Pares

Equals

It was one peck right on the lips, a soft kiss that meant everything. His first kiss with the person he'll have his last.

He leaned back, brain buzzing, lungs working hard to keep him breathing and heart frantic enough to have a heart attack. He leaned back, letting go of Taehyung's hands and laying down, looking at the ceiling. He was shocked, he was in shock, he was... he couldn't think.

He looked at the other side, out the windows, and smiled. All his life just seemed to brighten, the sky could be falling right before his eyes but for him, it looked beautiful, it could be gray and cold but he felt warm all over and energetic enough to stand up and dance.

Slowly, he sat on the bed, carefully looking out the window until his feet were dangling and his hands were on each side of him. He felt so elated, so blissful. He smiled at the beautiful way his heart was pounding in his chest. He bit his lip to keep it down, but he couldn't. He heard movement behind him and he let go of his lip in excitement. He was so happy.

He thought Taehyung would get up and round the bed to face him, but instead, the bed moved a little, and the movement was closer to Jungkook every time until he felt Taehyung kneeling right at his back and his hands held him softly by the arms, caressing them up and down.

- What are you thinking? - Taehyung asked softly, seriously.

- I'm happy. - Jungkook said simply, and his smile grew. Taehyung's hands stopped, and Jungkook could hear a sigh of relief. He giggled, turning his head to the side, only able to see him from his peripheral vision. - What are you thinking? - Taehyung leaned closer to his face, to his lips.

- I think... I want another one. - He said softly and low, smiling.

Jungkook giggled, full of butterflies and he turned his torso just enough to give him another kiss on the lips. Then, he leaned away just enough to look into his eyes, but Taehyung was looking at his lips with half-closed eyes and he shortened their distance again. This kiss was a little different. They were moving softly, it was deeper somehow, and it was really good, it made Jungkook have goosebumps as his breathing got deeper.

Jungkook leaned away, feeling lightheaded as he stood, turning around to face him. Taehyung was kneeling on the bead, and he looked so good like that, but he moved just like Jungkook wanted him to without a word and sat at the edge of the bed in front of Jungkook, leaving him between his legs and holding his waist.

Taehyung grinned. And Jungkook adored the sight.

- Come on, sit. - He said softly.

Judging by the way he didn't let go of his waist, Jungkook knew where he wanted him to sit. Right where he wanted to sit. So, placing his hands on Taehyung's shoulders and without letting go of each other, Jungkook brought one leg up and placed it by Taehyung's side, then the same with the other, and finally, he sat down on his lap without the need for Taehyung to close his eyes.

He placed his hands behind Taehyung's neck and looked down at his clothes.

- You could dress like this more often. - Jungkook grinned and looked at his strong biceps while he heard him chuckle low. Then Taehyung leaned in and gave him a little kiss on the lips.

- Not to work, I couldn't. Since I arrived in England all I wore to go outside were suits. - Jungkook looked at him, confused and lightheaded.

- But you... don't like suits. - That was the impression he got when Taehyung told him about how uncomfortable he felt at the beginning.

- Not much, they make me feel like I have to act way too formal all the time. -

- Not with me, you don't. - Jungkook giggled and was brave enough to lean in himself and kiss him again, to which Taehyung responded eagerly.

- Of course not, - Taehyung leaned away just enough to answer, and Jungkok could feel his breath on his own lips. - I'm rolling on the floor most of the time when I'm with you. - He chuckled and then kissed him again. - If Daphne knew, she would kill me. -

- About being with me or rolling on the floor? - They both had a moment of silence and then exploded in a fit of giggles. They kissed with a smile. But Jungkook placed his hand on the base of Taehyung's neck and softly pushed him away so he could answer.

- I was thinking about the rolling on the floor bit. - Taehyung said once he was able to talk again. - She's the one who chooses them for me. Well, she chooses the color, the fabric, the pattern, and sometimes the... shape? Like, if it's either a three-piece or not. And then I would go to the tailor to get the measurements and stuff. -

Jungkook frowned with a giggle.

- Like her own personal Ken doll. -

Taehyung grimaced and then nodded, but then smiled again.

- But you like to see me like this? -

- Yes, it feels more natural. This looks more like yourself if you ask me. - He looked down at his neck and passed his fingers softly over the hickeys he had made the night before with a flutter on his stomach.

- I also like to see you like this. - Taehyung said in a low voice, slowly leaning in again, caressing his waist up and down. - But I fully know why I like it so much. -

Jungkook looked up at him with a small giggle and stopped him from kissing him again.

- Why? - He asked, curious, and then Taehyung smirked, holding him tight by the waist.

- You're wearing my clothes. -

Jungkook giggled and held Taehyung close to him by the neck, kissing him fleetingly and getting closer to his ear.

- That sounded like you might be a little bit territorial. - They both chuckled and Taehyung's hands got him even closer to him.

