ABOUT: Y/n and Percy are just not meant to cross as lovers...
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I couldn't stop myself from looking at them. The way she would painfully hit his arm when he said something dumb. Can't forget to mention it was dumb, cute. The way she would make him laugh by doing something so simple. The way that they looked into each other's eyes, before they kissed.

Like we used to.

I missed him more than anything in the world. I missed staying up late at night talking at the deck. I missed whenever he wrapped his arms around me, I felt his warmth. I missed holding hands with him and cuddling because we were both so touch-deprived. I missed the feeling of his lips on mine and the way he held my waist, but most of all I missed just having him.

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I gathered my things and left the cabin. I sighed as I made my way to my own.

My friend had planned a little get together for me as an early birthday thing. I wanted to stay for her but i just couldn't be around him and her. I love y/f/n and Im more definitely getting scolded by her later for leaving so early, but she will understand... hopefully.

I was almost halfway when I got pulled back.

"Where do you think you're going," I hear a familiar voice.

I turn around to see y/f/n, mad.

"My cabin," I bluntly say.

"No. You're getting your butt back in that place and you're going to have fun," she says while dragging me. I stop her and stood my ground.

"Get. In. There. Right. Now," she says, but all i do is shake my head.

"Y/n you cannot keep letting him control your emotions and life. I wish I could say screw him, but he's also my friend," she sighs.

I felt bad since i don't want her to feel like she did this for no reason.

"I just can't look at him right now or be in the same room, y/f/n," I say, feeling the tears threaten to fall.

"I understand that y/n/n, but you have to look at him eventually... and her. they are together," she says, looking at me with a sympathetic look.

I nodded my head, giving in to her pulling.

When we got in, Luke came over to me with his arms open and Chris following closely behind him.

"Y/n! Just the girl I wanted to see," he shouted, pulling me into a hug which I accepted. We pulled away and Chris hugged me as well.

"Happy early birthday," they both say at the same time.

"Thank you guys," I smile at them.

"So, how have you been," Luke asks, taking a sip of his drink.

"Been good, but could be better," I say.

He laugh, nodding his head, "Yeah, I'm so excited to see what you have planned!"

We continue to chat for a while about birthdays and plans and hangouts and just random things in general.

I loved hanging out with my friends, we always did fun stuff together. I have tons of friends who may not be close to one another, but they always have my back.

"Oh my gods! Hi, y/n!" I hear someone shout, and before I knew it I was being pulled into a tight hug. I looked up to see her. Her dark, long hair. Beautiful brown eyes. I can't hate her. She's too nice. But I could hate her for being nice. But that isn't fair.

She was everything a boy dreamed of in a girl. I was definitely jealous.

"Hey, how are you doing, Annabeth," I ask, smiling at her.

"I've been great! Me and Percy went out last night and he gave me a beautiful gift," she gushes, showing me a homemade bracelet.

Oh cute.

I smiled as I looked at the bracelet. She pulled her hand back, grabbing onto Percy's arm. I didn't even see him standing there. Shouldn't be surprised. Where she goes, he follows.

He looked everywhere but me. It hurt more than I can admit. I wish I could go back in time and change what happened.

— FLASHBACK —

Percy and I were in his cabin, messing around.

"Hey, want to go to the deck," he smiled at me.

"Yeah, definitely!" I smiled back.

"Last one there is a rotten egg," he pushed off the bed but before running he pushed me down.

I could hear him laughing as he ran away, and when i regain my balance I ran after him.

Once i caught up to him I pushed him.

"You're such a cheater," I laugh.

"There's no rules, it's just don't get here last," he teased.

We sat down at the edge and we sat in silence for a bit. I look around and I spot y/f/n. She motioned me to go to her.

I poked percy on the side. He jolted up.

"I'm gonna be right back," i told him.

"okay," he laughed.

I get up and made my way to y/f/n.

"So..." she began.

"so... what?" I ask confused.

"Have you confessed? I know you like him. And I think he likes you," she told me.

"I don't think he does, y/f/n," I frowned.

"Oh come on, I see the way he looks at you. He looks at you in a certain way," her voice began to sound desperate.

"in a certain way? that's not true," I said.

"Y/n, you need to tell him how you feel. I know he does," she begged.

I hesitated, debating on what to do.

"Fine, but if he doesn't feel the same... I'm killing you," I said before i walked back to percy.

