I give up..

Seeing my husband kissing my bes tfriend..

Having a baby..making out..

Breaking my heart..

Wasn't I enough??

Was my love not enough??

My kids..our kids..

I know that I had a baby with someone else...

But this..is too much..

*starts to cry*

Why...why...why..do I have to suffer like this..

So another modeling agency asked me if I was willing to do some kind of pictorial where I display body...

Whole body..

And well I agreed...since I have no other thing to do but make more money

I've done this before... but only one shoot..

This one takes a week or two...so I really have to show off..everything

I see some staff licking their lips whenever I undress and pose for the camera

I even saw some other men jerking off at the bathroom.

Oh and I even saw this picture while I was taking a break...Wincest right??

But then again I wonder, why would Mikey go all sex machine again if I got this kind of body and face...

I give him all the love and care I could provide.. yet he still goes crazy having sex with mostly every guy he knows..I'm not complaining... it just hurts me..

I wonder...what would it be like if I chose some other guy...or even a girl..

Would I live happy and peaceful with my kids??

If I chose Samandriel...

Would I be doing this kind of stuff??

And I was eventually signed up doing porn.

Faster and bigger money went straight into my hands

Include the pleasure in it ;)

It's nothing /that/ personal.. it's business...

Oh and Deanmon's back for good..so I'm half angel and demon now.. awesome right?

At night, I try to fight being a demon craving for blood

Which is why I clean up the mess on the floor early in the morning..so the kids won't suspect..

This is my life..

*sighs*

The life of someone miserable

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Oh and of course like I promised..

I gave 6Luci_6_Loo6 a proper funeral..with roses with the color of blood.

The priest was terrified when I told him that it was Lucifer...rest in peace friend
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