24. | THE DAY ALL THE SMILES DIED
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His mind was foggy and heavy from the lot of wine he had drank the night before. Jaime awoke to the bright light of the sun streaming through the window as Jaime fluttered his eyes trying to open them.He laid in a soft and comftorable bed making him want to sink even deeper. He turned around to find a mass of golden hair over the pillows. Cersei laid there comfortably without any clothes on.

Jaime imidiately cursed himself. What have I done?! He thought. No—Aelinor would never forgive him if she ever found out. But last night he had just been unable to look away from his golden haired sister.

Cersei grabbed his hand and dragged him to the dark halls and pushed him roughly at the wall before kissing him roughly on the mouth.

Jaime tried brushing her off but to no use, "Cersei—wait!" He tried. "Someone will find out"

Cersei only looked at him and gave him a grin,"Who cares? You are mine brother. Mine. Not that whore Aelinor's" Jaime's eyes widened. How could she know about that? Lannisters.

Before Jaime got to protest Cersei put a finger to him mouth silencing him,"Do you not want me?" She said flirtingly as she took his hand and ran his hand over her body."This is all here for you" Jaime found himself unable to look away or do something to stop her. They had always done this at Casterly Rock, even after their mother found out. They always did, not caring if their father would find out. Jaime tried to think about Aelinor. About her beautiful silver locks and her stunning violet and kind eyes. But he could not manage to think of her while staring at his stunning sister. Jaime knew that Aelinor was more beautiful than his sister, but he always did have a weak spot for Cersei. She was just so willing and only his.

Jaime found his eyes darkened and grabbed her shoulders roughly before pinning her on the wall and kissing her roughly. When he felt Cersei kissing him back just as fiercly he smirked agains her lips. He then pushed the doors open with his foot and pushed them inside while kicking the door closed.

Jaime's mind imidately went to Aelinor. His beautiful, kind princess. He felt guilt bursting trough him like wildfire. Jaime cured himself silently and went to grab the ripped clothes on the ground quetly, making sure to not wake Cersei. But as he went to open the door, Cersei began to wake up.

Cersei blinked her eyes a few times before tiredly asking,"Where are you going?"

Jaime looked like he was going to piss himself as he silently cured himself again knowing that Cersei would make a complain. Jaime turned to her and locked his eyes to her emerald eyes so like his own,"This was a mistake." he began as he watched Cersei begin to frown. "I am in the kingsguard. We have to stop this. I'm not yours any longer, Cersei."

Cersei mockingly smirked as she let out a cruel chuckle,"So you think Aelinor is yours then?" Jaime felt his heart would nearly die of guilt. "Don't look at me like you don't know. Most people already knows." Jaime stared at her with unease as she continued. "There are rumors, dear brother. How will Aelinor react when she finds out you have slept with another woman? Or more pricesily you sister?"

Jaime then felt hate burst through his body. Not for Cersei, but for himself. How could he fall into Cersei's trap again? When he vowed to never again? He wanted to curse himself to the seven hells for what he had caused. His mind drifted to Aelinor. She would be crushed. But Jaime soon felt dread. Would Aelinor tell anyone? Even if Targaryen are born of incest the whole worlds knows this and accepts it. But what would happen if the whole Westeros found out that the Lannister twins had an incestrual affair? His father would kill them. He did particually bot need them anymore, considering his new heir.

Jaime composed himself with a quiet cough and replied emotionleslly,"That will not happen, Cersei" before Cersei could respond Jaime was out of the chambers cursing himself to the seven hells.

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Jaime knew that something was wrong when Aelinor completly ignored looking towards him when escorting her to the tourney. She had a expressionless face but would ocationlly smile at servants or any that stopped to greet her. However when Jaime did notice her glance at him. It almost seemed like she was sad or angry at that. Jaime began panicking. She couldn't know. Could she?

Before they made it to the seats Jaime grabbed her hand and turned her around. Jaime watched Aelinor with pleading eyes as he wanted to have an explanation. "Aelinor" he pleaded. "Tell me whats wrong. Please." Aelinor averted her eyes to the ground and Jaime felt himself want to shout at her to look at him. "You have ignored me. I thought toy loved me?"

