After singing the song for Lalisa, I've been so confused. Actually, ever since I've confessed to Jennie I've been confused. I wanted to confront Lalisa about what happened a little while ago, I think that would make me feel better. But all of the teachers have so many activities going on when we arrive at the campground, that I don't have an opportunity to ask and I pretty much forget about it.

Night falls and the male teachers try to start a fire so we can all make s'mores. Lalisa doesn't sit next to me, and I feel alone. She sits in front of me, on the other side of the bonfire circle. I stare at her, trying to figure everything out, the bench incident has invaded my brain again.

She looks uncomfortable, her arms crossed on her lap and they're close to her body. Her legs shut together and she just stares at the empty fire pit, watching the teachers trying to light the campfire. I have to talk to her about it, if I don't it will bother me all night. I stand up and I right away catch her attention. I steal the spot next to her and she doesn't look so stiff anymore.

"Today was fun, don't you think?" I ask, "Yeah." She answers simply. I pinch the palm of my hand to force myself to say it. "You know, today at the bench, I-", "Don't even think about that." She says, now looking at the fire both teachers were finally able start. I stare at her, "Why not?" slips out, she looks at me a bit surprised. "Because I said so." She tells me, quickly looking away for me and at the fire again that gave her face a shadow that made her features look innocent.

"That's not even an answer." , "Drop it." She whispers. I'm left staring at her face, more confused than ever. Did I want to kiss her at the bench? Did you want to kiss me? I force my gaze to the fire, I don't like when Lalisa doesn't tell me what she's thinking, because it makes me wonder a lot of things.

**

My blood begins to boil, I want to walk over to him and make him stop staring at her. He should be staring at me, he loves me, not her. And look at the way she's treating him, what a little dog. "You want a s'more? I'll make you one." I hear a deep voice in my ear, I smile and look at him. "Yeah." I say.

He leans forward and I throw my head back, laughing as is set my hands on his shoulders. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me against him. "Taehyung, there's other people here." I whisper finally looking at him and smiling. "Fine." he whispers. "But I expect a good nights kiss." He raises an eyebrow with a smirk on his face. "Okay, now make me a s'more." I squish his face with my hands. He laughs and we let go of each other.

He makes me a s'more and my eyes draw away from Taehyung burning the marshmallow, already, to Jungkook and Lalisa. Ugh, they just sit there... wait. Did he just scoot closer to her? I bite my lip and roll my eyes, whatever. I don't care anyways. Taehyung hands me the s'more and I take it instantly. "I burnt the marshmallow a bit." He blushes. I laugh, "I saw that." I tell him. I take a bite of it, and it doesn't taste half bad. "It isn't too unbearable, is it?" He asks.

I shake my head and he grins. I wrap one arm around his bicep and lean my head against his shoulder as I eat the s'more he made me. I shouldn't waste thoughts on some boy who I don't like, he's just like a brother.

**

I feel him scoot closer to me, why is he making me so confused? Does he like Jennie or not? "So you want me to teach you the song I sang to you today?" He asks me. I turn and look at him, "Just play it again for me." I tell him. He grins. He shifts in his seat, once again, his knee is pressed against mine. I tried my best to scoot my knee away from his.

I honestly don't know what he's trying to pull here, ever since he confessed to Jennie my feelings for him have been flip flopping. I'm unsure what I should be feeling. He gets a lot of people's attention, okay, maybe it was a bad idea to ask him to sing to me again. Now people are really going to say things about us being a couple. And as expected, I hear the whispers beginning.

"Oh, how romantic, he's playing her an English song." I hear a girl squeal. "Why do I find him really cute now?", "They better be together or I'll cry.","I know right? They're adorable.", "Oh my gosh, do you think they've kissed yet?" Many more questions and comments fill the atmosphere, but I force them out of my head. Soon everyone was listening and it was dead silent, I'm scared that everyone could hear my heart pounding. Maybe even him.

Literally, the only sound that was in the air, was the peaceful tune of the fire crackling and the melody of the angry ocean in the distance, crashing against rocks. It was like the background music to his guitar playing. His beautiful voice was music to everyone's ears, I can't fight but be fully engaged in him. It's something that comes naturally, it was like the bench incident. He sang with a smile on his face and only looked at me, like I was the only one here. My face heats up, and I know he sees. The corner of his lips curling into the huge bunny smile.

I slowly turn my face away from him, embarrassed and I rub my cheek with my shoulder as if attempting to rub my blushing cheeks away, but I'm just hiding the fact that I'm blushing extremely hard right now. I catch a glimpse of Jennie on the other side of the bonfire circle. The fire makes her look angry, I can see the fire reflecting in her eyes and I see the hate she has for me. I seem to not understand anything nowadays, for the past few months that I've lived here in Korea everything has been so confusing.

I forced myself to look back at him, I'd rather look at him than at her, as she stares into my soul. I'm quickly hypnotized by his gaze, and it's as if this song could last an eternity. I honestly wouldn't mind, his eyes ever so lit from the fire, making them look sparkly or even glossy. Sadly, the song comes to an end, and when it does everyone is cheering extremely loud. He looks around very surprised.

