angst

You blame Tendo's mom for his eyes as you say I love you. How the charm that drew you in now pushes you away and curses you for existing. You blame his father for his mind that outsmarted your human emotions and wants. He says pretty little words that put you on high, only to be dragged with malice by the end of the night.

What may be love to your heart, your mind sees the scars his words open and the pain his touch leaves. Was it all for nothing? You'll just do better, much better tomorrow. You'll be better, you'd always promise.

It's never enough though. Change and change again, but there will always be pain inflicted and lies to be said. 

"I can't do this anymore." You admitted one lonely night. The ache burned so much you couldn't eat. The mention of his name makes you wanna vomit. His touch leaves you an emotional mess. His words leave you helpless. Understand, you've tried to go, but his words aren't just pretty. They're convincing. Always an alibi. A dodge of the bullet you've shot at him many times before, needing an excuse to be human again.

He's just really fucking good at telling the right lies. You wonder who all he has lied to in the past, and what exactly did he lie about?

There's no way his pride would ever let him be honest, or let his words be realistic. He always did love to live in his fantastical fantasy which, he would never share with you of all people.

"I'm done. I won't let you do this to me anymore." You whispered in front of him. His glare turned plastic, as if his face turned to a cold mask he never let anyone touch. He looked like his sister when he did this, she never liked you. You could tell from her glares across the house and how everything she says was to spite you. She wasn't really his sister, just a girl he grew up with for years. A relationship to last a lifetime. Only to be thrown away for some lame excuse of a hook up turned to dating love story. Her jealousy was contagious, always spreading to Tendo when things turned south. One thing led to another and your panting under a frustrated redhead who had not any other thought when it came to you. Or so it seemed.

"Ok," He turned bleak. Cold, raspy and sadistic was his nature when y'all were alone. degrading and narcissistic if you were unfortunate. 

"I can go? You'll let me leave?" Your heart skipped a beat, are you finally free? His reveal of his usual cocky temper tore you brutally from any shred of hope you misgathered from his single word.

"What makes you think you're leaving? You hurt me by assuming I wouldn't love you enough to never let you leave me." His degrading voice spoke through and your heart shattered it's broken pieces into oblivion. 

You will not let him win again this time, no matter how much he made it hurt.

You picked up all your stuff not once looking at him, or acknowledging his existence as he pushed you around. 

"What do you think you're doing? I love you. Isn't that enough for you? Oh my god, Y/n! How could you be so dramatic! What, did I forget something? Are you offended cause I love you so much that I wont let you go?" When you didn't reply he gave up on attacking you nicely. You gave up on being nice years ago.

"You will regret everything if you go through that door." He hissed.

"I regretted everything when you came into my life. What makes you think I'll miss any of this?" For some reason, he finally felt the emotion he dreaded.

Pain.

And the emotions pressed onto him like a stamp as he saw you leave his house with a bag in hand and a determined look in your eyes.

Why did he have to be his parents creation?

I love writing angst.

Strangely enough I don't read it :sob:

I love Family Line sm- ALSO ME AND CONAN GRAY HAVE THE SAME BIRTHDAY- isn't that fun!!!!

It's towards the end of my birthday when this is posted and I think Conan's too!!!! Happy birthday Conan Gray!

(if he's done anything in the past then tell me cause I don't catch up on famous people drama. Unless it's like EVERYWHERE. I'm just sayin happy birthday cause he has the same birthday as me so I thought it'd be nice to say it. <3)

Goodnight Lovelies see you tomorrow!!!! <3