sa speaks!!!

i wanted to clarify some things before we dive back in with the second movie, part ONE needs to be read, the others aren't important:

— ONE. apparently i'm a z00phil3? i've been accused of zoophilia, something that disgust me deeply and that i hope nobody really thinks of me.

obviously i'm not, when i wrote this "x reader" i never once imagined me with the main character nor anyone else.

this book is purely for entertainment purposes and it was written by me just because i wanted to, no other reasons.

i absolutely hate to be associated with the term zoophilia, i have two cats and i do horse riding, animals bring me comfort and i would never even think about doing something so hateful to them.

remember that a story is not reality, and most of all remember that words have meaning and weight.

i don't care about those insults but i felt the need to specify and defend myself from such comments about my persona.

you don't even know me, i love you all a lot but we don't know each others, such assumptions shouldn't be made just because of things you see online.

this book started off more as a joke than anything else but i quickly grew to love this story, that's why i keep writing it.

and i felt the need to write a love story in it, to make it interesting, but every sweet or lovely comments with anything non-human is purely because it's a fan fiction.

and remember that the characters are teenager so i based their talking style on how i think people that age speaks!!

and, always because they are teenagers, nothing sexual is going to happen; if and when any comment with a double meaning is made is purely because i found it funny, but that doesn't imply anything between the characters.

— TWO. my writing choices! the reader can be anything you want, it can be an oc, it can be a self insert, i don't care.

i write because i found it fun but it's not my problem what you imagine about my stories; you can be whatever you want, it's fictional, remember?

but, i need some things to write a coherent plot.

some aspects of the reader's personality for example can't be changed because she has to be like that.

the fact that i refer to her as a female is purely because i can't write everting in 'they/them' as it's confusing for me to write and to read.

i'm a raging bisexual, part of the lgbt+ community, i support everything and everyone and i always use the right pronouns.

the problem here is that it gets confusing over time, i know that not anyone refer to themselves as a female but i prefer to write this way.

also, i'm sorry to see that you would never answer like that but it's actually not my problem (jk guys, or maybe not 🤭)

some deep trauma is going on in her mind, like really really reeeeaaaaally deep.

let's do a little round up before we start with the next act, TRAUMA LIST:

i. kidnapped as a child
ii. tortured for months
iii. trained for seven years
iv. actually, tortured for seven years
v. forced drug injections? yep
vi. mental tortures? checked
vii. fighting over and over
viii. she's an assassin, she probably got some more hidden trauma that we still don't know about.
ix. she escapes, now she's a fugitive.
x. has to leave tails, the only one she could trust.
xi. more shits i don't remember, sorry

anyways, because of all this things up here ^^^ that's how I (really important pronoun that i hope you all notice and focus on) think she would act and respond to certain things happening around her, speaking of...

— THREE. reader's mind, why does she act like this? reader's strong and capable, deadly and precise, but she doesn't want to be a killer and she doesn't want to have her hands stained with blood.

she's can use lots of different weapons, she can defend herself and she can save others.

but she doesn't realize that, she doesn't know that she's good deep down.

she thinks that she's simply a murderer because that's what they had indulged her to think, she grew to be a killer, she was raised to be deadly.

why would she be anything else?

she wouldn't. she's all the things listed above, the only thing separating her from the rest of those murderers is that she has an anchor of some sort.

a compass that reminds her of what's good and what's bad.

she doesn't fully understand what is actually good or not but she tries because she wants to be better, she wants to be good.

and that's where our little friend sonic comes in, he's the one that knew her before all the bad things, he's the one that can see inside her walls.

he makes her better, at least for now (wink wink wink) and he helps her understand if something should or shouldn't be done.

then it's up to her to choose the right way.

that is also why even if she is described or referred as some sort of deadly weapon she never actually does anything crazy.

she doesn't like who she is, even if that's the only thing she's good at.

if she has to do it, then she will.

but she's not going to kill everyone with a flick of her finger or a movement of her hand.

ALSO, the only reason she can stop sonic as he's running at full speed is because she knows him.

she knows how his mind works, she knows how he thinks and how he does things.

she can almost predict his moves, that's why she can kick him and punch him even with his super speed on.

remember, she doesn't have any powers and she isn't some sort of god.

— FOUR. other characters! sonic, tails and knuckles.

they are really important to understand the reader in every aspect, every single point of view.

all of them meet her in different times during their lives, they always have the same morals and goals while she changes over time.

first comes sonic, who meets her when they are kids and they both have the same thoughts about the world.

he meets her again after three years spent with tails.

with our favorite fox they meet right after she escapes, she's a completely new person who has completely lost her sense of morality, that until she saves him.

he gives her hope.

and he makes her softer, lot softer.

after she has sweetened up and she has to leave again she meets sonic again, and this is a point in her life in which she can feel she has changed but she can also control what she does.

she isn't a machine anymore.

he comes from the past, he makes her remember how she was, he makes her almost go back to how she was before the tortures and the all the other things.

and then there's knuckles, he meets her at her worsts and he knows it, this doesn't change the fact that he respects her.

he finds her a strong adversary and he reminds her of how she used to act during her years of training, he helps her realize that she was simply lost.

and also, that there's always a good way out.

these are my thoughts, i yap a lot sorry.
loooooveeee youuuuu xoxox