"Thank you. Have a great night." I tell the owner of the liquor store. "You too Jennie, is Jungkook waiting for you outside?" He asks. I bite my tongue. "No, I'm walking home alone." I tell him, grabbing the milk and bread I was sent to buy for my mother. I turn not saying another word, heading down the block. Why does everyone expect Jungkook to be with me? It's so stupid honestly.

I walk pass the park we used to go to when we were little, the memories we made. If I'm completely honest, I miss Jungkook's friendship. All that was really true, I miss Jungkook in a brotherly way. But knowing that he has feelings for me, makes everything awkward. I only see him as a brother, obviously.

I look back at the castle like playground for old times sake, smiling at the memories of Jungkook and I playing kingdom. I'd always be the queen, cause duh, I'm queen. I then see two people on the slide tower. Why would teens my age even be on a playground at this time? Are they stupid? Being the nosey person that I am, I walk a little closer. Is that Jungkook? And... the blonde?

My eyebrows knit in confusion. Why would he be with her? Could it be the date he was talking about when we had dinner yesterday? But why would he bring her here!? And at the spot we grew up together at, that's such a horrible thing for him to do. I see him grab her hands and he intertwines their fingers. They're talking, but I can't quite hear what they're saying. I could only hear whispers.

Why was my chest filling with rage?

I don't understand why everyone likes the blonde so much, there's nothing great about her. Before my eyes, his hands raise to caress her face and he presses his lips against hers. I bite down hard on my tongue. In the moonlight, I see him smile and she starts to laugh, only to have him kiss her lips a couple of times before they part. He takes her hand and they walk off of the playground and head for the other side of town, opposite of where Jungkook and I live.

Is he walking her home? Why? She could walk herself home, she has legs. I'm walking myself home, and I'm not complaining. I walk to the corner of the block at watch them walk down the sidewalk together. I get slapped with reality. "What ever, why do I care?" I turn and walk towards my house. I was unable to get it out of my head. Why? Because Jungkook and I grew up together and I never thought I'd see him get a girlfriend? Yeah. Not that I expected Jungkook to stay single forever, but I didn't expect him to have one now. Let alone her. Why does he like her? What is so great about her? She's not even pretty.

I could easily think of reasons as to why people shouldn't like her. Or why people should think differently of her, but right at this moment isn't the time for that. I'm busy walking home, and I'm not going to waste my time on her. The more I think about Jungkook and that blonde, the more I get mad. I really don't understand, and if he'd explain it to me... I still wouldn't understand. Why? Because anything that has to do with her is irrelevant.

It only takes a few minutes to get to my house. When I walk through the front door I instantly hear my mother, "Jennie, what took you so long," She asks. "Oh, you know... stuff." I walk into the kitchen and set the bread on the counter and walk over to the refrigerator to store the milk. "I'm sorry I sent you baby, it's just that I know in the morning how you like your breakfast and I wouldn't have time to go and pick up the milk." I shake my head. "It's Okay Eomma, no harm done." She walks over and kisses my cheek.

"Okay baby, you can go to your room. Make sure to take a shower and have your uniform ready for school tomorrow." I nod, "Okay Eomma." I say before running off to my room. I walk over to my phone and head for my bed right after. I turn on my phone, going onto the Instagram app. It reminds me of how disrespectful she was to me when I harmlessly direct messaged her. I would never follow her, but I just message her again.

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KittyJennie
It's really how ridiculous that a threat can't even get through to your little brain, you're absolutely disgusting and I don't know what Jungkook even likes about you. Or why he would even like a person like you. I don't even know how many times I have to tell you to stay away from him. Do I have to actually tell you details on how I'm going to hurt you at school?

Lalisa_M
You know, Jennie. I just want to let you know that there's nothing that you tell me tonight that can ruin my night. I had an amazing night with Jungkook, and I couldn't be happier. Sorry if that makes you jealous, but the last time I heard around School... you have a boyfriend. So I really don't understand why you're so worried about Jungkook. And WHY you keep messaging me.

