(Part - II)

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DAY 25:

So, Attha gave me this. Journal, she said. I have never had one and I don't know what I am supposed to do with this.

'When you can't confide to people, you write it down' is what she said. Still, I don't understand how penning down my feelings will make me feel better.

I miss him. Of all the things about staying away from home, I miss him the most.

It's been 25 days since I flew to this beautiful city; 26 days since I last saw him.

Thanks to technology, I see my parents every single day. It's not the same as living with them but beggars can't be choosers.

I haven't shared my new number with Ananya or Neha after both of them tried to make me talk to him when I called them.

Ananya? I can understand. But, Neha? I never imagined her to do that to me.

It's hard enough as it is.

Being at a new place of diverse cultures and living with people I only talked on the phone (and rarely met) is making me feel restless and edgy. That, on top of already feeling like a wretched soul from losing him.

In spite of being with people I am related to, I feel the loneliest I have ever been.

No Neha. No Vamsi. That is something I never expected to happen.

Being alone is probably what I am destined to.