so I know I haven't posted on here in forever but like. hey. what's up

I just wanted to rant for a second because I don't know anymore.

I can't tell if it's my period fucking up my emotions or seeing a project I love (qsmp) kind of fall apart or what but like. I don't know. I genuinely don't feel like I'm doing well.

I'm stressed with schoolwork, I don't know what I want to do with my life or career even though I only have one year of college left, no matter how much sleep I get I'm just tired. I feel no motivation for really anything, which ig is part of the reason I haven't written or updated in like two months. I'm watching my grades slip (I'm being dramatic, my gpa is going to be stable, but yk) in front of my eyes and I don't know how to fix it.

it probably all started in december with my car crash (I'm fine, everything's sorted) that then snowballed into me getting covid and just. my mental feels kind of broken and I've tried doing my favorite things (watch foolish & tubbo, read, talk to my sister, etc.) but it doesn't seem to be doing much anymore.

once again I can't tell if it's my period and how my body's all fucked right now but maybe I just needed to get it off my chest.

anyways! time to go back to pretending everything's fine because that's what I do! :D

thanks for listening, thanks for sticking around 🫶🏻