KittyJennie
Just shut up! I'm not jealous, you don't know anything. I can care about my brother Jungkook. He shouldn't be dating or even interacting with you.

Lalisa_M
So you message me.. and now you're telling me to shut up. Okay, cause that makes sense.. it seems to me that you don't think of Jungkook so much as a brother. Does Taehyung know?

KittyJennie
Does Taehyung know WHAT!?

Lalisa_M
That you like Jungkook

KittyJennie
I don't like Jungkook, I care about him because he's like a brother to me.

Lalisa_M
I'll pretend that I believe that

KittyJennie
And if I really did like to him, you'd have a problem because Jungkook would choose me over you in seconds

Lalisa_M
I'll pretend that I believe that too

KittyJennie
What ever, I know him better than you

Lalisa_M
That's cool that you think that, Night

KittyJennie
What ever! I've known him basically all my life and just because you've known him for almost a whole school year, doesn't mean you know more about him than me.
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And like yesterday, she leaves me in read. I turn off my phone and slam my hand on my bed. I hate her, I hate her so much. I've realized that Taehyung didn't even message me today, or call me. I wonder if he was really busy today. Strangely enough, my phone vibrates and it's a call from Taehyung. I smile wide and answer. "You're up, baby? I didn't think you'd be awake." I chuckle, "I'm awake for you." I say. "I'm so sorry, I was busy with my parents. They're teaching me about business and they took me to some sort of intervention so that I can get the hang of things. It was really boring honestly, but yeah. How was your day?" He asks.

"Laid back, I got to just stay home." I tell him. "Lucky." He says quickly. "I miss you." I frown. "Awe, you don't have to miss me, I'll see you tomorrow." He tells me. "I know, you better give me a kiss." I hear him chuckle on the other side of the call making me smile. "The sloppiest kiss ever.", "No, I didn't mean that." I chuckle. "Yes, saliva everywhere." He says. "Eeeeewe." I laugh. "I'm kidding." He chuckles. "And the biggest hug." He hums, "I cant wait." I smile, "Me neither." It's quiet for a while and I just listen to him breathe.

"Taehyung." I whisper. "Yes?" He asks. "I love you." I tell him. "I love you too." He says. I slowly nod and stare at my feet. "What's wrong? I can sense you already." I bite my lip. "It's nothing.", "Jennie, we've been together for a long time now. I know when something is wrong with you. I don't need to see you in person in order to see that." I throw my head back into the pillow. "I'm just tired." He hums, he's not buying it. "You should go to bed then, your health is important. So please, get rest. I'll see you in the morning." He says.

I nod as if he could see me, "Okay, I'll see you in the morning.", "Goodnight." He whispers in a deep voice. "Goodnight." I say slowly before we end the call. I drop my phone on the bed... why am I not feeling this relationship anymore? I feel like I'm just going through the motion and not the emotions. It doesn't feel right anymore. Maybe I'm just thinking all this because I'm tired. I get up and do my night routine, I change into pajamas and clean my face. Then finally I'm off to bed.

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•The next morning•
-At school-

I lean against my locker waiting for Taehyung. I turn my head and spot him right away, he smiles and walks faster. I stand up straight and when he's in front of me he wraps an arm around me and lifts my chin with his thumb. I pull on the front of his coat, I want to know if this relationship is worth saving. I need to see if I feel something. His lips touch mine, and he's very gentle with me, he was the complete opposite of what he said last night.

My heart skipped a beat and I feel like I'm hovering over everyone in this school. I believe I need to be able to explain when I come to a decision. I don't know why all of a sudden I'm second thinking my relationship with Taehyung.

