I quickly walk away from him, I head to my tent. I quickly grab my things and head to the showers, making sure none of those girls have followed me. I enter the shower and set my soaps on the bench near the area to bathe, I can't hold back my tears anymore. I try to quiet my cries. "Why Jungkook?" I ask myself, slowly falling to the bench. "Why do I love you?" I whisper even quieter.  There, I've admitted it. Out loud, I'm in love with Jungkook. It's hard not to fall for him, my dumb heart.

And he can't ever know that, ever. He's in love with Jennie. And it seems to me that Jennie is the obvious reason for the incident, I can predict that easily. She's always the cause of my pain. I wipe my tears and start the shower, I really shouldn't be saying things like that out loud when someone can hear me. What if they go off and tell him? My heart starts to pound. Jungkook knowing that I love him would be a disaster. I undress and hang the clothes I'll be changing into, far from the shower so they don't get wet.

I walk into the warm water and try my best to get all the sand out of my hair. And it seemed that no matter hard I tried, I couldn't stop the tears. Why is he acting so different with me? Did the kiss mean something to him? Why won't he tell me so I can stop being confused? I shake my thoughts away and wash my tears. As I'm beginning to clean myself with soap, the water changes from warm to ice cold. I smack my hand over my mouth so that I don't gasp out loud.

I hear laughs from outside, "Dog!" I step out of the water, still covered in soap. I stick a foot in the water but it stays cold. I take a deep breath and continue my shower, every once in a while my body shivered. Gosh, I hope I don't get sick after this. When I'm completely clean, I turn off the water and dry myself off, I shake my head. I'm not going to cry, this will all be over, tomorrow we're going home.

I dry my shivering body off and dress myself. I grab all my belongings and head out of the shower with caution. I'm scared, I don't want something to happen again. I slowly head back to my tent. No one is there, I drop my things off at my tent and I don't really know what to do. I don't know where Jungkook is. I decide to stay in my tent, I sit on top of my sleeping bag and pull my knees to my chest. I become drowsy.

I feel so alone..

**

"Lalisa, say that to Jennie?" I ask for the hundredth time. "Jungkook, it shouldn't be something to believe. Lalisa wouldn't say that, period." Jimin says. "What were you going to come and tell us anyways? You seemed really happy." He adds. "Something that makes everything so clear now." I start to smile thinking about it. "What?" He asks. "Well, after the sand incident I told you about.. Lalisa went to take a shower and I followed her because I didn't want those girls to ambush her again." He nods. "And?" He asks.

"When I was leaning against the wall.. at first I heard her crying. Then she asked, 'Why Jungkook' and I was confused cause I've done nothing to make those girls mistreat her. And guess what she said next." A smile breaks out on my face. "What ever it is, it has you smiling like a dork.", "She said, 'Why do I love you?'" The second I say those words Jimin and Chaeyoung's jaws drop. I nod quickly. Jimin then breaks out in one of those smiles where I can't even see his eyes, "You said it made everything clear now?" He asks.

"I think I like her back." I finally say out loud. I hear Chaeyoung screeching. "I told you Jungkook, didn't I tell you? I told you." He says. I've never felt so happy to confess something like this, it's definitely not like the whole Jennie thing where I felt horrible like that. "I'm proud of you, now you can drop Jennie." He says, my smile goes away. When mine goes away, both their smiles go away. Neither of them seem excited anymore. "Jungkook... you're letting Jennie go.. right?" He asks. I bite my lip, "Jungkook, you've got to be kidding me." He says.

"I can't just let her go like that.." I don't even know what I'm saying, this is just flowing out of my mouth. "I really don't understand you Jungkook, you know Jennie is causing those girls to mistreat Lalisa. And you still like her? If you really like Lalisa, you wouldn't like what Jennie is doing." Jimin says. He makes sense, but I'm still confused what to feel about Jennie. I've loved her all my life, and the fact that I've fallen so quickly for Lalisa is so absurd to me.

"I should go.. look for Lalisa.." I say. "Are you going to tell her?" Chaeyoung asks. I shake my head quickly. "No, she can't know. I wouldn't want what happened with Jennie to happen with Lalisa." I confess. "Jungkook, do you ever listen to what I tell you? Lalisa is nothing like Jennie, and you heard her with your own ears. She said she loves you, she'd probably be happy to know you like her." My heart is pounding in my chest. I'd have to think about it.

