CONGRATULATIONS
CHAPTER THIRTY EIGHT
❝CONGRATULATIONS YOU'RE UNBELIEVABLE, CONGRATULATIONS HOW COULD YOU DO THAT, LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED YOU BROKE MY HEART. YOUR SMILING FACE SHOWS THAT YOU'VE GOT OVER ME, YOU SAID LET'S TAKE A BREAK YEAH, YOU SAID LET'S THINK ABOUT US YEAH. YOU LOOKED INTO MY EYES AND MADE ME TRUST AND NOW WHAT, YOU'VE DONE THIS TO ME. LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED YOU BROKE MY HEART, YOUR SMILING FACE SHOWS THAT YOU DON'T CARE AND YOU LOOK HAPPY.❞

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rosie posey:
are you still in germany
delivered 5:34 PM

pretty boy seth:
yeah i'm sorry i was working so i couldn't reply back for the last few days
delivered 5:35 PM

pretty boy seth:
but what's up?
delivered 5:35 PM

pretty boy seth:
everything good on your end?
delivered 5:35 PM

rosie posey:
honestly no
delivered 5:35 PM

rosie posey:
i'm conflicted about something and i don't know what to do
delivered 5:36 PM

rosie posey:
and i need your help
delivered 5:36 PM

pretty boy seth:
what is it annie?
delivered 5:37 PM

rosie posey:
i want to try to move on from tom
delivered 5:37 PM

rosie posey:
i need to know if my feelings for him is this crush i've harbored since i was a kid or that i'm deluding myself into thinking that i like him because he's always been there for me
delivered 5:37 PM

rosie posey:
and if i'm right, i want to know if i can move on
delivered 5:37 PM

pretty boy seth:
but what if it turns out you really do like him?
delivered 5:38 PM

rosie posey:
i'm going to have to let him go either way
delivered 5:38 PM

rosie posey:
he has a fucking girlfriend seth
delivered 5:38 PM

rosie posey:
i'm a shitty person if i get in the way of that
delivered 5:38 PM

pretty boy seth:
so you're not going to tell him that you like him?
delivered 5:39 PM

rosie posey:
no
delivered 5:40 PM

rosie posey:
because it's going to change everything in our friendship and i don't want that to happen. he doesn't like me, i know that, so things are obviously going to change if i tell him. i don't expect him to like me back, there's no signs of him ever did so there's no chance of that ever happening. and even if he doesn't, for me to expect him to just drop camille and come running to me makes me a shady person. i can't do that to her.
delivered 5:40 PM

pretty boy seth:
if you really need to do this i'll help you
delivered 5:40 PM

pretty boy seth:
but are you sure you're not going to regret this?
delivered 5:41 PM

rosie posey:
he's not a bad guy, seth. but i think i deserve better than to wait around for nothing that's never going to happen. i deserve to move on and find happiness in something other than a guy, and that's what i want, to be happy without having that happiness be a specific person.
delivered 5:42 PM

pretty boy seth:
when do you want me to pick you up?
delivered 5:42 PM

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      Scarlett watched with careful eyes as the intern began packing up her things out of her trailer. She loved Rosé like a daughter, always thinking of the beautiful young lady as nothing more than a child of hers. When they first met she was a confident teenager who always spoke her mind which amused the actress and left a deep impression. And now years later Roseanne Cha has turned from a lanky teenager to Rosé Cha, a beautiful young woman who never lost touch of who she is.

      She and Lizzie remained in the trailer, spent most of their time talking when Rosé suddenly entered. She didn't say much or why she was here, but they ignored it thinking that it mustn't have been a big deal as she joined their conversation. But every once in awhile she'd exclude herself and turn her attention back on that phone of hers.

      "Where are you going, honey?" Scarlett asked as Rosé began buttoning her cardigan. The intern sheepishly looked up at the two who stared at her with amusement twinkling in their eyes. It was almost as if they knew what she was going to do, but wanted her to admit it herself. "Got a hot date with a German boyfriend?"

      "Not exactly," Rosé mumbled as she began fixing her lipstick. The pale pink smeared on the corner of her lips sticking out greatly. She cursed as she made it worse and only stopped when Lizzie approached her and gently told her look at her. The actress delicately fixed the makeup mishap with a q-tip. "I'm meeting up with a friend before he leaves for Sydney. And filming continues for a few more weeks, I have to stay with my mom for the editing process, and then I can go home."