He slowly pulls away, has he noticed? He eyes slowly open, "What's wrong?" He asks, reminding me of last night. I stare down at my shoes. "No." He lifts my chin to look at him. "I want to see your eyes when you tell me." He looks at my lips then my eyes again, "Because I can feel it in your kiss that something is wrong." He says. Come on Jennie, just say it. "Taehyung, I think we need a break." I tell him, finally. "A break?" He looks confused and upset at the same time.

"I don't understand, what do we need a break for?" He asks. I feel myself coming up on a stutter. I don't know. "I just need time." I luckily don't stutter. "Why?" He asks. "Because I do.", "You're not explaining it to me. You're not telling me what's wrong, you're telling me what you want and you're not explaining what I've done to cause this. Cause obviously it's because of me." He says. We've caught peoples attention. We were the star couple of the school, and now what?

"I just don't know." I tell him. He chuckles, "Yes, you do." He says. My eyebrows knit. "You don't know what's going on in my brain, you don't know how I'm trying to figure things out.", "But you're trying to figure it out without me, and without explanation." He says. I guess he's right, but I'm not even sure about myself yet.

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I'm confused, and I feel hurt. We've been together for eight months now and she can't tell me what's wrong, let alone tell me why she wants a break. A 'break' in a relationship is basically breaking up without the word 'up' in it. So, she's telling me that she wants to break up with me. I can feel my heart hurting. All last night I thought about her, when I was learning boring stuff about business with my parents, I was thinking about her. And now she's telling me that she wants a break.

Just then I see her eyes leave me, and I turn. Of course, it's all clear now. I should have known and followed the signs. Jungkook. He's the reason for this. My eyebrows raise when I see him close and personal with Lalisa. I turn and look back at Jennie. "It's all very clear to me now." I tell her, causing her to look at me instantly. "What?" She asks. "What do you mean what? It's obvious to me now, and hurts me more than ever." I confess. The first girl I tell that I love her and she has feelings for another boy.

"Taehyung, I really don't know what you're talking about." I grab her wrist and pull her away from the crowded hallways. We're in a empty hallway now. "It's always been him hasn't it? You tried to play me for a fool." I tell her. Maybe I'm coming off a little strong, but I'm pissed at the fact that she didn't tell me earlier. Did she like him the whole time we were together and was just playing with me? Did she even like me? Ever?

"Taehyung, I don't like him." She says sternly, but it's clear in her voice that she's very confused. Maybe she doesn't even know that she likes him, and it has to take her own boyfriend to realize that she likes another boy. I bite my lip. "Yes you do, that's why you're always hating on Lalisa and the reason why you tried being his friend again." I feel unbelievably hurt right now, telling my first love that she doesn't love me. She shakes her head, "No." she rebuttals.

"Okay, then tell me you love me and mean it." I order her. "I love you Taehyung." She says quickly, her eyes look scared, and I'm not sure of what. Can a person love two people at the same time? Or am I just an idiot and I don't know what love is? "I'm sorry you Taehyung, I didn't mean what I said before, I don't want to lose you." She pulls on my coat and presses her lips against mine. There was a urge to push her away, but I love her so much.. that I can't. Her lips hypnotizing me.

I kiss her back, holding her and pulling her close to me. "I'm sorry." She whispers, and I am unsure if I should believe her. "I love you." I tell her.

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Authors POV

For the young lovers, it was very challenging to get their feelings across to one another clearly. But in reality, there wasn't much clarity to begin with. Jennie was a mess of emotions, she could never opened up completely to people about her feelings. There were a lot of things that she was going through that she never talked about, so instead she acted out like a person who was confident and believed that they knew they were right, when in all reality she's the most confused person out of everyone.

Taehyung fights his feelings, he still wants Jennie. He wants to be the one that she thinks about all the time. He doesn't want Jungkook to have it all. Taehyung was determined to straighten out Jennie's mind. He was selfish, much like her. Maybe they were just so much alike that at one point, they cancel each other out. Most importantly, Taehyung doesn't like losing, and he wasn't planning on losing now.

