A/N- This is more like a bunch of thoughts strung together than a poem. At some points it's free verse and at some points I think it rhymes. I honestly don't know what I was doing with this poem. It's seven pages on Google Docs too, so it's not short. I think I was just vibing and thoughts came into my head and I wrote them down in poem format. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this!

If you can see yourself in the stars

They're probably your own stars

If you can't remember which stars are yours

Look into your heart

They'll surely be somewhere in that big space

There are a lot of stars in my heart

I've collected them and left them there

Over the years, as I've grown

Many stars have fallen from the cosmos above

And engraved themselves in my shining heart

I love each star equally

Pat them and kiss them every night and day

So they can bloom, I give them the water of my blood and sweat

And the food of my boundless love

My dreams were always a bit too much

But these stars shine in me, fed by the effort

I put in to achieve them, and tell me 'We'll get there someday,'

I put my faith in them as they have in me

And know one day I'll become what I want to be

I have my own style, and so do my stars, we're all unique

How can you tell which ones are mine

They're usually the most well-fed

I feed them daily, with the sadness I endure from following my dreams

I'll become number one in this bland world

Add a splash of my colors to this stark white population

Of depressed adults, always watching news and working overtime

They'll be dyed a bright tie-dye with my lovely rainbow heart

So they can find their own stars someday

Asian, European, Australian, African, whatever race you are

We all come from the same earth, so we all are the same and beautiful

We can share the same stars, I'll give mine to anyone, if they're kind

I don't prefer one over the others, that's not right

I'll accept anyone, race or emotional background notwithstanding

You can never find fatter stars than mine, but that's fine

They're beautifully fat, they belong that way, they're nicely well fed

Don't you disrespect them or fatshame them now, they're really hot

They'll burn you badly, but I'll be there to kiss your hands

Spread my healing balm all over you, make you mine

We can share our stars now

Which ones are yours? The smallest ones

Which ones are mine? The fattest ones

Now there's a problem here

Your stars are so underfed, they're about to die

What terrible things have you been feeding them

False success and false blood don't get your stars anywhere

Feed them real things, and they'll grow fat, like mine

We can share our stars, give me some of yours

I can bleed and sweat a bit more, and love a bit more

So gorge yourself, beautiful star, so you shine brighter

If it tastes bad for you, it's probably good

It's the same for my feelings, they feel bad for me, but they're good

If my blood can fertilize our flowers, I'll bleed endlessly

If my sweat can water our flowers, I'll heat myself up forever

See, your stars have gotten fatter now,and so have mine

Look into your heart, don't you hear that small twinkle?

Your stars are happy to be fed, they dance around like lovers

My stars are more mature, and are happy behind closed doors

Whatever way you are happy, it's a blessing, lovely art

People will see it no matter how you display it, and be happy too

As I get closer to my goal, my stars fade away

They were only there to help me, and now my effort tastes sour

To them, it's stale, and they'll fade away forever soon

But, then, when I struggle, give me your stars

I'll hug you closer, cuddle you, and pat your head

You can always lean on my small shoulder

Come closer, so I can pat you a little more

I'll give you some extra sugar, so you don't lose it

Where's my sugar? I need some too, I can't survive without a little

Whatever, I'll pour my own sugar cream into my mouth

Snap my lips together and feel smooth cool ice cream flow

Down my throat, the taste of endless summer

Sweet fruity sorbet and tasty caramel guide me away

From a boring adult life, I swore I wouldn't become what I am

Part of a crowded, uncolored population, simply reflecting norms in a broken society

But I guess I did, I lost my stars and color, can't you give me a bit

Of your sweet stars, so I don't lose and have to reset this game again

Tasty candy stars, being a child is so much fun

I hope that you never grow up, that I can stay with you forever

I want to be young, with you, forever

Even if you say I'm addicted to this game, it's fun to play

Can we play monsters and princess forever

I'll be the monster, be my true self, be yours

I know you're the beauty, and I'm the beast

But sometimes the beast is a fun character to play

Drop your props now, I know you don't want to, but it's school time

Time to learn how to become a typical human, following the system

The paths we're told to choose are so boring, can't I be a child forever

So I can just eat star candies and be sweet and loved endlessly

Being bullied as an adult is no fun, nobody supports you then

At least I was supported as a child, I need some more support now

Take a nostalgic bite of a sugary star, not too much, now

Remember, I'm on a diet, need to get skinny for my newest interview

This is my fiftieth interview for a job I don't even want

Can't I just go home and play some Pokemon or something

I want to look at cute games from my childhood and reminisce

Not try hard to become an office worker and sweat for a goal I don't support

Even if adults say I'm a weird one, not 'typical' 'weird'