- Maybe just a little bit. - He kissed him on the cheek.

Jungkook looked down at Taehyung's neck, right at his hickeys, and again, softly brushed them with a finger.

- I might be too. Just a little bit. -

Taehyung chuckled and leaned back just enough to look him in the eyes.

- I want to ask you something, and I hope the apartment is dark enough for you. -

- Oh. - Jungkook lifted his eyebrows and took a look around the apartment. It was dark, not like nighttime would be but just like the sky was falling outside. It had been some time since it rained, maybe it built up to this. - Ok, ask me. - He looked back down at Taehyung, not entirely prepared.

- I'll say it fast ok? - Jungkook giggled and nodded. - Whydon'tyouwanttotakeyourclothesoff? -

- Damn, that was fast. - They both laughed, and slowly, very slowly, Jungkook realized what he had said. - Oh! - Now he was blushing, averting his eyes, and giggling stupidly while Taehyung was chuckling happily. - Look, if it was just that easy to tell you then it wouldn't be hard to just show you. - He saw Taehyung 's small grimace.

- Is it hard to talk about? -

Jungkook thought about it and shook his head.

- Not hard as in painful, just... embarrassing more than anything. -

- Like a... scar or a birthmark? - He looked serious about the subject, surveying it carefully.

- No, no, I don't have any, like, big scars or anything. Or birthmarks. I do have moles but they're tiny. -

- Yeah, you do. - Taehyung chuckled and started to poke softly at them with "One here". On his right cheek, on the left side of his neck and, very softly, he touched the one beneath his bottom lip, then smiled up at him. - I think they're very cute. So why is it? -

Jungkook averted his eyes.

- Partly, it's because no one else has seen me like that. I don't even take my shirt off when I go to a pool, which is not often, so obviously, it makes me nervous. Don't you feel nervous just thinking about it? - He looked up at Taehyung and he was looking at him so softly, so adoringly.

- No. - He said simply with a soft smile, caressing his waist and leaning in to kiss him. But Jungkook moved his head so he would kiss his cheek instead.

- How? - He asked in a tiny voice.

Taehyung chuckled, leaning away, then tilted his head.

- I don't really know. - His eyes softly looked to the side, like trying to find out why he wasn't feeling nervous. - I just feel comfortable with you. - He looked back at Jungkook with a shrug.

- Have you been with anybody else like that? Aside from that one time. - That "Graduation" time.

Taehyung shook his head.

- No. I did have a lot of advances but they all made me feel uncomfortable. - He chuckled and Jungkook lifted his eyebrows but then rolled his eyes with a grin.

- I shouldn't be surprised. - Taehyung chuckled and kissed him on the cheek. - What was the craziest one? Aside from me. - They both laughed and Taehyung hugged him, swaying a little from side to side.

- Well, one was a school girl. - Jungkook gasped and leaned away enough to look at him. - Another was the wife of a colleague of mine. - Jungkook covered his mouth with a surprised giggle. - Yeah, highly uncomfortable. - He grimaced and then chuckled. Jungkook finally let go of his mouth, but he was still shocked. - So no, I haven't been with anybody. Does that ease your nerves a little bit? Knowing I don't know any more than you? -

His hands went up and down his back once, but it was enough to take the breath out of Jungkook momentarily. He frowned remembering "how stupid he had been for not realizing it sooner" and looked with a blush at Taehyung's neck.

- You do know more than me. You've had more time thinking about how to do things, I just started thinking in that direction one day ago. Or just one hour ago. - He mumbled the last part, but he was sure Taehyung could hear him because of how close they were.

- Kooky, don't worry about it. Please don't feel pressured. -

- I'm not pressured, I'm frustrated. - His frown deepened and he pouted. He wasn't pressured, he wanted to do it badly, he wanted to do it all, he was even curious to know if it felt good to take it, it was just his nervousness about him shaving that wouldn't let him, but he wanted to do it, really, really bad.

- Frustrated... physically? - Taehyung asked low and with his eyes half closed in question.

Jungkook tilted his head back and looked at the windows with a deep breath.

- Yep. -

- Ok, I'm just trying to understand here, alright? But you can stop me if you want to. -

- What is it? - Jungkook looked at him, he had a small grin on his face.

- So you do want to with me. -

Jungkook blushed and giggled nervously, averting his eyes again.

- Yes? -

- "Yes?" Is that a maybe? -

Jungkook looked down at him a little offended.

- Of course not maybe, I wouldn't be sitting right here wearing your clothes if you were just a maybe, you have always been a yes. I'm just nervous. -

But Taehyung laughed, and he couldn't blame him, with the way he had said that with so much determination it didn't look like he was nervous at all.

