"Oh? I'd like to say I was good at it." I tell her. She shakes her head, "You weren't." She laughs quietly, as all the people on the train are asleep and we don't want to wake anyone up, that would be rude. "But I tried to get you th-", "I know you tied, but it's okay.. it was your first time anyways." I blush, "But I was decent.", "Yeah, you were decent. I think you did better than anyone could be at their first time." I smile.

"That game was a little challenging though." I confess. "That's why I said you did decent on your first time.", "I won you that cat, on the second try." She hugs it. "I love it." I look down at the bear that she won me. "It's really nothing." I whisper. "She's the cutest." She tells me. I smile, "It's a she?" She nods. "Can't you tell? She has little eyeliner and she has a ribbon." She explains. I lean against my seat and look at her as she examines the Calico cat colored stuffed animal.

Her eyes look down at it before she hugs it and looks up at me, a grin slowly pulls on the corner of my lips. Her eyes slightly close as she smiles wide. "Jennie.." I whisper. She scoots closer to me. "I'm in love with you." I tell her. She grins, and sets a hand on my head. Her fingers playing with strands of hair. Isn't she going to say it back? I wait, hoping she'll say it. But she doesn't, and instead she kisses my forehead.

I try not to look bothered by the fact that she didn't say it back, maybe I say it too much to her.. and she gets bored of me saying it. That could be it, she already knows that I love her, I don't have to keep reminding her. I guess, I'll have to cut it down a bit. But I can't help myself when I'm talking to her or I'm around her. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I could love someone period. "Let's go somewhere when we get off the train." I tell her. "Where?" She asks.

"I don't know.. somewhere." I smile. "Curfew is 11." She tells me. I nod, "I'll have you home by then." I tell her. "I know, you always have me home before time." She says. I stare at her as she grins and slowly closes her eyes. "You'd stay with me, right?" I ask her. She nods as she slowly closes her eyes. I bite my lip and let out a small breath. I'm not tired and I just want to talk to her about stuff, but she's tired.. and that's okay.

For a while I just watch her until I just decide to think about other things. I look down at my bear and decide that he doesn't have a name. "Yeontan." I whisper and nod, that was easy. I look around at people sleeping, couples holding each other and then I look back at Jennie. Does she not want me to hold her? I lick my lip and start to think about where Jennie and I can go. I just stare off into space.

**

"I practically grew up here." I tell her. "This is so beautiful." She tells me. I smile. I had decided to bring her to a garden just outside the secured community I live in. "When I was left home alone most of the time.. I'd come here and just watch the flowers. Since it's outside the gated community, it made me feel free." I explain. She looks at all the different colored roses and lilies. "Come." I grab her hand and lead her down a path. She holds onto her cat as my teddy bear sat in her purse.

"Tae!" She exclaims as she sees where we're headed. "It's so amazing." She runs next to me and we head over to the white gazebo in the center of the garden. "This is so romantic." She says as she pulls me quickly on the gazebo. She sets the cat on the rail and pulls me against her. She wraps her arms around me, I set my hands respectfully on her waist. "I love you, Taehyung." She whispers. I smile wide.

Her hand running up the back of my neck and her fingers touch my hair, slowly brushing it. She presses her lips against mine and I kiss her instantly. Her fingers gripping my hair and she smiles against my lips. She slowly pulls away from me and buries her face in my neck as she holds me. I wrap my arms around her and press my nose against his hair. I shut my eyes and relax with her in my arms.

For a long while we just stayed under the gazebo and she took pictures of the flowers and she had me take pictures of her with the flowers. When it was about thirty minutes before curfew, I ordered a Uber.

**

Taehyung walks me to my front door, "I had fun today. I really enjoyed the carnival." He says. "I'm happy that you had fun, that's what I wanted." He looks down and his long fingers slowly touches the tips of my fingers. His thumbs running over the back of my hands. "I'm going to cherish tonight forever." He says. I slip one of my hands out of his and set it on the back of his neck.

"I'll cherish it forever too." He looks at my lips instantly. My fingers slowly going up into his hair and I pull his head, using my other hand to direct his arm to wrap around me. He instantly uses both arms to hug me. He kisses me slowly, passionately and gently. My fingers gently gripping his hair. His nose presses against my cheek as he slowly lets go of my lips. "The driver is waiting." He whispers. I whine as I look up at him. He chuckles and pecks my lips before he pulls away from me.