I just nod and walk away from them, heading back to the tents, when I've made my way up to her tent I peek my head inside. I slowly inhale then exhale when I see her sitting in a small ball with her forehead on her knees. It seems that she's fallen asleep. I try to relax so my heart isn't pounding so hard. I decide to crawl inside, zipping the door closed. She looks up startled, then she looks relieved that it's me, who did she think I was? Those girls, or who? "Jungkook." She says softly, the words that she said in the shower runs in my head.

"Are you okay?" I ask, crawling up to her, sitting next to her. She slowly nods, "Did they do something else to you?" I ask, she shakes her head. She sets her chin on her knee and stares forward. I stare at her for a few seconds, she looks sad. Her hair still damp and her bangs are just thick strands of hair. I take a chance and sit closer to her, she doesn't even react, I pull her against me, she looks at me startled. I drape her legs over mine and I wrap my arms around her. For a second she was stiff, then she loosened up and hugged me back.

I feel her shivering. Did she take a cold shower? I try to steady my breathing. A while after she stops shivering and her arms loosen around me. I move my head to look at her face, she fell asleep. She must have been really tired. I'm left staring at her, she slightly shifts her face against my chest. I listen to her light breaths, her face looks so peaceful. I press my lips against her head before I set my nose on her hair. She smells like some sort of fruit that I can't quite put my finger on.

Passion? Kiwi? I shut my eyes. Why can't I tell her? Just earlier today she told me we should be friends, but I don't think I want that. I can sort of figure that she said that because of my feelings for Jennie. I let her sleep as long as she needs, I could sit here all night. Maybe I'm enjoying this too much. I stare down at her face, I lick my lip as I stare at her light pink lips.

I tilt my head using my shoulder for support as I look at her face. I see her shift and I pick up my head so I don't look like a creep staring at her, she looks at me. "I'm sorry." She says. I shake my head, "It's okay." I tell her. Her eyes barely look at me before she unwraps her arms from me and looks down. I still have my arms around her, "Lalisa.." I start. She looks at me, waiting for me to say something.

Say it Jungkook, stop being scared. My heart is pounding and I feel my hands become clammy. She blinks a couple of times before slowly looking away from me. "Want to walk on the beach.... with me?" I finally ask, though it wasn't what I've been meaning to say. She nods and we exit the tent together. Many people see, awe man. I already hear whispers, this is going to be some drama.. if it hasn't been already on this trip.

**

After breakfast, Taehyung and I decide to take showers and go for a hike after. I'm about to go to the shower when Chaeyoung walks up to me. "Jennie, as your friend. I'm telling you nicely to stop the rumors." She tells me. I tilt my head and look at her, "What rumors?" I ask her. "Jennie, just stop. Your causing an innocent person to get hurt." She says. I raise an eyebrow, "I have no idea what you're talking about." I say.

"Jennie, you know exactly what you've done. Jimin and I were in the cafeteria when you said the damn thing." I throw my backpack over my shoulder and pop out my hip. "Is that so? So now you're best friends with the blonde and you're so blinded by her lies that you're over here attacking me like she did?" I ask. "No, you have everyone else blinded by your lies. You're manipulating everyone to make her seem like the bad guy, when it's you." She says.

"You're so unsophisticated." I tell her. "Unsophisticated!? No I'm not, you know Jennie, I always knew you were self centered and naïve, but I never thought you were this cruel." I roll my eyes. "She's only getting what she deserves." I say. "So its a lie!" She rebuttals. "So what if it is or it isn't?" I ask. "Own up Jennie, what? You don't want to ruin your reputation of being the victim of everything. Like how you're supposably the victim of Jungkook's confession, when really it's him. Just because Lalisa is getting all the attention you crave, doesn't mean you hurt her. She's done nothing to you." I slightly grin.

"Sweet." Is all I say before I turn and head to the showers. "Jennie, you wouldn't lie to me, right?" I stiffen and stop in my tracks. "Tell me the truth behind this rumor." I turn to him. "Taehyung, what's said is done.", "No, it's not. You can take it back." He says. "You think it's so simple." I lightly shake my head. "Why isn't it simple?" He asks. "Because I have a reputation to withhold, Taehyung.", "Oh, don't give me that bull. You know that doesn't matter in high school." I look away from him, "It does to me."