That imidiatly made Aelinor look Jaime right in the eyes. Violet agains emerald. Aelinor gives him a scrowl while trying to compose herself to not shout at him. "I do not love you?" She said disbelivable. Jaime furred his eyebrows. "Was it me who had their mouth locked with my own brother?" Aelinor said disgustingly as she slowly backed away to make space between them. Jaime felt guilt and pain rush through his body as he tried reaching for her. She tried walking away from him before Jaime quicly grabbed her once more pinning her to the end of the wall, keeping prying eyes from watching.

"Let me go. Please. I don't want to talk to you" Her voice was soft, close to the tears that Jaime was exuding. Her doe violet eyes pleading for realse. Jaime felt his heart break at the thought of loosing her.

"No. I have to explain first" Jaime cringes at how pathetic he sounds, and for a split second he thinks he sees a flash of guilt cross her features before a cold mask is put on her face. 

Aelinor suddenly feels angre creep into her. She pushed Jaime rughly away as she cursed him in her mind. Damn you, she thought. Why did you have to do this? "What do you feel the need to explain, Jaime? I am just not good enough for you? Is that it? You just played me, thought that you saw your sister insead of me?" She accused while walking away from Jaime.

Jaime felt his heart break once more. His lips were bressed in a thin line and quickly began following her once more. "Aelinor please-"

Aelinor turned around fast and Jaime had to insure that he didn't meet with her chest. He felt Aelinor's eyes burning with hate and her heart broken. "Why don't you escort me back to the seats Ser Jaime? The king is surley waiting for me"

Jaime felt that he needed to explain more and tell her that he loved her. Yet, a part of him knew why she was angry. Jaime was angry at himself too. Jaime felt only the flicker of tears in his eyes

Jaime pushed his tears away and gave a stiff nod,"Of course, princess Aelinor"

Aelinor turned around with hands clenched at her sides as she tried not to shout at him. She soon found her seat which was with the rest of the Royal seats. They were higher up then the rest of the houses considering that they were royals. Jaime placed himself behind her, hand at the hilt of his sword and tugging at it helplessly.

Jaime wanted to attend the joust but the king demanded him to be beside his daughter or he would find himself dead witin the fortnight. But how he felt shame. He wanted to win this entire joust and give her the Crown of Love and Beauty. But Jaime knew no one could beat the Sword of The Morning. Ser Arthur Dayne was a man every boy wanted to be. A man that was strong, brave and loyal. No one had managed to beat him, not even Prince Rhaegar.

This first match was Ser Oswell against a knight. Ser Oswell easly beat him, and Aelinor felt sorry for him. The knight obviously didn't understand the possibilaty of meeting with bigger and stronger knights. The secound match was Ser Lewyn against Ser Barristan. This match was a bit harder considering they were both in the kingsguard. But eventually Ser Bareistan managed to kick him off the horse, bearly. There were a cuple of more matches before the final one came. It was Ser Arthur Dayne against Prince Rhaegar.

Aelinor noticed how people was more excited about this than the rest. More the Lady's than the Lords. The Crown of Love And Beauty was supposed to be given to the most beautiful woman the knight could see. But mostly it was given to someone they fancy. The match was long. Everyones eyes was wide open for which man who was to win. They were people who cheered for Rhaegar but also for Ser Arthur. Aelinor noticed how Ser Arthur road his horse and nearly knocking Rhaegar to the ground. Aelinor noticed that Rhaegar seemed more eager than the other joust he had attented. In the beggining of his teens Rhaegar had refused to even touch a sword, only sticking his norse into books. The king had been furious, screaming and complaining that his heir wont even know how to fight. He made a crude joke saying that a Lady could do even better. But a miracle came and Rhaegar suddenly asked Ser Barristan to ask him how to veild a sword.

They rode against eachother once more before Rhaegar finally managed to knock Arthur to the ground. The croud screamed and cheerd for their prince as he was getting the Crown of Winter roses. It suddenly began to quiet down quickly. Every Lady even weddedones, watched with hawk eyes thinking that he would crown them. But Rhaegar suddenly rode past many beautiful woman, making then scoff and frown. But the unecpected happend. Rhaegar rode past Elia and the croud suddenly held their breaths as they stared at Princess Elia.

Aelinor felt her stomac burn and she glared daggers at Rhaegar. If anyone turned to look at Elia they would see a excpressionless mask plasterd on her face while staring right ahead. She was holding Aegon in her hands as she held Rhaenys hand tighter in her left hand. Rhaegar rode past the royal seats and rode towards the Starks. He put the Crown of Winter Roses in Lyanna Stark's lap while giving her a smile. Aelinor watched as Lyanna blushed and sofly smiled back accepting the crown akwardly.