"I'll see you soon then." He says to me. "Okay." I say, pulling the plushie out from my purse and hugging it really tight. He smiles to the sight of it in my arms. "I love you." He says to me. "I love you too." I tell him. He smiles and walks to the car. "Goodnight Jennie!!!" He exclaims as he throws his arms up into the air, like he was going to throw himself on a bed or when people in movies throw themselves in leaf piles.

"Goodnight Kim Taehyung!!" I yell back. He smiles wide and laughs. He waves to me, his face looked warm and he was exhaling slowly. I wave back before he gets into the car and the Uber driver takes off. I look up at the dark sky.. we got home late, and it makes me wonder what Taehyung will do after he gets home. Take a shower? Will he hug the teddy bear I won him tonight as he sleeps? I hope he does. I look down at the cat in my arms and turn to the door of my house.

A tingle in my neck makes me look towards Jungkook's house. My eyebrows knit and I see him leaving, he has a sweater on and sweats. At this time of night he's leaving his house? What is the meaning of this!? He would never do this! I watch him quickly walk in a familiar direction. My blood boils. She would want him to break rules and sneak out to go to her house. I grip the stuffed animal and look back at my house. I won't take long.

I walk down the front steps and follow him down the block. When he makes it up to the house, he doesn't even go up to the front door. I cover my mouth with my hand, he's sneaking into her house! She's such a bad influence on him. He shouldn't be doing any of this, he's so lucky that I'm not dragging him back to his house. I bet his mother doesn't even know he left the house. I lean against the garage out of sight but I don't see her.

When the window is opened for him he gets inside. Then he just uses one hand to close the window. I slowly walk up to the door, I'm shocked! She opens the covers and gets into bed, he takes off his shoes and joins her. I quickly run away from the house and hurry home. Jungkook is going to get in huge trouble when I tell his mother.

I then become worried that he's doing something that he'll regret... like adult things. I bet she's the one that told him they should do it. And Jungkook is such a child that he probably just went along with it. He doesn't deserve getting in trouble just for her, but I just want him to know that he shouldn't be sneaking out for stupid reasons. She's that stupid reason. What did she do to deserve him to go over? She doesn't deserve anything from him, I hate that he'd break rules for her.

When I make it home, I walk right into the house. "Jennie, where have you been? I've been worried sick about you! That boy brought you home after curfew, this is so ridiculous! I'm going to-", "Eomma, I was home a couple of minutes ago but I saw something that Jungkook did that would make his mother really upset.", "What did he do?" She quickly forgets about me being late. "He snuck out of the house past his bedtime, she's probably asleep. She'd be so disappointed in him, I wouldn't have expected that from him." She taps her chin.

"Where did he go?" She asks me. "To his girlfriends house." I wince at the word. "Oy.." She lets out a breath. "That boy has changed a lot since he got with her Eomma, you don't believe me but it's true.", "I have faith in Jungkook. There must be a good reason he went over to her house. He wouldn't break his mother's rules, I know him." What!? My mother really thinks this!?

"Yeah, but Eomma. He's never done this before." She pops out a hip and sets her hands on her waist. "Jennie, when you'd feel sad and alone he would come over and lay with you. I don't think this is any different than it was for you." I shake my head. "She has a different influence on him." I tell her. "Jennie, just let him be. I trust him.", "I don't." Slips out.

"I'm really not believing you right now, Jennie. I've even raised that boy myself, I know he has good intentions and that's so rude of you to think less of him." I just stare at her, "I'm telling Auntie first thing in the morning." I tell my mother. "You do you Jennie, I really don't know what to tell you." She shakes her head. I shrug and walk over to my room. "She doesn't believe me, my own mother that gave birth to me and is supposed to support me in everything I do." I roll my eyes, tossing the stuffed animal on the bed as I change into my pajamas.

I get into bed and hug the cat that Taehyung won me. Thinking about all the things that Jungkook could be doing right now. How he's probably thinking that he's off the hook but he's not when I wake up and tell his mother first thing in the morning. I don't know what is going on in that dog's head, she must think that she's so slick getting him to sneak over. And thinks that she's so smart to think no one would see. But she's so wrong. And I hate her so much.

I slowly fall asleep though I hear my phone buzz several times and I know it's Taehyung saying something to me. Probably about the carnival today and telling me goodnight. I can already predict him, he's so predictable.

**

"Jungkook.. I love you." I tell him. He nods slowly. "I know.. It's hard for you to admit it because you're stubborn and you have a really important reputation, and dating me would make you the laughing stock of the school, because I'm only a little innocent boy that no one cares about." He tells me, and I nod. "I'm happy that you understand." I tell him. "Now tell me something I've been wanting to hear ever since you got with that dog." I demand.

