Hello everyone, I'm back with some new story but I don't know where to start or from where to begin it's really hard to express what I'm feeling but the truth is I'm so unhappy because of what I did.  I didn't mean to hurt him somehow but sometimes there are some questions you can't be able to announce to your boyfriend because it's the privacy of your personal information but too bad everything goes in reverse.

I'm sorry babe for hurting you but I didn't know how to express this question to you because for me it's really hard to spell it out plus you are a boy and I'm a girl but I'm sorry for everything and I love you to the end of my life.

I don't know how to say it but I will say somehow the Questions are about "Which age did you lose your virginity?  And I'm not going to lie but I and my boyfriend decided to download the app and it's as called iPassion. The point of the app is that they ask you different types of question it's can be played by any type of gender so I played with boyfriend since we are out of topic and we don't have anything to do but I thought this game will change our mood but somehow everything went into worst. The app is part where you can know more about another person, in the beginning, it's was kinda fun but when the game moves us to another level it's was bad the question became 18+ and I know it's crazy how I and my boyfriend we don't talk about sex because we are too young for that. We already agreed that we are going to try sex when we get married In'Shaa'Allah'.   Besides, we even agreed when is going to be the wedding since he told his mum about me and I was so apprehensive and I was between in the mood of happy and scared at the same time cause you will be thinking... Will, she ever going to love me?  Will, she ever going to treat me like a good person and to love me treat me like her daughter?  I have like a million questions in my mind but I couldn't find an answer.

P.s This game is good and everything but if you don't love mature doesn't play.

Anyhow, We both agreed when is the wedding and when is the engagement but I'm so happy that I'll marry the one who will share my dreams and how he every time reminds me about our future children's name I was like speeches.

Moreover, I never thought I would be with him but at the same time, I feel so miserable how his father will not attend the event with us and how he will see his son growing so fast and marrying a girl 💃  of his dream. And about his father, he passed away I couldn't handle myself and I want to be burst out into tears but something inside me tells me to don't because if I did this will make him sad and he will get through of depression and he will remember his father and how they both share good memories.  (Blessing splinting you and God bless you, God forgive salvage your dead, and live his paradise, and inspire his family and family, patience and fortitude, and I am to God, and To Him, we shall rest God, forgive him, and make his resting place paradise).     Ameen 😭😭😭.

Back to the point,  there is something I want so badly

First, don't give up no matter how many times you tried don't give up life is a choice life is a mission some people get mad when there is no one to read their books I used to be in the same situation as yours. I used to cry a lot but something happened I didn't give up I tried, then tried, and deep inside I was having faith try to make friends nice with each other we only live once in our lifetime we might see people crying over their closest friend because they have passed away don't lose each other try to have fun and those who said I have like 960 followers or 966 followers trust me I was having 10 followers only 10 of them read the book and vote for it but I didn't stop on trying I used to cry and cry and asking myself is this the end of the line? But I didn't care about anyone I believe in myself and I believe in Allah most of my life was based on cheating, violence, sexual harassment, mostly my best friend cheated with me and she stole my boyfriend I didn't know what to do back then. But I didn't stop I cried in the prayer mate and thankfully I found incredible people like you and I'm so happy to know you all and to know that you guys are with me even through my hards times I will never stop on helping you guys and I'll try my dignity and my life itself to help you that's the promise I'll do everything I can to help you until my death arrives

Thank you so much for reading my story

Beautiful girls are always beautiful ♥️♥️♥️