As if he hadn't expected anyone to be listening but me, did he think I was the only one listening? Or did he not care? Many people start to comment on how beautiful he sings, and how beautiful the song was, or how great he plays the guitar. I just sat there looking down at my knees, I had failed to keep them away from him.

And I see that through all this commotion, he still had his against mine. I'm unsure if I am reading signs correctly, am I not supposed to be as confused as I am right now? Is he giving me signs that are ever so obvious, that I haven't picked up on them at all? I need to know, but I'm much too scared to ask or even say. I just don't want him to hurt with my heart, just because he doesn't know what he wants.

**

I have to hand it to the kid, he's very talented in singing. I mean, I can play the saxophone but I can't play the guitar. Everyone's always so into boys who play guitars. Not that I have any other girls to be impressing except for mine, but that would be nice to be able to play her a song. Especially if it's in English song.

It may not mean a lot to people who know English, but when a boy sings to a girl in a other language it usually means something deeper than what she may think it means. I know ...it's a bit confusing. I can already hear the girls drooling on their shoes, Korean girls nowadays find it really romantic when us Korean boys can sing English songs. Even if most the time they can't even understand it, just the fact that it's English makes it 10 times as romantic.

I see everyone basically huddling around him, I can hear all the nice comments they are telling him about his voice, the song, and how he plays his guitar. My eyes shift to his friend that's sitting next to him, a.k.a. the girl he was saying to. Why does she look so sad? Did she not want him to sing to her?

Well, the more that I think about it I can understand how all the comments can really get to you. I mean, I can understand, I just can't relate. I've honestly heard a lot of rumors about the kid and this blonde dating, going around school lately. Even on the bus, which explains a lot as to why Jennie's friend was talking to her about it. Finally all the commotion dies down and everyone is back in the seats enjoying the heat of the fire that's keeping them warm from the cool sea breeze.

"Okay students, it's about time for lights out. Tomorrow you can have a free day to relax and enjoy the beach if you'd like, there are also hiking trails around here. Remember to go in groups of two or more, never go alone. Mrs. Treng, Mr. Fu and I will be checking tents in about 20 minutes. Please leave to your rightful tent at this instant, sleep well students you have a big day tomorrow." Mr. Le announces.

I stand up and take Jennie's hand, I can't let her walk to her tent alone. And plus, I was promised a good night kiss. "What do you want to do tomorrow?" I ask her. She looks up at me, and the moonlight makes her eyes sparkle. "Whatever you'd like to do." She smiles. "No really, tell me what you want to do, we'll do anything." She just shrugs that my words and says nothing else.

I'm sure we can find something to do. She holds both my hands as we stand in front of her tent. "Well, this is me." She says chuckling bit. I can't stop myself from smiling, "So about my good night kiss." I start. She throws her head back and laughs. When she looks at me her features seem to soften, she takes a step closer to me and she sets one of her hands on my cheek and sets the other on my chest.

I gently wrap my arms around her small body, I dare not to hurt her in anyway. I set my hands softly on the small of her back, and wait for her to make the first move. And it's as if she has read my mind, she slowly leans into me. I lower my head and meet her half way, pressing my lips against hers. My heart pounds so much for this girl, I love that she's demanding and she knows what she wants. And I love that she loves me. The kiss lasts a few seconds.

I savor her sweet taste as I pull away, followed by a kiss on her cheek. "Good night my sweet Jennie." I whisper. She wraps her arms around my body. "Good night my prince.." She whispers. We pull away and she heads into her tent. I smile and let out a breath, I turn and I'm not surprised to see that kid and the blonde still at the bonfire. They're alone and no one will disturb them or over hear. I quickly run over to the other side of the lot and go to my tent.

**

I wait until everyone leaves, including the teachers. She stands up and I grab her wrist, also standing up. It was a bit dark due to the lack of light, since the fire has been put out, but I could still see her porcelain skin and glossy eyes thanks to the moonlight. "I didn't think people would care." I start. "It's okay, I think everyone enjoyed it, cause I sure did.. even if it was the second time." She grins.

"Lalisa, I know you've been feeling uncomfortable lately since the bench incident. And I don't want that." Her eyes slowly fall from me. I can only really see her hair that's in a ponytail and the side of her face, none of her features. "I'm your friend and you can tell me anything because I'll listen, I promise." I tell her. "I told you to forget about it." She whispers but I can hear her clearly.

"No, I'm not going to." I tell her, she looks at me instantly. Her cheeks are pink, like when I was singing to her in front of our whole graduating class or even at the bench. And it had just occurred to me that I also sang to Lalisa in front of Jennie. "I'm not leaving until you tell me, I want both of us to sleep well tonight." I loosen my grip on her wrist, I hadn't even noticed I was grabbing it so tight. "Did you want to ki-", I'm about to ask when she cuts me off.

"People freeze when unexpected events happen such as what happened today.", "Why are you avoiding me?" I ask. "Did you want to kiss me?" She asks out of no where and I'm stunned. "You're throwing so many questions at me, now you answer." She says. "You don't answer any of mine." I rebuttal, a little nervous to answer her. "You answer mine and I'll answer yours." I can't find the strength to let go of her wrist, I use my other hand to move my guitar into a better position on my back.

