❤︎ 𝚃𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐: 𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚐𝚎 𝚍𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐.
❤︎ 𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚜 𝚏𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚣𝚎𝚍, 𝚞𝚗𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚌, 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚖𝚏𝚞𝚕, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚘𝚡𝚒𝚌 𝚍𝚎𝚙𝚒𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚊 (𝙱𝙳𝚂𝙼) 𝚛𝚎𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚙.
❤︎ 𝙷𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚏𝚞𝚕 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚞𝚜𝚎𝚛 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚌𝚔𝚎𝚍. 𝙸 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚠𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚊. 𝙽𝚘 𝚜𝚙𝚘𝚒𝚕𝚎𝚛𝚜!
❤︎ 𝚂𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚞𝚝 @𝚖𝚊𝚍𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚞𝚖𝚋𝚕𝚛 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚎𝚍𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚊.
❤︎ 1267 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜, 5 𝚖𝚒𝚗 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎

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I leave the hospital, lit cigarette in hand. Finally, I can breathe.

A simple Google search reveals the location of Geto's Group.

I also learn he's been doing consulting work for civilians with "intractable problems, mysterious ailments, unsolvable vexations, and spiritual troubles"–whatever the hell that means. Sounds like a cult to me. I only care that he seems extremely well-off–a sound reasoning from the golden facade with adorning dragons, phoenixes, and tigers, of his temple. It's an hour and a half away from here.

I enter the train and find a quiet corner next to a window. It's late afternoon, right before rush hour.

My peripheral registers a group of high schoolers on the other side: two girls and four boys. One girl has a boyish build, short black hair, and incredibly large brown eyes. She's skittish and remains on the outskirts of the group, occasionally laughing way too hard at one of the boys' jokes.

She reminds me of myself, even now. I lean on the window and close my eyes. Finally, sunset is nearing.

That year, as April cascaded into early Summer, I found myself slowly adapting to TJH. I got used to my two boy classmates with polar opposite personalities. I even got close to one of them–Haibara Yū. Yū never forgot to greet me in class–I was apprehensive at first but soon realized there was no agenda behind his bright smile. Sometimes I'd have lunch with him and he never once asked me about my discounted convenience store buys. Yū liked animals and I do, too–though he's more of a dog person. Yet, we both have a fascination for goats. We even both had a younger sibling.

Things seemed better.

In June, the second years decided it was time for the long overdue welcome party for us newbies. They finished a hard mission and were in a celebratory mood. We all lived on campus. The boys had their building and the girls had ours. Since we had more boys than girls, the party will be in the lounge of the boys', for convenience.

I recognized the imperative to dress up. Hence, when I opened up my closet to be confronted with nothing but hand-me-downs, I decided to take my brother downtown to splurge a little with my stipends. I bought a tight spaghetti top, a black skirt that cropped right above my knees, and even some drugstore makeup. I didn't tell anybody, but, at that time, I wanted to look older. I thought that maybe if I wore something revealing, Geto Suguru might notice me.

Later that evening, my brother and I had dinner at a family restaurant. I ordered an omurice, my brother a plate of pasta. We even shared a steak. Just a three-ounce, so we'd still have enough money for the train ride back. It was one of the happiest days I could remember.

I spent the entire day of the party anxious and fretting--watching countless makeup tutorials, Googling "how to make small talk" in various word combinations, and listing possible topics of conversation. I wanted to be cool. I barely interacted with the second-years after that day on the rooftop. This was my chance for a lasting first impression.

An hour after sunset, I left for the boys', clad in my dark lavender top and black skirt. When I arrived, everyone was already there. Yū said hi to me first, following a big hug. I waved to Nanami–he was still serious as usual, but even he seemed to be smiling that day.

"Have you met the second-years, y/n?" Yū tugged at me and dragged me to the three. "Gojo Senpai, Ieiri Senpai, and Geto Senpai; Y/n! Y/n–"

"We've met before," Geto cuts Yū off.

"Ehh? You've already had a date with this cute little girl, Suguru? How unfair!" Shoko wrapped an arm around my shoulders, stunning me. 

I've passed by Shoko a few times in the dorm--surely she must remember me?

"We just met on the rooftop during lunch one day," said Geto.