- Glad to hear that. You're also a yes, by the way. - Jungkook's momentary frown disappeared and he giggled. - Ok, so it's not about some mark on your skin, not wishing to do it, or you being unsure about me, am I right? -

Jungkook thought it over.

- Yes. - Then he realized something and he cut Taehyung off. - You're trying to get it out of me. - He grinned in disbelief. Taehyung wanted to know exactly why he didn't want to take his clothes off.

- I said you could stop me. - Taehyung grinned too.

- I'm stopping you. - They both laughed.

- Ok. Ok. - He said, shrugging. But then Jungkook got worried about something.

- Do you... - He saw him lifting his eyebrows, waiting for him to continue, but Jungkook felt too nervous to say it to his face, so he neared his ear. - Why do you want to know so badly? - He changed his question, talking in a low voice and caressing Taehyung's neck.

- My main concern was knowing if it was because you felt uncomfortable with me. -

- In the slightest. -

- There, I feel better now. - They chuckled, but Jungkook's question wasn't really answered.

- That was your main concern. Did you have something else in mind? -

Taehyung's hands went up and down again, but slower. He had to hold onto Taehyung's shoulders to stop himself from shivering.

- I think you're trying to ask me something else. You know you can tell me anything, Kooky. Ask me. - His voice was reassuring and it wasn't until his hands were again on Jungkook's waist that he was able to answer.

- Ok. Umm... it's just that... Give me a second. - He had been worried about Taehyung feeling frustrated because he didn't want to take off his clothes yet, but with the way he had been so caring and loving, his worries had gone away again. Now, he wasn't worried anymore. - No, nothing. Don't worry. - And he leaned back again to look him in the eyes, but Taehyung looked like he didn't believe that.

- Are you sure? No more questions? -

Maybe just one.

- Why did you want to know so badly? -

- So if it was something you didn't feel confident about, I could make you change your mind by showing you how much I love you. - Taehyung had said that so softly and full of adoration looking at him right in the eyes, that it made Jungkook's heart skip a beat. He wanted to know what his insecurities were so he could love him... Jungkook looked a little by the side, averting his eyes but not moving his face away, and Taehyung took that chance to kiss him fast on the lips. He giggled, but then got pensive again.

- I do feel confident about my physical appearance, and I don't have any marks I feel embarrassed about. - He said that low, so low that the rain was louder, but Taehyung's ears were so focused on him that he caught every word.

- That's very good, I love when you feel confident. - Taehyung said just as low, and Jungkook looked at him, not knowing what to do.

- Do you not like it when I'm nervous? -

- When you're nervous, I want to be there to help you and protect you, which is something that I adore to do as well, so no, I haven't found anything about you that could ever displease me. And I never will. - He kissed him softly. Then leaned back again to look at him.

- Ok. - Jungkook took a deep breath and mustered up all the courage he had. - I'm nervous... about your reaction. - Taehyung stood still for a while.

- Oh, Jungkook... Kooky... - He smiled and shook his head. - You're nervous I wouldn't like you? - Jungkook averted his eyes and nodded softly. - That's impossible, believe me. - He kissed his cheek. And again, and again, until he had Jungkook giggling. Then, he leaned back with a smile. - You are just... so beautiful. You... you, you, all is you, that's all that matters. - And Taehyung hugged him tight with the biggest smile on his face, filled with nothing but happiness.

Jungkook was... hugging him softly, adoringly, lovingly, smiling with happiness that could only come out of his heart.

- Ok, I'll show you. - When those words left his mouth, there was a second of total silence where he even thought God stopped the rain to see if he had heard correctly. And then, when Jungkook realized what he had said, he gasped, letting go of Taehyung and covering his face with his hands.

- So there is something you don't feel confident about. - Taehyung said with an audible smile, he was surprised too.

- Oh no. - He giggled and Taehyung kissed the back of his hand on his face.

- Come on, tell me. Or show me. Whatever you want. I just want you to be comfortable with me, that's all I want. -

- I am comfortable with you. - He mumbled behind his hands.

- Then let me prove your worries wrong. Let me show you the reaction of someone that wants to see you. - Then he grabbed Jungkook's wrists and gently tugged a little until Jungkook let his hands fall and his face could be seen. - But please, I'm not trying to pressure you into doing anything you don't want to do--

- No, no, I'm not pressured. You're saying the right words. - Jungkook said that low while he thought of something that could show Taehyung what he was hiding and at the same time not feel so nervous about it. Finally, an idea came to him and he nodded. - Give me one hand and close your eyes. - Taehyung chuckled once, sounding a little nervous, and gave him one hand to hold while the other one was on his waist.

Jungkook took a deep breath, still nervous, but now with excitement. He wanted to see Taehyung's reaction, watch his eyes fill with desire when he saw the body Jungkook man-crafted. He was nervous, but still excited, and, most of all, curious.

