He stares at me with that look on his face, I can see it in his eyes that something is wrong. Just like the day we saw that play, it's in his eyes again, it makes me wonder what happened now. "I told her." He says simply. I stare at him in disbelief.

"You told her you love her?" I ask, though he just said he did, sort of. He nods. "She told me to stay away from her, she thinks I'm crazy or something.. because I don't know what love is." He says, breaking my heart. I frown and sit next to him on the couch in his room. His eyes water, "I don't want to lose her, Lalisa." Is that really what I want to hear? For the past few days I've been second thinking my feelings for Jungkook.

I sometimes experience this weird heart beat in my chest when he's around. I guess everything changed that day I was upset and he wouldn't let me leave until I felt a little better. But I know feelings like mine would ruin our friendship, because he's obviously into Jennie. I'm just his friend, so that's exactly what I'm going to be. If he wants her so bad, I'll help him get her back. Though he never really had her.

"And you won't, because I'll help you get her." I smile. His face changes, he's happy. "Really?" He asks, I nod quickly. "Yes, I'll help you. You're my friend and I want you to be happy." I explain. He then frowns, "I know she's with Taehyung, she won't leave him for me." No, I don't like seeing him sad.

"How about, you just let it be? Girls start to notice when you stop caring." I tell him. "Seriously?" He asks. I nod. He bites his lip, "Do you think it will work?" Now that, I'm not sure. Jennie is a whole other type of girl. "I'm not sure." I confess. "Now thinking about it, Jennie might think it's a good think you're away from her, like she asked. But if you continue to bother her, she'll get annoyed." I explain.

He stares off into space. "So there's no way I can win, then." I tilt my head. "There might be, we just have to figure it out." I tell him. He slowly nods.

**

Ugh, he's so stupid. I still can't get his stupid voice out of my head. Of course I'm still in shock, he told me he loves me. He doesn't know what love is. I honestly thought he liked that blonde girl he's always hanging out with.

I still don't understand why everyone likes her so much, she's not even all that. It's honestly annoying when I hear boys in the hallway talking about her, like she's some sort of pretty girl.

"Jennie." I hear a deep voice, I turn to him. "What?" I ask. His eyebrows go up. "Are you okay?" He asks. I shake my shoulders, "Of course, I'm okay. What makes you think other wise?" I ask. He stares at me. "We've been sitting here for the past twenty minutes, and you haven't ordered what you want to eat. You just sat there, gripping your menu really hard." I look down at the menu in my hands. I laugh, "No, it's nothing. Really. Nothing to worry about." I say.

He stares at me for a while before looking back down at his menu. "Okay, but I still don't believe you." I become worried. "Let me guess.. has to do with that kid." I bite my lip. "What'd he do?" He asks, setting down his menu pretty hard. "He didn't do anything." I lie.

"No, it's something, I see it in your eyes. Tell me, now." I'm surprised, he's being really demanding. "He confessed to me." I say quickly, he laughs. "Seriously? Didn't think he'd have the guts to do it. Ha." I become confused, "What? You knew that he liked me?" I ask. He nods, "You didn't? That kid was so obvious, I thought that you'd figure it out in the snap of a finger."

He leans back in his chair, "That's what I meant about you being clueless about some people." It all makes sense now. "Do you think he's using that blonde to get over me?" I ask. He shakes his head, "They're just friends." He says. I raise an eyebrow. "How do you know?" I ask. He grins, "See? You're clueless." I cross my arms over my chest.

"Gosh, you're so rude. Just tell me." I whine, he smiles. "He doesn't look at her the way he looks at you." I smile, I like things being about me. And he'll always love me because... I mean.. why wouldn't someone love me? I'm adorable.

"But I won't allow him to like you for long, you're mine." I grin, "You don't have to worry about that Tae, I'm all yours." I reach my hand across the table, he holds mine in his. "Okay love birds, what'll it be?" The waitress asks, making me blush.

**

"You don't always have to walk me home, you know." She says. I smile, "No, I insist. I don't like you walking home alone." I say, she grins. I'm honestly grateful about having such a caring friend like Lalisa, she's different. A good different. She actually cares about my feelings, unlike Jennie when we were friends.

But of course I don't want to be just friends with her, I want Jennie to be with me. It would be a dream come true, to have her in my arms and hold her. Hopefully it will happen since Lalisa said she'd help me get Jennie. "You don't have to worry about me, I can fend for myself." She says, taking me out of my thoughts about Jennie.

She lightly pushes my shoulder. "Yeah right, Lalisa. Someone can easily pick you up like a stick, you're tiny." I tell her. Her jaw drops and she sets her hands on her hips. "I am not a stick and I'm not tiny." She whines. I laugh, "Yes, you are." I nod. She shakes her head, her bangs going up with the wind before falling back down and she fixes them with her fingers.

