I  forgot  how  to  write  anything
related to what I'm feeling lately.

Is this normal? Is this fine? Is this okay? I don't know. I bet it isn't. This is not me. I'm changing bit by bit. I don't know what to think of it, though. Should I be happy? Am I turning into someone who's nicer? better? happier? I don't know. Maybe I am. Maybe I'm not. God I am so confused right now. What is my purpose, then? Living, I think it's a nice thought until you realize the entirety of it. Responsibilities are bearable only when planned and thought wisely. But the thing is that, I don't know what I'm feeling right now. It's like a void waiting to suck what's left in my life force. How to feel? How to stop this endless void? I needed an emotion, please help me. What is this mindset? It's like I'm turning into someone who's ignorant enough to not know her own feelings. I am afraid. Truly terrified. What is this sadness, this darkness lurking in the distance?

I am turning into something-
someone who's too shattered
to   go   back   breathing  with
the  energy   of   life.   Why  is
this     happening      to      me?