"Jennie, that's grade school drama. Don't let that define who you are, so everything that girl said back there was true. You lied.", "Drop it Taehyung." I'm about to walk away when he grabs my wrist. "No, you tell me right now.", "There's nothing to say." He turns me around. "You know what? You don't have to say anything because everything matches up well." He says. My eyebrows knit. "Everything matches up?" I ask.

"Yeah, the whole.. you and that kid thing. You see him being nice to the blonde, you hear all the rumors and you want everyone to forget about the latest couple, so you make up your own rumors.", "Taehyung, stop." I use my arms to pull his arms off me. "Just tell everyone that it was a lie." He says, now wrapping his arms around me. I set my hands on his chest, pushing. "Why do you care?" I ask. "Because, I don't want my girlfriend to be known as an attention seeker." I grip his shirt and stop all my movement.

I'm not budging, I'm going to stand my ground. "Baby.. please." He whispers. We've caught the attention of many people, but it seemed to me that they were all talking about something else. "What I said is true, stop trying to make me look like a fool." I growl at him. He let's go of me. "Fine." Is all he says. I don't understand why all of a sudden he cares about the blonde and what people do to her. Why is everyone all of a sudden caring about her? She's a nobody.

**

I'm determined to figure this out, I want to know what really happened. I run off after the girl that was talking to Jennie before, "Hey." I say. She turns and looks at me. "Do you happen to know where the.. um.", "Lalisa? She's not just a blonde you know, you shouldn't call her that." She tells me. "It's like you calling me a ginger when really I'm not, it's just chemicals." She says, I slightly nod my head.

"Do you know where she's at?" I ask, "Look, if you're trying to figure out if Jennie is telling the truth or not, you don't have to go and ask Lalisa for the answer. Jennie is lying." She tells me, "How do you know?" I ask. She stares at me and before she can answer a short boy comes up to her. He looks familiar. He's that mochi boy that was talking to the kid about me the first time we met. Yeah, I remember him. I just don't know his name.

"Is something going on here?" He asks. She looks at me, grabbing the boys freakishly small girl hands. "No." She says before taking him away from me. So Lalisa isn't all the horrible things that Jennie has said. All my thoughts are right. "Omg, did you hear that Jungkook and Lalisa came out of the same tent together? Do you think they hooked up?" I hear people saying. I look around. "Seriously? They wouldn't do it on a school trip, would they?", "They're a new couple, of course they'd do it." I roll my eyes, again with the sex.

Rumors after rumors are happening this weekend. I don't know whether to tell people about Jennie's lie or not. Maybe the rumor would just somehow dissolve.

**

We walk along the beach together, "It's nice, isn't it?" I ask. She slowly nods, "You're not sad about the sand thing, are you?" I ask her. She just shrugs. "Why aren't you talking to me?" I'm becoming a little impatient at the fact that she won't look at me. It's like she doesn't want to interact with me. Yes, I'm needy, sorry. "Because, I always end up saying something dumb." She finally says something.

"I've never heard you say something dumb." She let's out a breath. "And it seems if I even take a breath, I'm doing something wrong." She looks out to the sea, the sun is slowly going down. The sky is slowly turning a yellow scattered with other colors, but I could care less about the sky. "Don't say that." She shrugs and still doesn't look at me.

I bite my bottom lip before making a move. I look down at her hand and grab a hold of it. She stops in her tracks and I stop as well, still holding her hand. She doesn't hold mine back, her hand limp in my grasp. "Why are you doing this Jungkook?" She asks, still not looking at me, I'm starting to get tired of it. I like it when she looks at me. "Why am I doing what?" I ask. She yanks her hand away from mine and I'm stunned, I've never seen her this way.

She finally looks at me, tears brimming her waterline, "I really don't understand you." I stare at her, "A couple days ago, I heard you tell Jimin that you don't like me more than a friend." My heart stops, she heard. That makes so much sense now, why she was crying that day. Aye, so she wasn't on her period... or maybe she was.. So that means that I hurt her.. "Just yesterday morning when people were making more rumors about us, you got offensive about it." I have totally forgotten about that. "Then last night you kiss me, and you make me so confused because everything turns back to Jennie." She's right.