"I want to do that, too! Date!! We should all go on a date!!! Neh, Nanami, how about a date?" Gojo proceeded to lean his entire weight on Nanami.

"I'm politely declining," Nanami didn't push Gojo away, apparently in a relatively good mood.

"Don't mind them. They've had a few drinks. Well, except Nanami and you." Geto looked at me. This was the first time I've ever looked him in the eyes.

"That's... beer?"

"Yeah. Suguru got it from this Tsukumo Yuki. She's a special-grade sorcerer that's real lazy and shit but she loves Suguru and owes him a favour or something like that. She got us the booze," explained Geto.

Tsukumo Yuki. I had heard of her before. She's a muscular woman with waist-length blonde hair and an affinity for motorbikes. Despite being special-grade, she had a reputation for idling around instead of taking up missions.

"People really like Gojo Senpai, don't they?" I looked over: Gojo, Yū, and Shoko had started karaoke and were coercing Nanami into it.

"He's real full of himself sometimes," Geto had the same smile as on the rooftop. "But he's my best friend... Want one?"

"Sure..." I took a sip–it tasted like piss.

As the night went on, I was mostly quiet, only occasionally laughing too hard at people's jokes to overcompensate. We sang, danced, and drank an unlawful amount of beer. "This is what being a teenager is–like in the movies," I giddily thought.

It was around midnight when Yū suggested we all watch a movie. Gojo suggested one of the Neon Genesis Evangelian movies because: "I heard there are lots of boobs in it!!!" And so, all six of us, cramped into two sofas, started the movie. Nanami, Gojo, and Shoko were on one sofa while I was on another, in between Yū and Geto.

Yū kept leaning over to the other sofa to talk, always smooshing me slightly into Geto by accident. I started blushing lightly but when I gazed up, I noticed he wasn't paying attention to me; he was too focused on the movie.

At first, there were cheers whenever boobs or something minutely entertaining came up. But gradually, one by one, they all succumbed to sleep before this overly opaque film.

Geto and I became the only two who were still conscious. Now that Yū was taking up half the couch, I practically stuck to Geto, our thighs touching, our shoulders glued, our hands brushing...

I felt his warmth creeping into my skin while the ends of his hair grazed my cheeks. The blue lights of the TV screen illuminated his incredibly handsome face, making him seemingly mature and wise beyond his years. I wanted to say something to break this uncanny awkwardness. I searched for one of the listed topics in my head but...

"Ah–Choo!!" My nose was runny. June nights can be so chilly.

Without me asking, Geto took a piece of napkin and placed it over my nose, his fingers slightly pinching its sides.

My eyes widened at him.

"Blow, you little idiot," this unexpected and unplanned double entendre sent the both of us blushing. "Sorry, it was all that beer. Maybe shouldn't have had that many."

I sneezed and blew my nose again.

"You cold?

Before I could reply, he took off his pullover jacket...

"You must be." ...and draped it over my shoulders.

I froze...

The jacket smelled like him. Like sandalwood and bergamot... it was warm, like his flesh, fluffy too, like my tiny beating heart. 

"Thanks..."

He didn't look at me or say anything else.

The train stopped and announced it was the last stop of the line. I open my eyes.

I fell asleep. That was a nice, warm dream...

Or was it?

I get off. The sun is setting--my favourite time of day.

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𝖂𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝖎𝖋 𝕲𝖊𝖙𝖔 𝖎𝖘 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝕸𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖗...

➴ Where you sign a contract and submit to Suguru with your mind, your spirit, your soul
         ...and your body

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Author's note!

some (relatively) soft sugurus for your enjoyment :) btw i've been scouring the net for some sugurus from the manga and anime & the struggle's been real

also! "what if geto is your master" currently has 1.6k combined views on wattpad & webnovel!!
we r also no.7 in"characterinsert," no.2 in "bdsmromance," no. 8 in "softbdsm," & no. 2 in "animeinsert" ( ˶°ㅁ°) !!

thank u 4 the support <3 i cant believe we unlocked a new commissioned cover art 12 days after i joined wattpad ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡

the cover art will hopfully be made by @caacatte from ig & will be here some time in July!!

𖦹ׂnext milestone will be an accompanying playlist to be released at 1k wattpad views𖦹ׂ

take care & b safe,
ikari din ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹

2024.06.29