I walk up to her and easily pick her up. "Jungkook! Stop!" She laughs. I smile and set her down, "See, a stick." She frowns and crosses her arms over her chest. "Fine.. I guess I'm a stick." She shrugs and laughs. "Well, make sure to get a good nights rest Jungkook. Don't think about it too much, okay? I promise that I'll try to have her like you." She says.

"We can talk about it another day." I tell her, she nods. "You sleep good, as well." I smile at her, she walks up to her door and waves to me before disappearing inside. I grin to myself and head back home.

**

• At School the next day•
-Gym Class-

I put on my physical education uniform and look around for Jennie, I have her for this class and she's always with her friends. This is the only class I have her for, the school finds it more effective if girls are separated from the boys. For other reasons as well, lifting of the skirts and students going "missing".

"Looking for something? Blonde." I turn and see Jennie, I smile. Ignoring her attempted insult. Think of how happy Jungkook would be to have Jennie all for himself. "Hi Jennie." I greet. She looks down at me with a growl on her lips, does she not like me? "What do you want?" She asks, emphasizing 'you'. "I wanted to talk to you about-", "Jungkook? Ha, get out of here with that junk. Fat chance that we'd ever end up together."

She rolls her eyes, I failed to mention, everyone is watching. I part my lips to speak. "He's just a little lost puppy without me, so good luck with him. Get him off my back, why don't you? All this weight on my shoulders, makes it a little hard for me to concentrate on my studies." She whines. "You're so rude!" I yell at her, making her raise an eyebrow. "Is that so? You're going to stand up for him, now? Who are you to him? You're just the new girl, you're just as much of a leech as he is."

I try not to let her words get to me, "Yes, I'm going to stand up for him because he's my friend. I care about him like anyone should care about a friend, I'm surprised he survived having you as a friend. You're so over dramatic and conceited, he deserves so much more than loving a person like you." I stand up for Jungkook and I.

Many whispers go off in the locker room like; "I knew he liked her", "No, love. He loves her.", "I see why, she's so perfect." ,"Wait... who's this blonde girl?"

Jennie gasps and sets her hand on her chest. "How dare you?! I'd never put Kookie in such a position where he's sad or can't survive! You disgust me, what exactly are you trying to do here? Jungkook just needs to grow up and find someone else who will actually like him back, because I'd feel weird dating someone whose like a brother to me. So please tell him that, maybe then he'd get the idea." She laughs.

I stare at her in disbelief, "You're so clueless." I shake my head. "You don't understand or even consider his feelings, that's so low of you. All he wants is to feel something for someone." My thoughts seem to drift off about how I feel about him, "Is it so wrong for him to have a strange heart beat in his chest when he looks at you? All this happiness that grows inside him when you speak to him?" She just stares at me.

"You mean so much to him, but you have feelings for someone else. And he has to see that?" I pause, getting myself back on track about how he feels about her, "Someone he's found to love, for almost five years, and you didn't even notice his affection for you. You're so blind by yourself in the mirror, or other people to even acknowledge someone who is willing to love everything about you." I stare at her long and hard, envied about how he feels for her.

How he's expressed himself to me about her, is every girls dream to have. "You've ruined a good heart." I finish before walking out of the locker room, my insides feel like mush, and I feel good because I've made my point to her. But why are my eyes watering?

**

I stare at the crowd before me who are also speechless, "What!? Get out of my face!" I yell as I walk back to my locker. I lean against all the other gym lockers and become confused. That's all I ever am when it comes to Jungkook, he's just a little boy who doesn't know anything. I roll my eyes and shake everything off, the hell with her, she doesn't know anything about Jungkook.

I walk up to a body mirror and check myself out, I smile to at my reflection and walk out of the gym. I don't have to be worried about people who aren't anything to me. That blonde needs to mind her own business, before one of us does something we'll regret.

**

Jimin and I are in the canteen, passing period is pretty long since or physical teacher let out out early. I've just explained to him about my confession to Jennie, and I'm sure you can guess.. he's not happy about it.

He smacks his forehead, "Oh my gosh.. Jungkook." I just sit quietly, I expected this. "Why?.... Just.. why would you do that? Do you ever listen to anything I say?" He asks. I bite my lip as I stare down at the floor. "I told you something would happen, and it happened didn't it?" He asks, I nod in response. "You know what?" He lets out a breath. "I'm not going to crap on you all day, okay?"

"What even happened after?" He asks. "Mmm, Lalisa came over unexpectedly." I say. A smile grows on his face. "What?" He just lightly chuckles. "What? What? Tell me?" I become impatient. "Isn't it obvious?" He asks. I stare at him, hoping he'd just tell me already. He rolls his eyes, "You and Jennie are just the same. So clueless to everything." He says.