While he held Taehyung's hand in one of his own, the other hand went to his ankle and rolled up his sweatpants, revealing some part of his soft, white, calf. He took a deep breath, his heart in his throat, looked up at Taehyung who was still with his eyes closed, his lips tight together, and, slowly, he guided Taehyung's hand to his calf. He placed it there and let go, bringing his hands up to his chest as if he had just let go of a grenade.

Taehyung's hand was frozen for a second, there in his leg, maybe trying to figure out if he should and could move, but then, he moved one finger, and his tight lips parted a little in surprise. Jungkook put his hands tight over his mouth.

- Is this... - Taehyung's voice was low and deep. - ...your leg? -

There were some seconds when Jungkook couldn't answer, but then he let go of his mouth.

- ...yes. - He answered in a whisper, but Taehyung heard it, he was sure of it in the way he took a sharp intake of breath and moved one finger again.

- Can I.... Can I open my eyes? - Again there were some moments before Jungkook could answer. He was examining Taehyung's expression and posture as best as he could, but there was no discomfort, just curiosity, and he even looked like he could be out of breath.

- Yes. -

As soon as he answered, Taehyung opened his eyes to look at him, and then immediately leaned closer so he could see where his hand was. He moved his fingers softly over the skin, making a shudder run through Jungkook's spine. Jungkook held onto his shoulders while the latter's other hand went around his waist to hold him close, his eyes glued to the skin of his calf.

- You were nervous about showing me this? - Taehyung's voice had a purr to it, it was soft and loving, he was right by his ear, looking down by his shoulder, and Jungkook answered in a whisper.

- Yes. -

Taehyung took a deep breath, the hand around his waist getting comfortably tighter.

- You have two reasons why you shouldn't be nervous about this with me. - Taehyung started while his hand got bolder, touching more skin with more of his own, making Jungkook lose his breath. - The first reason is that I do this too. - Jungkook gasped silently, his eyes widening.

- No, you don't. - He said that fast and disbelieving, surprised beyond reason. But Taehyung just nodded.

- This is rather common in South Korea. - Jungkook gasped again, and then smiled in disbelief, in total and utter disbelief, but, oh, so happy, and so, so, grateful. - And, the second reason... that I didn't even know until right now... - Jungkook's smile stuttered as another rush ran through him. The touch on his virgin skin was making him lightheaded. - Is that... just thinking about how you'd look... just the thought of it... -

Jungkook's skin was starting to warm up along with Taehyung's and he looked to the side at him. Taehyung was watching with foggy eyes the place where his hand was now touching with his whole palm up and down, trying to touch more, wanting to touch more, biting his bottom lip, breathing deeply.

Suddenly, he stopped, he closed his eyes, letting go of his lip, lifting his hand from Jungkook's skin, and then resting his forehead on his shoulder.

- Sorry... I lost myself a little bit there. - Taehyung said, slightly out of breath.

With the way Taehyung wanted him so badly, with the way he had said how he was about to lose it just by touching a small part of his skin, with the way Jungkook knew there was nothing to fear with him, there were no nerves in Jungkook anymore, just longing.

- Why don't you lose yourself a little bit more? - Jungkook said low, just above a whisper, in Taehyung's ear. Taehyung lifted his head, and he did look a little high on the feeling.

- You're not nervous anymore? - His hands went to his waist, grabbing him closer to him, and Jungkook shook his head bringing his hands up to the back of Taehyung's head and brushing his hair, the fluttering in his stomach growing pleasantly. - And no one's waiting for you? -

Oh, he knew what Taehyung was asking. And he leaned closer to him, their lips just a movement away.

- No. - He breathed out, feeling Taehyung's hands going up and down hard over the fabric of his shirt, knowing what Taehyung wanted was to feel his skin, and wanting him to do it; wanting him, desiring him.

There were no nerves, he was sure. The only thing that had been pulling him back was the fear of Taehyung's rejection, but now he knew there was nothing to fear. There was no pulling back, no appointments, they were at his apartment with the pouring rain drowning out any loud noise and concealing any ray of sun that could make Jungkook feel shy.

Taehyung bit his bottom lip as he dragged his nails slowly down Jungkook's clothed back.

Garrett looked around, knowing he'd been advised against doing exactly what he was about to do. But the rain outside had come unannounced. And the wildlife surrounding Evanthe cowered from this uninvited entity.

Knock, knock.

- It's Garrett. - He announced himself. He could only be calm by the fact that the second floor of the Students' rooms was deserted. The elders told him not to make it obvious that he knew any Protectors.

Footsteps were heard on the other side of the door, the door opened, and the moment Yoongi saw him there, he rolled his eyes and tried to slam the door on his face. But, knowing he would react that way, Garrett stopped it with his foot.

- Let him in. - Hoseok said calmly from the inside.

And Garrett walked in. 

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