"Are you going to answer me? Or-" I cut her off with my lips, I guess this is what happens when you follow your body. I raise my hand and caress her cheek, I don't even know how to kiss. This is my first kiss. My heart is racing and I'm afraid she'll push me away, but she doesn't. I drop my hand from her wrist to her hand, and I hold it gently. I feel her fingers wrap around mind, her grip is tight. My fingers curl under her ear and into her soft hair. We kiss for only a few seconds.

I force myself to pull away, softly dropping my hand from her face, I instantly open my eyes to look at her reaction. This feeling in my chest is unexplainable, I've never felt this way. She slowly opens her eyes, looking up at me. Her cheeks pinker than before and her lips parted. Her face seems brighter though... if that even makes sense. "Does that answer your question?" I somehow ask. She slightly nods, I grin.

"Too shy to talk now?" I ask. "I'm not shy, I'm confused." I raise an eyebrow, my grin going away. "Why are you confused?" I ask. She pulls her hand away from mine and I'm disappointed. "What do you mean, why am I confused? You tell me since we started being friends that you're in love with Jennie and now you kiss me? I don't understand." Oh, right.. Jennie. My eyebrows knit and I stare beyond her face.

"You obviously need some time." She steps away from me. "You're confused by your own feelings." She tells me. "Good night Jungkook." She says turning and walking away from me, I don't follow her. She's right, I'm confused by my own feelings. I stand by myself for a while before I remember about the lights out check up. I quickly run to my tent and get in, Taehyung is asleep. I quickly change into my pajamas and get into my sleeping bag.

As I lay there, my fingers lift to touch my bottom lip and a grin slowly grows back onto my face. Soon I'm smiling like a mad man, my first kiss. No matter how hard I try to stop smiling, I simply can't.. then my mind starts to jumble as I barely remember about Jennie being here. I guess being in this tent with her boyfriend kind of forced me on that thought. I really have to find answers for myself.

**

I can't believe I talked to him like that, this is possibly going to ruin our friendship when he realizes that he's made a mistake kissing me. I know my limitations, I knew kissing him at the bench would change everything. That's why I was so surprised when he kissed me, this is what I feared. He doesn't know what he wants, but I sure know... he sure as hell doesn't want me.

It was possibly just something he wanted to get out of the way, not a lot of people want to be known for not kissing someone yet. I guess I don't have to worry about that anymore. Jungkook took my first kiss, and I'm happy then not happy about it. I believe at this point Jungkook and I are on the same level of confusion. He's confused about what he wants, I'm confused about how I should feel.

I walk up to the tent and when I open it and peak my head through the tent door, she's already asleep with a sleeping mask on. I quickly get into the tent and grab my pajamas including bathroom essentials, before heading out to the bathrooms to I change into my night wear and to wash my face and teeth. I look at myself in the mirror, I slowly tilt my head and stare at my face. Honestly, what would he see in me? I'm just a friend to him, not only that.. his best friend.

I quickly gather my things and head back to the tent where I enter quietly and fix my sleeping bag to sleep in. As I lay on the ground, I stare up at the thin cloth of the tent ceiling. I slowly begin to smile, my crush Jungkook was my first kiss. Wow.. did I just admit to calling him that? Yeah.. I think I did.

**

•Next morning•

I exit my tent, stretching, wow, sleeping on the floor is really uncomfortable. I wonder how the cowboys did it back in the day.. I quickly grab my things and head to the bathroom, it's empty, for now. I do my morning routine and head back to my tent, changing into my day clothes while Taehyung is still asleep.

I step out of my tent again. I'm anxious to see Lalisa today, I've done a lot of thinking and I know what I want now, I want- "Hi Kookie." My heart instantly stops. "Jennie." I look at her, I know she's here for Taehyung.

"I haven't talked to you in a while, I miss you." She pouts. I stare at her in disbelief. She pulls me into a hug and I don't know whether to hug her back or not, is that against the rules? Wait, what rules am I talking about? "I miss you too.." I say as I smile and hug her back. "Let's just forget this never happened, okay?" She says, is she referring to me loving her?

"About me being in lo-", "Yes, let's just forget about it and you can be my best friend again." She smiles. Wait but.. I already have a best friend, I can't even answer because Taehyung walks out of the tent. He pats my shoulder and takes her hand as they walk away to the bathrooms. I stare at the spot she was standing in, confused as ever now. I bite my lip, what was I saying before?

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This LizKook moment is by far my favorite, I mean.. all of them are good. But just imagining them kissing in the dark, only the light of the moon, Jungkook's guitar on his back, they're holding hands, is really cute I think. Idk, that's just what I think.

I originally had another chapter that Lalisa and Jungkook kiss but it somehow got deleted by wattpad but it's fine because I liked this one better.

Hope you all enjoyed this chapter cause I sure did hahaha, I really see this one as a pure drama since Smut will be nonexistent in this book.

Love you all,
-A