"I never stopped loving you." He whispers as his hands hold my face. "I knew it, I knew the second you got with her you didn't love her and you never stopped loving me.", "And Taehyung?" He asks. "What about him? He's nothing. He doesn't mean a thing." Leaves my lips. "And the blonde?" I ask him. He just shakes his head, "Everything you said was true." I smile wide. "It was always you Jungkook. Always." I whisper. He slowly nods, "I know.." he says. His thumb slowly running over my chin and I look up at him.

"Just kiss me Jungkook, we've both wanted this for a long time.." he slowly smiles. "Oh, and when you pushed me away the day I confessed to you.", "No." I whine as I grip his shirt. "I was confused and didn't know that you were meant for me, that I was supposed to love you and no one else." I hold his shoulders. "I want to hear you say it." He whispers, almost in a growl. "Kiss me Jungkook, please." I whine. "Again.." He whispers. The pit of my stomach tightening to the sound of his voice deep and demanding.

I just pull the back of his neck and connect our lips, he's not gentle with me at all.. and I don't care. He swiftly pushes me against the wall of his room, this is where we are now. He has a lot of skills. I gasp as he lifts me up and I'm over his head. "Jungkook." I whisper. "Jungkook who?" I open my eyes to see Taehyung, my legs around his torso and his hands tight around my thighs.

I smack my hand over my mouth. "T-Taehyung.. I.." he just stares at me. "I don't know what I'm supposed to say to you Jennie. You mean the world to me and here you are thinking I'm Jungkook. What kind of monster are you to take my love for granted and love another boy? This is so unfair, and I hate that I can't find myself to hate you. And I know I will always love you." I find myself choked up. "Put me down." I tell him.

"So because I'm not Jungkook, you don't want me to hold you this way and kiss you the way he kissed you. So I don't deserve any of that from you." I push myself out of his touch. I'm now realizing I'm not in Jungkook's room, but in Taehyung's room. "Don't you remember how special our time was together in this room?" He asks as he steps up to me. I slowly look at his bed. "I'll never forget that, ever. And I want you to feel special too." He says. My eyes water. "It was special." I whisper.

"No it wasn't." He shakes his head. I nod quickly. "No it wasn't." He says again. "Taehyung! Yes it was!", "DON'T YOU DARE LIE TO ME!" He screams. "I know that in real life it wasn't." My bottom lip quivers. "You don't want me, love me, you don't want to hold me, kiss me.. you don't care for me." I find myself in tears. "Leave me alone Jennie." He says. "Taehyung!" I scream. "I said LEAVE ME ALONE!" His hand goes up and he shoves the air in front of me. I shut my eyes tight.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry." I cry. "I'm sorry Taehyung.. I'm sorry." I whisper. I slowly open my eyes and I see nothing. Not Jungkook, not Taehyung, and not anyone's room. I'm in pitch darkness, "Hello?" I call out. I then feel like I'm suffocating, and my ankles are being pulled. I then fall on my stomach unable to breathe. I hug myself as I'm being dragged somewhere. I'm then able to breathe and I'm on my back now. My eyes slowly open.

I sit up in bed, I stare at the foot of it. My mouth went dry and I want to just pull my hair out. Why am I like this.. I hate myself for doing this to Taehyung, but I know that I love him. But I love Jungkook too. I'm being selfish, but I think that I will just continue to love Taehyung. This dream has really made me think. I try as hard as I can to get back to sleep, but I'm unable to.

**

"You had a date with your girl?" The driver asks. "Oh." I smile wide. "Yes, sorry for the wait." I tell him. "No problem at all, young love is a beautiful thing." He explains as he drives me home. "Went to the carnival?" He asks. "Yes, we had a great time." I say. "I used to go there when I was a young boy and had friends.. but you know, that never lasts." This just got real awkward real quick. "Yeah." Is all I say.

"So, not to be nosey.. but the address you want me to take you to is where he real rich people live. So you're dating a girl who is less fortunate than you." He says. My eyebrows knit, "I don't care about my fortune, the second I get my career going I'm moving out. My family doesn't care about me." I look out the window, "None of that money is for me anyways." I say. "Ah, I've heard of children like you." He says. "Children like me?" I look at him a bit pissed. "Yes, the type of children that don't ever get attention because their parents have all sorts of money and a important job."