I really want to know now. "Tell me, please?" I ask. "What happened after?" He doesn't even tell me what he has on his mind. "She ate dinner with us, we talked in my room until I walked her home." I tell him. "What did she say?", "What's this all about? I'm really confused." He raises an eyebrow at me. "Look, Jungkook, I need you to just tell me everything before I figure out if what I'm thinking is true." I really don't see where this is going, but I guess.

"She told me she'd help get Jennie for-", "Ah ha! I knew I was right." He exclaims. "Jimin, please tell me." I whine, I'm becoming fed up with his choice to make me wait. "Jungkook, what girl would help a guy be with another girl?" He asks me, my eyebrows knit. "A friend." I answer instantly.

"Wow, you're doing what Jennie did to you. You're doing it to Lalisa." I instantly get what he's talking about, being that I've been in this situation for years. "Are you saying that Lalisa might like me?" I ask, but that's outrageous. Lalisa is like my best friend, why would she like me? I'm not anyone special, which is probably why Jennie will never like me.

"I'm not saying she might like you, I'm telling you that she does like you. She likes you in this moment, in this time." He says, I stare at him in disbelief. "N-No, that's not possible. It can't be, I really don't-", "Jennie alert, you're being a Jennie." He says. I stare at him, a bit upset. "So you're using her as an insult now?" I ask, "Look Jungkook, you've been reading everything wrong now a days, I think that it's best that you listen to me." I let out a breath.

"Drop Jennie and go for Lalisa." I'm shocked, honestly. "Jimin, how could you say that? I've loved Jennie for so long, I can't just lose hope and turn my back on my feelings for her." He looks a bit concerned. "Jungkook, you're really hurting my ears right now. I honestly don't understand why you'd do such a thing. When is Jennie going to leave that Taehyung guy? Not to crap on your plate or anything, but a lot of girls drool over him. Just like guys drool over Jennie, they're the perfect match. So I don't see them breaking up anytime soon, and I don't see you in that picture."

"But I don't like-" I stop myself, do I like Lalisa? I stare down at the table confused as hell. I'm always smiling and laughing around her, when I'm with her I don't have one thought of Jennie. I'm myself around her, and we always have such a great time. I shake my head, no, I love Jennie. And that's who I plan on being with. The more I think about it, the more I realize Jimin is right. I'm being just like Jennie, I'm sorry.

I'm not doing this voluntarily, I'm following my heart. I know my heart is right. "So you do like her." I hear his annoying voice. "No, I don't." I tell him. "Ooooo, I'd say you do. You thought for a long time." I meet his little eyes, "I don't like Lalisa, okay? Drop it." I say getting up and walking away from our table.

**

I strongly believe that confronting Jennie about Jungkook, was a bad idea. The whole class period her friends harassed me. They'd 'accidentally' bump into me or trip me, doesn't help that we're playing basketball. What did I do wrong? I only made Jennie aware of how she made Jungkook feel after the confrontation as his house.

I'm only trying to be a good friend. As I put on my school uniform I look down at my burned knees from falling so much. I guess Jungkook is right, I am a stick. I let out a breath and grab my backpack and textbooks, lock my locker and try to leave the locker room as fast as I could. "Ah, look what we have here." I don't look up, I know who it is.

My books are smacked out of my hands, I squat down to pick them up, but they're kicked away from me. I bite my lip and stand up. "Look, I think your bag is too heavy." I feel a force yank on my backpack and I'm thrown on the floor, my butt is throbbing. I hear laughs and they walk away, I force back tears and walk over to my textbooks.

I grab them as fast as I could, and run out of the locker room. I walk down the hall and wipe my ugly tears. I've never been treated this way back in Thailand. I'm about to turn into the canteen to buy a water, when I see Jungkook and Jimin, I don't think it would be a good idea to see Jungkook right now. "I don't like Lalisa, okay? Drop it." He says, getting up from the table and walking in the opposite direction.

Before Jimin can see me, I turn around and head to the girls bathroom. I stand in front of the body mirror and look at my reflection, all the differences between Jennie and I are obvious. She's basically a perfect human being. I look at my face, my eyelashes wet from tears I shouldn't be crying. I wipe my eyes and force a smile, "Happy Lalisa." I say. I nod and walk out of the bathroom, running into a body.

"I'm sorry." I immediately apologize, "Lalisa." I hear his voice. My eyes widen, and water a bit. I stand up, smiling. "Jungkook-ah." I answer, I never call him that. His eyebrows knit. "Are you okay?" Oh no, he'll fight me to find out what's wrong. "I'm fine." He stares at me with those eyes. I find myself on the verge of tears. "Lalisa." He whispers. Say something you fool! Anything, to get him off your back about it.

"I got my period!" I yell, running away from him. Not that, gosh. I stop around the corner of the stairs and press my back against it. I don't know what I'm doing, I have next class with him. I can't avoid him forever, and I won't. Because I'm his friend, that's all I'll ever be.

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