      Scarlett huffed out a breath as she pointed her empty coffee cup at the intern. The actress shook her head, "You're definitely lying to me, it's so obvious. You forget that we're actresses, we lie for a living, and sweetie, no offense but you're doing a terrible job. So, wanna tell us the truth or should we weasel it out of you?"

      "I have a date thingy, I don't know if it's even a date, but I'm going to call it that to save myself of the humiliation that I am single woman," Rosé said proudly earning a whistle from Lizzie and a thumbs up from Scarlett. She then grabbed the purse off the couch and waved goodbye to the two mother-like actresses. "I'll text you all the hot details and if he pulled my chair out or not!"

      "Ooh, tell me if he tried to pay for the bill or not!"

      "Nah, I'm working for MARVEL now, I'm pretty balling so I'm going to treat him."

      "That's our girl!"

      Rosé greeted the other interns as she headed to the parking lot. The drive from the set to the hotel was about half an hour, not too bad of a distance, and she didn't mind driving. She waved goodbye to Sebastian and Anthony who had just arrived to the set, she waved goodbye to her mother's colleagues, and even greeted the catering lady who always gave her the extra brownies she had made.

      Her walking slowed down as she spotted the dreaded couple. Tom and Camille looked like they were having an intense conversation, the two looking rather serious than their usual act of cuteness and adoration for one another. Her chest tightened with pain as she stared at the two, wondering if she was the center of their problems. She couldn't bare to be the one to stand in between her best friend's happiness.

      Camille was far too nice for her own good which contrasted against Rosé's strong nature. It made Rosé almost weak at how she fell upon Camille's nice and gentle nature. But she's the opposite with her outgoing, loud personality who demanded attention everywhere she walked. The model wasn't the same with her shy, introverted personality that made everyone around her treat her with such delicacy.

      She couldn't tell Tom about her feelings, absolutely not. It wasn't morally right for her to tell him when he's in a relationship, she had to keep Camille's feelings in mind as well. Because this problem wasn't only involving herself and Tom, but his girlfriend who was actually in a relationship with him. It's not like a damn fanfic where the best friend has to dump his girlfriend now that his friend confessed her undying love for him. It wasn't fair or morally right for him to do so.

      Why is it that in the fanfics the authors never mention the other woman? The girl who got dumped for no apparent reason with no explanation given. Why can't we feel her pain like we feel the main character's? Why is it that we see the main character as this saint, but not the love rival. Why must we put women against one another just because of love?

      Camille was that girl, the girl in the fanfics Rosé would read, the other woman who readers loathe with a passion. Guilty enough she was like that, Rosé would hate the other woman for standing in the way of the main couple's relationship. But now it makes sense to her: why don't we hate the main character for standing in the way of a relationship that is already existing?

      "Camille is great for Tom," Rosé whispered to herself. She couldn't help but smile sadly as she climbed inside the rental car. Her eyes lingered on the sight of the two before she forced herself to back out of the parking lot and onto the open streets. And just like this story she had to exit cleanly without a mistake. She had no right to interfere with their relationship.

      There's no doubt that Tom loves Rosé, she knows that. But it's not the same love that she wants, it's a love that isn't burning passionately, but simply lit on the side to compliment the main flames at the center. 

      Leaving him, moving on from him will be painful, perhaps one of the most painful things she'll ever do. But she had every right to protect her own heart, she doesn't have to apologize for how she does it. Because at the end of the day she's looking after herself.

      She will be happy again one day, and though that day may not be today, that day isn't too far away.

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A/N;

I really liked this chapter? It's not the usual shit that I do with the crack!texts or the stupid little petty fights, but I really enjoy dabbling in poetic writing or angsty writing. I know it's not the same as the beginning of the book where it was all crack!texts and memes, but I did say that this book was gonna be angsty. I mean you'd have to have expect that when you read the summary.

Thank you for all that have nominated me! I hope you will continue to support me during the voting round!

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Much Love Guys.

( written: august 31, 2017 )
( published: august 31, 2017 )