"With all due respect sir, I'm paying you to take me home. Not to analyze my life for me, I know my life a lot better than you ever could. So I'd appreciate if you'd end this conversation.", "Sorry." He says quickly and I stare out the window again. It's finally quiet, and I'm able to breathe. He knows about people like me? And I don't see Jennie as less fortunate than me at all, I just see her as a regular person. It's like I care how much money she has. I shake all my thoughts away, this guy is messing with my head.

Luckily, it doesn't take long for me to get home, I thank the driver and head inside my house. Of course, as I'd expect, my parents aren't home. I walk up to my room and flop on the bed with my teddy bear. I turn on my side and shut my eyes. "Sir? Would you like me to make you your hot chocolate with a hand full of mini marshmallows, a swirl of whipped cream and shaved chocolate on top? My maid asks me. "Yes!" I say quickly as I smile wide. She smiles wide and I jump off my bed and take my bear with me.

"How was your day today, sir?" She asks as we walk down the stairs. "Oh, it was magical. I loved it so much and it was great going there for the first time. The carnival I mean." I jumble about it. "That's so great, sir. I'm glad that you had fun. You need it anyways, I've seen your report card.. all A's." I look at her as we walk into the kitchen. "You saw my report card?" I ask her. "Yes, of course." I can't believe I almost forgot how this works.

"Oh, I see. My mother 'didn't have time' to look at it, so you looked at it for her." I air quote before sitting down lazily at the table. I sit my teddy bear nicely in front of me and look down at it. "Do you think Jennie is less fortunate than me?" I ask her, dropping the conversation about my mother. "In what way?" She asks. "Money." I reply. "I think I've told you this for a long time, sir. Money's just paper, if you are rich in spirit then you have much more than everyone else." She tells me.

Spirit? Is Jennie rich in spirit? "Spirit how?" I ask her. "Well sir, if they are a good person, they are rich in spirit." She explains as she finishes making my hot chocolate. I think about it, is Jennie a good person? I'd like to think that she is the best person I know. "Here you go, sir." She says as she sets the cup in front of me. "This Bear is so cute, from the carnival?" She asks. I look up at her and smile. "Jennie won it for me." I tell her. "That's cute, you speak of this Jennie quite a lot." She sits at the table with me.

"Oh, I never notice." I blush. "You do, and I like seeing you happy." She sets her chin in the palm of her hand. "But she also makes me sad." I tell her as I stick my finger in the whipped cream and then stick it in my mouth. "It's like that sometimes." I look at her, "Love." She adds. I nod. "She's so confusing." I explain. "Confusing?" She asks. I nod. "She loves another boy too, this boy who has been in her life since birth." I explain before I bring the cup to my face and start to lick the whipped cream like a dog.

"Oh, I see." She taps her fingers on her cheek, "You know.." she starts and I set my cup down. "Girls are confusing, and what you just explained to me reminds me of a drama." I chuckle and start to drink my hot chocolate. "I might as well be in one cause I agree." She lightly chuckles, I then look around then back at her. "It's almost midnight, your shift was over five hours ago." I tell her. "Yeah, I know.. but I wanted to make sure that you'd get home okay." I smile.

"You didn't have to do that." I explain. She nods, "You know, I see you as my son. And I practically raised you, so.. I care about you a lot. Listening about your day and your life makes my job a lot more bearable." I slowly nod and drink my hot chocolate. "Then call me Taehyung, not sir." She nods, "If that's what you want." She watches me finish my hot chocolate and then I walk up to my room. When I'm in my pajamas and ready to go to bed, she stands in my doorway. I look at her.

"Have a Goodnight, I'm going home now." I gulp down some saliva. All home alone. "Okay, thank you for the hot chocolate." I tell her and she closes my bedroom door and I lay in bed. I stare up at the ceiling, wondering if Jennie is rich in spirit. I can't seem to make up my mind if she is a good person or not.. and I'm not sure if that's a good thing. I then get my phone and text her.

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Me-
I had a great time today, I'm happy that I got to experience my first carnival with you. We should do something like this again. You're probably asleep, but I just wanted to tell you that.

Me-
Goodnight, I love you

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I look at the text messages and smile as I set my phone on my nightstand. Now that I texted Jennie, I don't feel so alone in this house. I turn on my side and clap my hands, the lights in my room turn off. I hug on tight to the teddy bear and instantly fall asleep.

**

• Next Morning •

"Auntie! Jungkook snuck out last night from his room, I saw him when I got home from the carnival." I tell her as she had opened the door.

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