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୨⎯ "𝒔𝒐𝒄𝒊𝒂𝒍 𝒎𝒆𝒅𝒊𝒂 𝒙 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆" ⎯୧
⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

ᴺᴼᵂ ᴾᴸᴬᵞᴵᴺᴳ : all I wanted - paramore
ᴠᴏʟᴜᴍᴇ : ▮▮▮▮▮▮▯▯▯

I could follow you to the beginning
And just to relive the start
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
At all of our favorite parts

warning: this chapter, along with future ones will contain descriptions of underage drinking and partying

𝐍𝐨𝐰 𝐥𝐨𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠. . .

this chapter takes place a month after the boys went back to boston meaning that it's around the 8th-10th of October 2022 :) just thought I'd let you know to avoid confusion!

ⁱⁿˢᵗᵃᵍʳᵃᵐ !

gemmaevans

gemmaevans 4 is always better than 1

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user OMFG

averypicketttt this is so hot

madifilipowicz slayy

user gemma not being seen w matt in weeks and now she's posting thirst traps? oh I know he's throwing up crying rn

jadeyfrench oh my god hello

nicolassturniolo these are

nicolassturniolo wow

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Gemma cleaned her room as one of her favourite playlists filtered through her headphones. She threw dirty clothes in a pile, wiped down her mirrors and stacked the few dirty dishes she had accumulated in her room over the past month.

Jade and her girlfriend Lillian sat on the band's couch flicking through photos that Lillian had taken on her camera. They took little to no notice of Gemma as she quickly made her way to the kitchen to rinse and stack the dishes in the dishwasher before going back to her room to continue what she was doing.

In the three weeks since Gemma and Matt had 'broken up' an unwanted tension had somehow settled over the household. For the most part, Gem stayed out of her friends' way and instead went out partying and socialising with some of their other friends she hasn't seen in a while.

She wasn't avoiding her friends intentionally but it's hard to not be miserable when you have to watch your friends be happy after going through a breakup that wasn't really a breakup. She loved her friends, truely, and she'd do anything for them but with both Sam and Lillian being in and out of the house and Josie being on the phone with Chris all hours of the night, it had started to feel a bit suffocating for Gemma.

She delt with it though.

She partied till all hours of the night, kissed boys and then forgot their names, kept writing songs and she made new friends. Jade and Josie weren't big on going out and it was getting harder to convince Avery to come out now that her and Sam were really attached at the hip so she settled for making friends with strangers who definitely didn't give a fuck about her.

But Finn was blocked and she hadn't spoken to Matt So yeah, she was dealing with it.

She was doing exactly what Matt wanted her to do. She kept her distance without making it a big deal, she was finding out what type of people she liked and didn't like and she was quickly discovering that half the people she runs into care more about her name than her person. She finds it funny, really, how somehow she manages to have the worst judgement when it comes to the people that are making their way in and out of her life.

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For three weeks Matt had sat back and watched Gemma live a life that he felt like he was no longer apart of. He had seen her out with different friends at different parties across LA and all he could do was watch her from the sidelines and give her the space he thought she needed.

He was the one who said they shouldn't speak, he was the one who drove over there and told her it was over, he was the one who let her go and now he was the one that was going to live with it.

As he looked at her most recent post on his Instagram, he simply just liked the post and continued mindlessly scrolling on. It was past the time he said he was going to bed and he knew he had to be up earlier tomorrow because they were flying back to LA but he couldn't get himself to just turn over and go to sleep no matter how tired he might be.

Eventually, he turned his phone off and just rolled over to face the wall in one final attempt to get some sleep. Despite the fact that he lay there for almost another thirty minutes, he couldn't stop the repetitive thought that he had made a mistake and that he couldn't just wait for her to come back around.

The thought of her not coming back is what scared him the most, though. The possibility that he really had ruined something good was really starting to eat at him but so was not knowing what had become of her and Finn.

Matt hadn't seen Finn around on social media and when he had spoken to the other girls his name wasn't brought up in any context. He thought that if something had happened that maybe Josie would've taken the initiative and told him since Matt and Gemma were basically radio silent.

Then again though, it's not like Josie has been known to be very honest lately.