Suddeny a very loud laugh could be heard. Robert Baratheon had stood up and laughed at Rhaegar. His face then turned furious as he shouted, "How dare you?!" Rhaegar ignored this and gave Lyanna a last look before riding back. There was utterly caos. Brandon Stark had stood up with Robert and shouted at him to come back. Ned Stark was trying to calm then and keping them quiet. While the rest could also hear the furious shouts and threats from Oberyn. Aelinor quickly stod at her feet and grabbed Elia as she watched her with a sad look on her face.

"I'm so sorry Elia"

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Night had fallen upon her and she was seated on a chair watching the sunset. Elia wanted to shout and scream at Rhaegar. Placing the Crown of Love and Beauty on Lyanna Stark's lap? He humilliated not only Elia but the all the Targaryens. Father would be furious claiming him to not be able to rule the seven kingdoms if he can't even keep his cock in his pants. Rhaegar was always said to be noble, loyal and honorable—well, we can see how that went.

"Aelinor," came Rhaegar's voice from beyond the door. He sounded worried, perhaps he had cause to be. She had not left her chambers since she had escorted Elia back to her chambers giving her thousands of apolizies. A part of her yearns to forgive Rhaegar–a sweet and loving sister part of her. But was she willing to forgive him for this? He had destroyed his loyalty towards most of the houses. House Baratheon, Stark and Martell would never be happy to see Rhaegar again. It is funny though. Baratheons and Martells are our cousins. And Rhaegar risked all of this for a Crown of Winter Roses.

The princess said nothing, she simply continued to stare at the beautiful sunset, her back turned to the door. Her mind felt empty, her chest heavy. There was no urge to reply, no will to speak at all. She just wanted to sit and never reply to his demands. Aelinor prayed for the world to stop, that she could have went to him the other night and knocked some sense into him.

The sound of the door opening did not go unnoticed. His hard footsteps came closer to her. "Aelinor," Rhaegar pleaded, indigo eyes like an ocean out to swallow her whole, "You must understand. I did this for us–for the future. You must see that I do this for the grater good," he continued sorrowly, crouching down slowly taking her hands in his, leaning in to stroke her cheek, placing a soft kiss on her forehead. "I did this for us" he continued slowly taking her chin to look at him in the eyes.

"Why are you here? Apoligising to me? Why are you not with Elia?," she shook her head, closing the eyes that looked more blue than violet in the lighting of the room."You are here apolozinsing to me when it is Elia who is hurting snd crying her eyes out."

"I have apologised and–" Aelinor didn't let him finish and shook his hands off of her as she stood up walking to her bed. "So that makes it ok?" Aelinor remarked with a scrowl. "Now everyone gets to know that the crown prince wants a Lady that is hardy even a lady over his own wife with two children" Elia frowned as she noticed her husband's gaze that seemed to penetrate through her very soul. "You have destroyed this all Rhaegar"

Aelinor felt the shame and guilt dripp off of Rhaegar even when having her back to him. But Rhaegar should have known better. Why in the seven hells would he do that? Everyone claimed that he would be the king who is oerfect, loyal and honorable but he already failed at that. He should be ashamed and guilty. Did he think that apologising would make this all okay?

"Leave me please," Aelinor felt that Rhaegar wanted to protest and argue more, but seemed to think not to. Good for him. He turned and walked out the doors, but not before saying two words that would confuse her for the rest of her night.

"I'm sorry,"

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A/N:

!! Warning !!

Okay so i write very fast on my small phone so there WILL be MANY grammar mistakes. But i will not take my time to change them, bc i have to finish this book.

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SO A BIT OF A PERSPECTIVE OF JAIMES SIDE. AND FOR ALL OF YOU ASKING WHY HE DID WHAT HE DID EVEN THOUGH HE LOVES AELINOR, WELL ITS BC -

- THAT HE JUST CANT GET OFF OF THE SPELL HIS SISTER HAS ON HIM. THEY HADN'T SEEN EACHOTHER SINCE WHEN JAIME BECAME A KINGSGUARD AND HE SIMPLY FORGOT HOW SHE WAS GOING TO BE. HE THOUGHT HE HAD CONTROL EVEN THO HE LOVED AELINOR

BUT KREP IN MIND THAT CERSEI HAVE ALWAYS MANIPULATED HIM TO MAKE HIM DO THINGS, MAYBE DEMANDED BUT YA ALL GET IT I HOPE...