my heart sunk when he said his name
I knew

I knew he used to dance
he danced for me sometimes

even with
but I was too shy most times

I also knew Jeongguk would dance with him as well
but it had slipped my mind

are... are you going to dance?

"kind of"
he answered

suddenly
his feet were off the floor
and he was balancing his entire weight with one hand

my jaw dropped
how can you do that so effortlessly?

He chuckled in that position before standing upright
"it does not feel effortless but thank you
I just feel rusty because I haven't danced properly in a while..."

I looked down at my clasped hands
...ever since Hoseok?

"yeah
ever since
I think I should continue though
he would be so angry if he saw me like this"

despite the sadness creeping into me
I found myself laughing together with Jeongguk

Hoseok didn't seem like the type to get angry ever
but he did and it was scary

I guess he would've been angry at me too then
for having a permanent thunderstorm above my head.

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