He looked at me and smiled. I sat next to him and right when i do he poked me on the side making me laugh.

"pay back!" he smirked.

"you're so dumb," i sighed, obviously joking.

"hey, you okay? You seem nervous? or scared," he looked at me.

"yeah... yeah i'm fine.. I just need to tell you something. To get it off my chest," I did a deep breath in.

"you can tell me anything. I'm always here for you," he said in a calming voice.

"Percy... I don't want to do this. I'm scared of what will happen if i do," i whispered.

"it won't be bad," he reassured me.

But he doesn't know what it was.

"I like you... like you in a romantic way," I blurted out. I regretted it the moment i said it.

It was silent.

"uh... you do?" He spoke up.

"Yeah.. i liked you for awhile and I didn't want to say it because i just knew you didn't feel the same," I told him.

"oh.. why are you telling me this now," he asked.

"i don't know... y/f/n convinced me and i guess i just did," i said.

It was silent before he spoke up again, "i'm sorry, y/n. I don't feel the same like you do. You're a cool, amazing person, but I just don't feel the same. I hope that's okay," he said.

My heart stopped. I knew this was wrong. I hate this. I look back up, feeling myself to not cry right now.

"Yeah, totally. That's okay.. well thanks for letting me let it out," i say before standing up.

"bye y/n," he says quietly.

"bye, percy.." i say before walking away

I look back at him once more before fully walking away.

— TIMESKIP —

It was late at night and I was back at the deck. This time just by myself. I needed air. Even if i wanted to crawl into my bed and never come out.

"Y/n!!!" I heard a voice coming from behind me. I looked back and it was percy. I looked back down, kind of annoyed that he's here. He already embarrassed me enough.

I felt him sat beside me.

"i'm sorry I was a bit harsh about it," he said laying his hand next to mine, but i moved my hand to my lap.

"look, y/n. I still want to be friends. We can just forget about all of whatever happened," he said, bouncing his leg up and down.

I looked at him, and he looked at me with a gentle smile.

I couldn't help myself but smile back. I loved his smile... a lot.

I couldn't forget about him or my feelings for him. I tried and trust me... it didn't work.

"i'll try.." i say as he nodded his head.

He opened his arms, "hug?"

(LMAO "where my hug attt")

I smiled and accepted his hug. He felt warm and nice. I felt his grip tighten around me and I just wanted to stay there forever. I felt him gently kiss the top of my head. I furrowed my eyebrows confused. I looked up at him and he looked away, his face flushed, but his arms were still around me.

"What was that for?" I ask him and he looked back at me.

"What?" he tried to play dumb, but i wasn't falling for it.

He looked at me with a soft expression. He leaned in closer slowly. I felt myself lean in as well. Before we know it, the space was closed and we kissed. It felt wrong to not pull away. I knew he didn't mean it. My feelings are gonna worsen even more.

He placed one hand on my waist and the other on my cheek. He pulled me closer, deepening the kiss.

I had to stop. So I did. I pulled away.

He looked at me in silence.

"I'm sorry," he said awkwardly looking around.

I furrowed my eyebrows once more. He's sorry?

"I didn't mean to.. I just. It was— crap, i'm sorry," he said rubbing his face.

I finally realized that he didn't mean it. He didn't feel the same. What is wrong with him?! How could he just do this. I stood up and hit him in the shoulder, making him stumble back.

"Why would you do that?! How could you play with my feelings like that?" I shouted as a whisper. He looked at me with guilt in his eyes.

"It was the heat of the moment, i'm sorry," he said, trying to grab my hand but i jerked it back.

"Don't even think about touching me," i spat with bitterness.

I started walking away.

"Don't ever think about talking to me ever again."

— END OF FLASHBACK —

I smile as I looked at the couple in front of me. I was still upset about the whole thing and him not liking me back but I'm glad he found somebody that he is happy with. He did looked happy. But i don't want to think about it right now.

Our memories needed to be drained.

I will miss percy, no doubt. But i have to accept my fate. At least he gets a happy ending. I could learn from it instead of being bitter whenever i see them be physical and lovey.

I will miss looking into those blue eyes that made me feel trapped. I will miss everything about him. But he is now with someone else, and I have to learn to accept that.

We were just meant to be like this.

Just two star crossed lovers.

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it is 3 AM i am not proofreading this. There's too many words. Good night. 😒

just for this i might not make a happy ending