I define my own 'typical,' you're 'weird' to me

Here, want to reminisce, have a candy star and sit with me awhile

This music is from our childhood, turn the volume up

Care a little less, try harder in the game, not in life

Your life in this game is what makes you young, it feels better

Next time, when we bump into each other, just ask me

If I want to hang out, definitely, after some work, I'll hang out

I watched that K-Drama as a child, it made me cry and laugh a lot

Put on the saddest episode, the most relatable to the two of us

It's definitely this one, thank you for catering to my request

We're not typical adults, but we're special that way

Whoever says, 'I'm totally a typical adult,' is lying

They just want to fit in, they're idiots for doing so

Be yourself, you're lovely the way you are

You're sweeter than these candy stars, and will be my friend forever

Keep your childlike innocence and surge forward like a tsunami

I'll smile for you, my dreams are yours

When you feel swamped, just eat a nostalgia star

Wherever you remember, you'll be there

I'll be the Beast, you be Beauty

My unstoppable heart can save you from everything

The dreams that rise from the corpses of similarity are yours

Take them and pull them close to you, so when I go

You can struggle on with my dreams warming your heart

You may not be typical, and may not just be black-and-white

But being gray in a black-and-white world makes you special

Bite into your candy star and wish for me

I'll fly over to your side, share your candy with me

These nostalgia stars are almost out, but we don't need them

We're full of hope and color, and can dye the whole world our colors

A lovely aquamarine and sweet pink, or whatever you like

So let's go, fly, watch time go by

Maybe if we dye the world what we want, we can be whatever we want

Let me sing for you, this song of hope I heard

Dance your heart out, fall asleep in a rainbow field tonight

Dream your happy dreams, because I'm here for you

Sleep on my shoulder tonight, I'll never leave you

I may never get the love I want so badly

And you may never be brought back to the world you want

But I'll try to make you happy, please enjoy my voice

I practiced singing only for you, please, deal with me a bit longer

Dance a bit longer for me, it's all I ask

You're so sweet, I'll never let you go

We can create our own nostalgia, in this cold night

I'll wrap myself around you, and we can hug tighter

Please, stay warm tonight, and don't catch a cold.

I believe I can take care of you if you do though...

If you want to cry, go on and do it, if you stand up after it

You'll see a rainbow made with your tears in the sky, it looks pretty

Just like you, believe in yourself and walk on

I'll be right behind you

The moment you need my love, we'll become one, and speak on our dreams

It was nice to meet you, you're mine now, will you listen to me

My heart's thumping, I don't know if I can reach my dream

Do you believe in me, please, answer me quickly

I want to protect you, but my dream is not doing so well with you

But you're so important, I don't want to leave you, what should I do

You're right, I'll leave you, but I'll never stop loving you

If you want me, bite into a nostalgia star, and I'll come to you

Please, never forget me, and never be a bad boy!

One more time, sing with me, one more time, sleep on my shoulder

One more time, say I can do it, one more time, dance for me

One more time, before I go away, say I can do it, please

My childhood stars are reborn, and my wings spread out

Fly with me, we can both achieve our dreams

Our color spreads thicker into us, and we share some now

We munch our last stars before we succeed in our life

Your wings shine brighter, and so do mine

If you want to become like me, don't stop trying

Even if nobody supports you, sing on, and you'll be accepted

Even now, this is just a poem, written by a bored child

Will I ever become what I want to be, a singer

Ever become successful?

I don't know, but I dream I will

Every day, while I play, I sing, my friends say my voice is good

But that's not good enough, they also say kind lies, I must improve

So even strangers get attracted to my voice

Even random people can feel happy for me

Grab your light, while it lasts

Don't listen to the haters, and run on

I hope we reach our dream soon, while I'm still young

Well, I gotta go, need to learn my Korean so I can get to my goals

My parents say I'll never become a singer, but they're wrong

Because their eyes are fixated on their dreamed success that hasn't come true

They say I won't succeed, but I know better, I believe in myself

I'm my own beautiful, but I'll do what I need to win an audition someday

Eh, how many pounds do they weigh in that world? Maybe 115

I'll starve myself to maybe half that amount, so I look beautiful

Practice on, practice on, and learn on

I'll bite the sweet sugary star candy of success someday

And you'll all see that I can be somebody

Right? Is this a reasonable dream?

I don't even know anymore, but I know my rose-tinted lenses

Need some brightening, so excuse me for a moment

Remember this, though:

I will get what I want, even if I need to bleed for my dreams

I'm just that type of girl, no matter what they say

I'll exceed the expectations and shine, nobody can stop me but myself

All they ever say is, "You can't,' 'You won't.'

Just go away, before I push you out! I can, and I will

You always say, 'Back in my day, you'd be beaten for this.'

But your day is gone, this is a new generation, and I'll own it soon

Just you wait, I'll rock your past-generation senses with my new generation beauty and voice

And you'll forever regret saying I cannot and I will not

I own my own life, and I'll be strong and ignore you

But that's another day, maybe in a few years

But... for now... just shut up and support for me for once okay?

This is my dream, you should be proud, not snap at me

I'm tired of listening to your complaints, this is my life, okay?

Goodbye!