Im not good enough. I never have been. I couldn't even keep a friend without confusing them. They broke up with my other friend because they didn't want to hurt them and I confused the one. I made them confused about thier feelings. Idek what I feel anymore. Sometimes I just want to curl up in a ball under something heavy and never come out, then maybe it woudlnt hurt so much. Maybe if I gave up on trying to make friends then maybe just maybe I wouldn't have to worry about being hurt. I can't love and people who say they like or love me are wrong cause u can't love or like nothing. I have been getting in more and more trouble lately with my aunt. I have been crying way more lately then I usually do. There's something wrong with me but idk what. I cry over nothing it's sad. I still have my allergic reaction and I took 5 more pills of benadryl so I have now taken 300 mg of benadryl since 11 last night. I missed 2 days of school i have a lot to catch up on. I'm not sure what to do anymore. I'm getting made fun of in my classes have a test almost every week so I'm stressing about those. My aunt tried to get me in trouble the other day telling my mom that on Halloween night I was partying and drinking, that I brought home a pack of beer and tried hiding it. I would never EVER!!! Do that. Fork I'm turning into a even bugger cry baby I hate it!!!!!! Sorry for doing this I just needed to get it out. But thanks for the over 600 reads it means alot I guess.