i dont like talking about this kinda stuff, but i really need to let this out

ive been havinga recurring nightmare where my old abuser transfers to my school and beats the shit out of me and i know damn well this could happen

i fucking hate saying im still scared of her, and im no where near as scared, but i know she could really hurt me and i dont want to see her i don't want to give her that chance.

ive been doing really well until i need to sleep cause i keep dreaming about her coming back

ive been using sleep hypnosis every night , and it's helping some, but it still takes a long time to sleep,, between 1-4 hours?

im not saying this for pity, i dont want it. i am lost and scared and would reallg like advice