HURTS LIKE HELL
CHAPTER THIRTY ONE
❝I DON'T WANT THEM TO KNOW THE SECRETS, I DON'T WANT THEM TO KNOW THE WAY I LOVED YOU, I DON'T THINK THEY'D UNDERSTAND IT, NO, I DON'T THINK THEY WOULD ACCEPT ME, NO.❞

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She remember the day they called. It was around five in the morning when the sound of her phone ringing woke her up. Rosé, who had just fell asleep three hours ago, groggily woke up thinking that it was her mother calling her on a schedule change. She was used to sudden changes in the shooting schedule, but all she wanted to do was to fall back asleep and ignore the growling in her stomach and the ache in her chest.

Rosé had spent the last night talking with Tom on how great his girlfriend is. It was difficult for her to act as though everything was alright, as if hearing how they met, their first kiss, and their first date is the best thing on Earth. She had to act like the cheerleader best friend who cheered and supported her best friend on everything he had accomplished.

She knew how important this was for Tom. He hasn't had the best luck when it came to girls or relationships or even crushes. What right did she have to tell him on who he can love?

He wasn't real, he couldn't be. There was no way that this guy right in front of her is almost the most perfect guy for her. And maybe she's blinded by the ray of light she placed on him, or how she blurred her own morals for his sake and his perspective. Rosé knew she wasn't thinking clearly, but she couldn't help it. She purposely blinded herself to see the best in him, knowing well enough that he hurts her, even if it isn't intentional. She couldn't see how bad he is for her.

"Hello?" she muttered into the phone. With her body still curled into the warm blankets of her bed and her head resting on the pillow she closed her eyes as she waited for the other person's response.

"Hello? Is this Cha Rosé on the line?" She recognized her native language immediately and her eyes shot open in confusion. Rosé sat up and grabbed her glasses off the nightstand before slipping them on to read the number on her screen. Written in bold was an unknown Korean phone number.

"Yes, yes, this is her," the Korean girl replied as she got up from her bed. She began pacing back and forth out of nervousness as her mind tried to rack up every possible reason on why she was getting an international call. She hasn't been back to her home country since she was fourteen and the only people from Korea who would call her are her grandparents. Did she do something illegal without even knowing?

"Hi, this is CJ E&M. We were wondering if we could talk to you about . . ."

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tomholland2013: when your best friend is debating between you and chris evans (it's been four hours and she still hasn't made a decision yet wtf is this friendship)
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username1: FIND ME A BEST FRIEND THAT HOT PLS

hazosterfield: i'm canceling both of you i feel so betrayed right now

username2: TOM OMG I LOVE YOU

misskelseyeast: hazosterfield i feel you man

username3: CINDY MOON??? 👀

username4: i would choose chris evans wtf why is it taking her so long

username5: username4 wrong answer i'd choose anthony mackie

username6: ^^^

chrisevans: i'm so offended that she didn't choose me like i even planned all our future dogs

username7: isn't she 16? that's illegal isn't it?

rosegoldcha: chrisevans I'M SORRY I WILL ALWAYS CHOOSE YOU

username8: okay but seriously petition for rose to stay away from the mcu cast she's so toxic

tomholland2013: username8 how is she toxic? she's literally the most amazing person ever and she has a cute dog named tofu

hazosterfield: username8 rosie is a great girl and i'm glad she's there with tom while i couldn't be there, but she's truly a wonderful girl and friend

rosegoldcha: hazosterfield i'm crying in the club you're complimenting me

username9: my faith in tom and rose is growing, my boy's finally getting romantic up in here

harryholland64: i'm proud that you put the right filter on this

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softtofu:
you just do
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fdimensions1996:
your sarcasm never surprises me
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that means this friendship is growing on you
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omg i'm crying in the club my favorite author called me their friend send help
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I ONLY KNOW ONE WAY OF STAN
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hey did you ever tell that guy you like about your feelings?
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fdimensions1996:
did it work out okay?
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softtofu:
i didn't tell him
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idk i don't think i want to ruin a friendship because of my stupid feelings
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fdimensions1996:
your feelings aren't stupid
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fdimensions1996:
is it bad that i'm glad you didn't tell him?
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he's missing out
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softtofu:
i have to go my brother's calling me
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but i'll call you later okay?
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i like you and i know i shouldn't
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fdimensions1996:
because if i like you i know that this will change everything
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A/N;

It's currently two in the morning, I have school in about six hours. Why am I still awake, who knows. I'm pretty sure my homework for first period isn't due tomorrow but Monday? Not sure, but let's hope so because I didn't finish it.

So I added the sticker Asians-In-Lit because I'm really proud of the fact that I'm writing a Tom Holland fanfic with a beautiful Women of Color.

Dedicated to peachiwonho for having one of the BEST usernames ever (quote me on this). And because she too has a Peter Parker fanfic with a WOC as the OC! So show love to that book as well!

Much Love Guys.

( written: august 25, 2017 )
( published: august 25, 2017)