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"Aaaaahahaha!!! Dog!" Jennie and her friends laugh as they push me down into a pile of mud in the field as we play the field spot of the week. I look down at my hands that are covered in mud. I get up and limp my way back onto the field to play. My whole right leg is covered in the itchy nasty mud. "Lalisa!!" I hear the physical education teacher. "Go wash up!" He yells. I quickly run off the field and head back to the locker rooms. He is so blind that he didn't see what had happened?

The second I walk into the locker room I start to cry, I hate this. This makes me feel less of a person and more of a dog like Jennie portrays me out to be. I'm a helpless person just because I don't like to hurt others, even if they're hurting me. I walk up the aisle of lockers where mine is located and I realize that it's open, I run over to it and there's nothing in there except for my brush and other necessities. I bite my lip and start to look for a place where my uniform could be. I checked in empty lockers and on top of lockers.

I find myself standing in front of the bathroom, my body starts to shake for some reason. I'm praying that they didn't put my uniform in the toilets. I walk over to the stalls and open them, checking all of them and making sure my uniform isn't in there. Luckily it's not, and as I'm leaving the bathroom the trashcan catches my attention. I see a sleeve sticking out of the top, they wouldn't have.. I walk up to it and look inside. But oh, they did. And they didn't just throw it in here... oh no..

They poured old lunches on top of it and several chunky expired coffee drinks. My eyes start to water again and I slowly pull my uniform out of the trash can. What am I going to wear? I can't just go to class in my physical education uniform, it's full of mud and I'll get in trouble by the discipline officer. I shake my uniform off as much as I could, moldy chunks and other foods slowly fall into the trash. I dare not to explain the smell, I want to barf thinking about it.

I take my uniform over to the sink and get several paper towels. I use water and soap to try to clean it up as much as I could. How will I explain this to my parents? Or to Jungkook, he wouldn't believe me if I lied to him, and he'd notice that I'm lying right away. And I sure as hell can't avoid him because we have every class together and he's my boyfriend. Then he'd really be suspicious of me.

I only clean some of the stains off, but my uniform looks horrible. Also being that the uniform is yellow and it stains easily. I bite down hard on my bottom lip and give up on it. I run over to my locker with my now damp clothes and grab my small body wash and towel that I leave in my locker. I bring all my things with me so that when I'm done I can leave immediately without anyone harassing me.

I run to the showers and clean up, hanging up my uniform so that it can dry at least a bit. I clean all the mud off my body and dry myself before dressing into the very ugly and stained uniform. I literally douse myself in perfume. I grab my things and get out as quick as I could. Unlucky for me the rest of the class is let into the locker room, the class is over and everyone has to dress into their uniforms now.  I try my best to walk out of the bathroom, but I'm pushed against the wall and my backpack is yanked off of my shoulder and tossed on the floor.

"Boo hoo, Boo hoo." Jennie whines. "Ugh, look at you. Crying like a little baby just because your uniform defines who you are now. Trash." She laughs making the other girls laugh. I bend down trying to get my bag but I'm pushed back. I watch them pick up my backpack and Jennie stares at me as she pours a coffee drink into my backpack. "Ooooooooops, I'm so sorry." She fakes a sad expression. She tosses my bag at me before she turns and walks away, her friends following her.

I quickly grab my bag and run out of the locker room and into the hallways. I wipe my tears away, I have to be strong. And as expected Jungkook walks out of the locker room with Jimin, they both look at me concerned. "Lalisa." He walks over to me, Jimin following behind. "What happened?" He asks, really worried. "I fell." I tell him. He looks at my uniform, and I'm unsure if he'll believe me. My eyes set on Jimin and he's staring at me intensely, he knows what's going on.

I didn't want to open my backpack, that's probably a bigger mess now. "O-Okay.." Jungkook finally says, falling for my lie. I don't like lying to him. It doesn't feel good.

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