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// Ponyboy's Point Of View //

We sat on the bleachers quietly as the next act walked into the gymnasium. It was the Choir and I sat up in my chair smiling lightly, I was excited. The Choir got into their arks and stood there for a minute, they looked so nervous. I looked around in that group until I spotted Johnny, he was looking down, he was nervous like everyone else. I took my eyes off of Johnny and folded my hands in my lap and leaned forward slightly, getting a closer look of the group of kids in general.

The Choir teacher walked and stood in front of them. She raised her hands slightly and tapped her foot to the tempo, it seems slow. The kids started humming out the melody and I don't recognize it at all. I looked at the kid next to me and he looked just as confused as me. I turned my head back to the ground of kids and watched as they started singing.

"Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you"

My eyes went straight to Johnny as I watched him sing. I knew what his voice sounded like and I just focused in that. The group all together was good yet I still listened to only his voice. It was soft and smooth, it was like he was barely singing. I smiled lightly and tapped my fingers on my lap to the tempo. The song continued seconds later.

"And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all"

I related this to Johnny in a way, he acted like this. He thinks that he knows nothing but he is so smart. He is smaller than other boys and gets picked on for it, it makes my blood boil when I see it happening. I wish people would just leave him alone, he doesn't deserve to be beaten and picked at. He's a person, just like everyone else.

"And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl"

There is a lot to learn about being in love, I don't know all of it. I have been in love with people, I am in over with someone at the moment. They don't love me back but I still love them with everything I have. With ever fiber of my being, I care about that person. I want to give them everything that they want.

"Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you"

I'm like a love sick puppy, following him everywhere. He doesn't seem to mind though, he seems to like the company. I always joked around when I was with him, he always gave a cute giggle. It made me smile more everything else, I loved it. Soda explained how it felt to be in love and I related to everything he said.

"And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye"

I love him so much and I know it's not good to be like that. He's the same gender, he could get hurt for being with me, I don't want him getting hurt. If he got hurt it'd tear me apart, it would be my fault. He doesn't love me back anyway. He probably likes some pretty girl roaming the school.

"Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere, I would have followed you
Oh, oh, oh, oh say something, I'm giving up on you"

When he got beat by those Socs, I didn't know what to do. I felt so bad because I wasn't there to protect him, I felt like it was my fault. I hit to see him getting patched up by Darry, I saw the cuts and bruises that they gave him. I saw how much he hurt, how scared that he was. It hurt to see him that way, I wish it was me and not him.

"Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something. . ."

The last little bit of singing wasn't done by the whole Choir. It was Johnny, little, innocent, cute Johnny. He looked up and his eyes meet with mine, I smiled at him. He lifted up his hand and gave a soft wave and a small smile. My face heated up slightly and I felt my ears burning, I bet I was bright red.

The Choir walked out of the gymnasium slowly and like that the event of the night was over. We all did such a great job but I liked the Choir the best. . . The song was great, it made people feel something, it made people emotional. I saw a few people walking past me, they had tears in their eyes and I knew that the Choir was the cause. I walked back to the band room and placed the mallets back to where I had found them and left to find my brothers.

The building was so full of people, it was a bit of a challenge to find them. Waves of people passed me by and bumped into me. My shoulders hurt from being knocked around so much. Final!Y I found my brothers and ran over to them, moving through the people. Darry and Soda patted my back, giving me a big smile.

"You did so good Ponyboy," Soda said messing up my hair.

"Soda not the hair please! I don't like it messed up," I yelled back, swatting his hands and fixing my hair.

"Wow Ponyboy, such a diva," Darry said.

I looked around the room and saw Johnny trying to walk to the door. I gave him a small wave and a smile. He smiled back and I felt my heart melt and my knees buckle. My face burned and I turned to look back at Soda and Darry. They smirked and shook their head.

"Man Ponyboy, your face sure is red," Darry teases.

"Yeah it is Ponyboy. Did you happen to see your future girlfriend," Soda asks.

"I-i. . . Uh yes, yes I did," I said quietly, my face burning more.

"Well, you should bring her over sometime," Darry says smiling.

If only you knew. . .

// Authors Note //

Well, that's not the best but ta-da. I hope you enjoyed this chapter though anyway! I'll see you all soon.

Till then,

~ Stay Gold