"And now you're treating me like this, the tent and holding my hand. I'm confused Jungkook." Her tears fall. "I really don't get you." She wipes her tears away, I've caused her pain. How could I do this to her? This is all my fault, because I didn't know what my heart wanted at the time. "I'm sorry." I tell her. She looks away from me and turns her body towards the ocean, wiping my tears. "Don't be, I sort of get why you love Jennie so much. She's practically a Barbie, everyone adores her." I take a step towards her.

Say something Jungkook, tell her how you feel. She doesn't deserve to feel sad anymore. She deserves to smile like she used to. I set my hand on her shoulder and turn her to face me, she lets me do so. Her eyes look into mine, her eyelashes damp from the tears she shouldn't be crying. I caress her face with my hand, using my thumb to wipe away moisturizer from her pink cheeks. Her eyebrows knit a bit, "Now you're not answering me." She whispers.

"Because I'm looking at your face.", "I know I'm not much to look at, compared to Jennie. She's so-", "Don't you dare compare yourself to Jennie." She looks a bit shocked when I cut her off. "Cause you're far from what Jennie is like." Before she can compare herself anymore, "You're much better." I say quietly, only for our ears and the ocean to hear. She stares at me, even shocked than before. "What are you saying Jungkook?" She hasn't moved out of my touch.

"I'm saying that I like you." I finally admit it. Her eyes stare. "I think I've always liked you, just the ugly spell of another love that I thought I had, was blinding me from the girl in front of me." I move her hair behind her ear, she's still in shock. "You're always there for me, you make me feel better and you make my heart pound.. just like this." I gently grab her hand and set it on my chest, it's pounding harder than ever, I think I might have a breathing problem.

Her eyes look at her hand that touches my chest. I stretch my fingers over hers that are on my chest. "I didn't make a mistake kissing you at the bonfire, because I wanted you to kiss me at the bench." I step closer to her and she looks up at me, those eyes seem to sparkle. "And I want to kiss you very much, right now." I whisper. Her eyes soften, she looks at my lips then at my eyes. When I slightly lean in and she slowly closes her eyes, I then feel her other hand touch the back of my neck.

This is happening, again. I hold her hand on my chest, raising my other hand to touch her face again. Finally leaning in all the way to press my lips again hers. And it was like we began to learn together, slowly and gently. I feel her fingers slowly run into my hair, making my toes want to break out of my shoes and curl into the sand I stand on. My fingers tangled in her hair, we took it slow. Never fast, this was our second time kissing. We don't know much about how our body's react to each other, so far, I'd like to say pretty good.

I slightly open my eyes and her eyes are shut, I close my eyes. We only kiss for a few seconds more, before we pull away from each other. She keeps her head down, and I can't keep my eyes off her. Her face is pink, her hands now tightly grasped together in front of her. I find myself smiling, "You don't like me?" I ask, though I know she feels way more than that for me. She looks up at me, "How do I know this is real?" She asks. I can't stop smiling.

"I'm standing right in front of you, telling you that I like you. I think that's as real as it's gonna get." I say, she slowly begins to smile. She smacks her hands on her cheeks and looks out to the sea again, "Gosh... I'm smiling like an idiot and blushing like a bigger idiot." I chuckle and take one of her hands and I hold it in mine. "Don't say that, cause I'm smiling and blushing too." It seemed that my cheeks were hot enough to roast a marshmallow over them. "I like you Jungkook, a lot." She says, not even looking at me.

"I want to see your face." I whisper. She instantly looks at me, "I like you a lot, Jungkook." She says. Okay, we're both smiling like idiots. I turn and look at the beach ahead of us, I pull her hand and we continue on our walk down the beach. I guess this trip did work out after all, I'm a different Jungkook. And I'm happy about it.

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I was really debating on whether or not to have the last Jungkook POV like that where he confesses, cause I had planned for that to be in another update. But it just kind of flowed well, and I don't think you guys are complaining. Cause honestly, this was way cuter than the other way I planned. Yaaas. Lizkook, the ship has sailed.

Thank you to all the people who actually read this book.

Love you all!
-A