The reminder of that has him sitting up and just going to get a glass of water in hopes that maybe he just felt like shit because he was dehydrated.

Quietly Matt made his way to the kitchen and placed his phone on the counter before going to the sink. His back is turned when his phone goes off with a notification from Instagram and he doesn't pay attention to what the notification is until he opens his phone.

gemmaevans posted an Instagram story!

he gulped the last of his water down and sighed, exiting out of her story and walking straight up to his room. He climbs under the covers and puts his phone on do not disturb in an effort to not think about where she is, who she's with and most importantly if she's safe.

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Gemma laughs along with Avery as the two of them sit on a seat in the backyard of one of their friends houses. It's the first Halloween party of the season, she's definitely on her way to drunk and she hasn't seen or heard from Finn or Matt for three whole weeks.

It's safe to say she feels fucking amazing.

She feels like she's free to have a good time without having to worry about paparazzi posting out of context photos or running into someone she doesn't want to. She smiles as she talks to Sam's cute friend and she momentarily dismisses herself as she goes to refill her drink.

It doesn't take long for someone else to come up to her and strike up a conversation in an awful attempt to make a move. She pities the boy in front of her because he's cute, he's tall and he definitely likes the look of her but unfortunately for him, he's still got no real chance.

She smiles politely, makes small talk and then quickly walks past him when she spots Josie and she immediately clings herself to her arm "Hey babe"

Josie side eyes her and laughs "Are you drunk Gem?"

Gemma shrugs and takes another swig of her drink carelessly "When am I not?"

Josie stays quiet and leads her bandmate to a more secluded spot in the yard and they both sit down. Gemma taps her foot and tilts her head sideways "What's that look for? You look great, we're at a party and we finally have a fucking break from non-stop work!"

Josie throws one leg over the other and takes one last look at her phone before Gemma catches her attention again.

A deep, drunk frown has made its way onto Gemma's face as she realises what's got Josie so icky "Are you waiting on Chris?"

Josie has the decency to look shocked before smiling sheepishly and Gemma rolls her eyes quickly "Why the fuck are we waiting on Sturniolo boys? Who cares what they think, let's go get you drunk!" Gemma stands up excitedly and hold her hand out for Josie to take.

Josie looks to Gemma's hand and then up to her face "Aren't you friends with Chris?"

Gem nods her head "Oh yeah he's my bitch, I love him but you're not waiting on a text back from him"

Josie reluctantly grabs her best friend's hand "It's an important text thought so, you know"

Gemma practically drags her friend across the patio and begins to look for anything they can do shots with "What? Are they coming back to LA?"

Josie taps her knuckles on the fold out table in front of them as Gemma grabs a bottle of vodka and two seemingly clean shot glasses. The two girls look at eachother before Gemma quickly looks away and pours the liquor into the glasses, handing one to her friend.

"Perfect, Matt can take his sweater back. I don't want that shit anymore"

The fakest smile Josie has ever seen is plastered on her friends face as they clink shit glasses and throw their heads back, taking the liquid with much less grace than they had originally intended. Josie immediately looks for a chaser while Gemma reaches for the bottle.

"What are you doing?"

Gem clicks her tongue "pouring another one?" She says in a 'duh' tone, like Josie was stupid for even asking when she could see what was happening.

Josie watches Gemma pour the shot and immediately take it before looking at the cup she previously had, checking that there was still enough liquid in there for her liking.

She watches her bandmate get distracted by another one of their friends and she cheers excitedly as she strikes up a conversation. She leaves Josie standing by the table concerned as she drunkly talks enthusiastically to anyone and everyone who will listen to her, it leaves an icky feeling in Josie's stomach and as if the universe is trying to tell her that everything is going to be okay, she receives a text back from Chris

iMessage
Chris 💘
We'll land around lunch time so I'll see you afterwards? Don't worry about gem I'm sure she's just having a good time 😁💕

Josie smiles at the text before frowning.

Yeah, she's having a great fucking time.

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Gemma is saying fuck boys!!!

Anyways it's still Monday for me which means this post is on time!! How good!! I do have other chapters to post but girl I'm trying to sort it out IN SORRYYYYY

hope you like this new era because I'm going to have so much fun writing it xoxox

Thanks for reading! <3