DAY 872:

Today, I booked tickets to India.

I should be happy about seeing Amma and Nanna after so long but I am not. If not for Ananya's marriage, I'd have postponed visiting them for another year.

What am I going to tell Ammamma? How am I going to face Neha?

I have no answers as to why I chose to maintain no contact with them. Especially Neha.

Of all the things I was worried of, I worried about her the most; after Vamsi. Always after Vamsi.

The thought of going back home is distressing. I may not have had a happy and relaxing life here but I'm still going to miss this place.

Nobody here judged me for my clothes or colour.

I wasn't called exotic but I wasn't called ugly either.

I know it won't be the same, back home.

I have a lot of shopping to do; gifts, wedding presents and most importantly, I have to make myself ready.

Three months is all I have.