God's favourite gift.

You could play on the heartstrings of god, to such an extent that he lifts you up into his arms and coddles you in the clouds. Your place could be determined, and stated before your life is even given; and soon enough you found yourself conquering God's one rival.

I could place my mind into the life of another human, tangle my soul above hers as she tried to hide from my sight; and in a single split second she could reach out to me only to disappear from my sight as a ghost of a soul appeared within me. I felt discovered, only to be forgotten- like a true part of me evaporated, dissipating into the horizon of heaven's deadliest curse... loneliness. I could stare into an empty space, and beckon god in the home of ultimate good. I was a part of him, yet was a part of nothing more.

I was a part of something, something I could not fathom to think of for my mind uttered stutters and my world flew to a sudden halt. I could feel my body shift, into discomfort and distortion. My body plucks off my skin, and my bones contort into a sudden feeling as if... sometime ago, there was someone else living in my skin.

Only now, I know it was someone else. Someone who was lonely incarnated, who tangled her flesh with mine in a fury of desire and death. I hated her, I hated her, I hated. As she wrapped her fingers and palm into my white cotton shirt, bleaching my shirt with the fingers of her sin- I felt the ultimate connection between us again. I love her, she is mine, she is me.