This probably isn't something you're supposed to share but I'm me and I don't know the rules to society.

The other day I was wondering why I'm almost always talking to myself. Like when I'm alone in my room I just sort of whisper like someone else is there and I'm telling them a story.
I know that one reason is because I feel like I'm always being watched, so it makes sense. But I thought there would be something else, and I figured out what it might've been.

So basically when I was younger, like third or fourth grade, whenever I used to remember this one thing that happened at school I'd be imagining it and then at a certain point everyone's head would just fall off and it freaked me out so much.
I don't know what caused this to be in my brain but I couldn't think about that scene without imagining everyone's head falling off.
Sometimes I would remember it as I was trying to sleep and I was like, "I can't sleep with this in my head." So I'd have to constantly be making noise until I fell asleep or until I stopped thinking about it.
And I think that's another reason why I now talked to myself almost constantly.

Also you're probably like, "Oh, talking to yourself is normal! I do it all the time!" But I dunno, because I always talk like there's someone else there that I'm speaking to, but I know there's no one. Even though I feel like someone is always watching. I don't know why, I don't know if it's normal or not. But hey, I've been talking to myself almost every day for like the past five or six years, so....

I FIGURED IT OUT, I'M LIKE A YOUTUBER THAT DOESN'T TALK TO A CAMERA.

So basically I'm really really really abnormal.