly walk over to it with my toothbrush in my mouth and a towel wrapping my hair. I read the text he sends me, then a new text pops up and I nearly choke on the toothpaste.

-
Taehyung-
Come to your front door.
-

I quickly and quietly run over to the bathroom to spit out the toothpaste and make sure my face looks decent. I try not to make too much so my mother doesn't wake up, it's Sunday.. which is her sleep in day. When I make it up to the front door. I look through the peephole and see Taehyung walking up to my house in a dress shirt and some fancy pants, his coat hanging off his forearm as his hands are in his pockets. My heart pounding so hard. I then take a deep breath while he walks up to the porch, an unsure look is on his face.

He bites his lip, staring at the door. His eyebrows knit and he runs his hair through his hair, I see him shake his head and he's about to turn and walk away when I quickly unlock the door and open it. Our eyes meet automatically, we stare at each other for a long time. His eyes then go up and he smiles before chuckling, I reach my hand up and realize that the towel is still in my hair. I feel my face heat up as I quickly take it down. I smile at him and he lets out a breath. "Do you.. want to come in?" I ask in a quiet voice. His smile grows, "I'd love to." He whispers to me.

I open the door wider and he walks in, I close and lock the door before I turn to him and he's staring at me. I look upstairs at my room then look back at him as a sign for him to walk up, he walks slowly up the stairs and I follow him. When we make it to my room, I close and lock the door. I turn to him, he's staring at me and I feel a wave of emotions run over me. I drop my head and turn away from him, covering my face with my towel. And in seconds I'm in his arms, "It's okay." He whispers in my ear with his deep voice. I drop the towel to the floor and hug him close.

His long arms feel safe and his hands are warm. His damn smell, I will never get over it. The smell of Versace cologne and the way his body curves into mine just perfectly. My hands on his back and my hands turn to fists. "I love you Jennie.." He says in my ear and I look up at him. I can't even say it back because his lips are already on mine. I instantly melt like a popsicle on a hot summer sidewalk. I lift my arms and wrap them around his neck, I tilt my head to the side and he tilts his the other way. It's like the kiss would never end, it was like I hadn't kissed him in years, and it was like he was kissing me for the first time.

When we get enough of each other, I slowly open my eyes and he's looking at me. "I've been thinking about you so much, and I know we weren't away from each other for a long time.. but I-", "Taehyung, I'm so sorry." I tell him, my eyes watering again. He instantly shakes his head. I shut my eyes and I feel his forehead on mine. "I love you so much." He whispers. "I love you." I tell him. "Lay with me." I add. "I've been thinking about it lately, and I hoped you'd ask me." I feel my heart start to pound and my face heats up.

We part and I walk over to my side of the bed and he walks over to his side, aka.. the sides of the beds we always lay on when we cuddle. He gets in quicker than me and yanks me under the blankets, I laugh quietly and look at him. He pulls the blankets over us and I bury my face in his neck. His arm goes over me and his leg as well. "Jennie." He whispers in my ear making the pit of my stomach turn, I just listen. "Go to prom with me." He says. I smile, "Okay." I whisper in his ear. I feel my eyes get heavy and it's like I'm able to sleep peacefully.

Isn't Jungkook supposed to come home today at like... 3pm?

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