I was no longer paying attention to what Nurbahar is saying, I am really worried about what will happen.. Did I just reject a Prince's request five minutes ago! Damn, my mission is to stay close to him, not to distance myself from him out of jealousy. I came out of my thoughts after hearing:

"BEHOLD! Şehzade Mehmet hazretleri"

Damn I am afraid that he will put me in an embarrassing situation in front of this girl!

We stood up quickly and when he opened the door I saw Mehmet looking a bit angry, he didn't even look at the girl next to me as if he was here for my sake, for the mistake I made, but I am not what he thinks, I am not Eylem or one of his idiots, he doesn't know that I get whatever I want.

"Hatun" he said as he approached me and put his hands behind his back "I see that you are fine and not busy"

I moved my head without raising my eyes "Yes, thank God, I am fine"

He raised his eyebrow in surprise "Then why didn't you come?"

I raised my head and tried to look as confident as possible "Your highness, I don't feel like it"

This time I actually saw the anger in his eyes, he moved closer to me until I could feel his breath "Are you crazy or what!"

I shrugged "Maybe I don't know" I looked at the girl next to me and looked back at him with a fake smile on my lips and I felt that he actually understood what the problem was.

Without realizing it he took my hand and dragged me behind him quickly, I didn't want to be exposed to an embarrassing situation in front of everyone so as we passed through the Harem I tried not to look at anyone even though I felt that everyone's eyes were watching us especially as he held my hand and dragged me, he didn't even give me the chance to think or refuse this! After a short while and because of his quick steps we had already reached his suite.

He let go of my hand and started moving in front of me impatiently "So what's the problem, Nurgül?"

I really don't know what to say to him, I saw a glass of water on the table, I took it and drank from it to calm down a little then I looked at him "I'm upset these days"

He raised his eyebrows and looked very serious "What's bothering you?"

Why is he pretending as if nothing happened!..

I spoke loudly without realizing it "Are you serious! Just a few days ago you were telling me that you would make me yours and we would have a beautiful family, you told me that you wanted me" My eyes started to fill with tears and this was something I didn't want to happen, I hate being in a moment of weakness so I turned to the other side "Okay I don't want to do this, I don't want any problems with you and I know very well my place here and that I have already crossed my boundaries I am not your wife or something to hold you accountable"

He sighed a little then approached me and turned me towards him "Nurgül" He said in a calm voice while wiping my tears "You could have said from the beginning that you felt jealous" I wanted to interrupt him but he continued his words "You shouldn't have refused my invitation to you and all I did was follow the rules I didn't know that it would bother you" He placed a warm kiss on my forehead then looked back into my eyes "I still stand by my words and I want us to have a big and beautiful family and who knows maybe you will be my wife"

I looked into his eyes as I tried to speak calmly "The place where I come from is very different, there a woman doesn't have to share her man with other women while here you have an entire harem and this is something I will never get used to"

He ran his fingers through my hair then smiled as he said "If you were by my side I wouldn't need other women"

Moments like these when Mehmet shows me care and love, I feel very guilty, I don't even deserve a single look from him.

"I want to be by your side every minute and every day for the rest of my life" That's exactly what I wanted, I put my head on his chest then wrapped my arms around him.

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Today since I woke up I felt a lot of anxiety and happiness at the same time, I decided that I would cancel those bad thoughts and I wouldn't think about anything except that I would be myself today, as if I were Charlotte, without any threats or pressures.

I will spend the night with Mehmet, after thinking a lot about my feelings I knew that I want him and I want to be his, I don't care what happens after that or how I will solve this big problem.

After lunch I went with a few maids to the hammam and spent a lot of time there, I really started to like this place more than the baths of Europe. After finishing, Cemre Kalfa accompanied me to one of the rooms where I will get ready, she was talking a lot and trying to impose her taste and decisions on me, she even chose a red dress for me and I really don't like this color very much.

"Cemre Kalfa I don't want this ring, it doesn't even match the necklace!" I said with annoyance.

She raised her eyebrows angrily "You really are a tasteless girl, just a poor person who doesn't know anything about elegance"

I looked at her from top to bottom "Look who's talking, the queen of elegance, I even heard that sultanas and queens take inspiration from you" I laughed when I saw that the maids started laughing.

She raised her finger in annoyance "You really have a long tongue"

I put on some perfume then smiled with satisfaction at my reflection in the mirror and left the room with Cemre Kalfa and two other maids.. A few moments later I was standing in front of his room's door and at this moment only I knew that what I was about to do would change my entire life, if my family knew about it, they would probably erase my name from the family records... I sighed a little as I pushed these thoughts away, smiled a little then moved my head for them to open the door.

"Your highness" I said, lowering my head.

"Nurgül, come closer" he spoke in a calm and beautiful voice that made me fall in love with him for the thousandth time.

I moved a little closer to him and then did exactly as Cemre Kalfa told me and when I finished, I raised my eyes to look into his eyes.

He smiled as he ran his fingers over my cheek and then said jokingly "It seems that this time you memorized the instructions well"

I laughed a little "Yes, Cemre Kalfa was screaming all the time to make sure that I heard her well"

He couldn't stop his laughter so I joined him, then he placed a soft kiss on my lips and whispered "You make me happy"

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I

n the morning, after I had breakfast with him, he left for his work while I returned to the Harem where I could notice everyone's jealousy and envy... while all I could think about was how hot, kind and affectionate Mehmet is and with one touch from him I feel like a butterfly flying among the flowers..

I went straight up to my room but when I opened the door I found a girl I had never seen before standing in front of my bed, when she saw me her face turned pale as if she had seen a ghost or something.

"Who are you and what are you doing here?" I said in surprise as I approached her.

She nodded her head with a strange smile "I was just checking if there were any dirty clothes to collect and take to the laundry"

I raised my eyebrows "Is that your job?"

She nodded quickly "Yes exactly" As soon as she finished speaking she quickly left the room while I felt like she was lying.

I went and checked that my diary was in its place then I took advantage of the empty room and started writing in it.

|After one month|

Not much happened except that I spent all nights with Mehmet and during the day I would sleep, talk to Ayse or write in my diary, also Nurbahar says that my embroidery skills have become very good and of course the credit goes to her.

This morning I woke up feeling some pain in my stomach and head, I stood up to drink some water but I noticed that there was a small paper next to my pillow, I was very surprised then I opened it to read what was inside.

[Charlotte

You must have forgotten why we sent you there, it seems that you liked the atmosphere very much, did you forgot your mother and sisters? If so, let us know so that we can get rid of them... Remember well that we are very close to you and we have spies there everywhere, so carry out your mission or we will have to get rid of you and that prince]

This is what I was most afraid of, I cannot escape the past no matter what I do. I burned the paper while my heart was burning too, because I do not want to hurt Mehmet in any way.

I tried to hide my sadness, then put a shawl over my head after deciding that I needed to breathe some air in the garden. As I was passing through the middle of the Harem, Eylem stopped me, standing in front of me and placing her hand on her belly, in fact this is all she does all the time, it seems that this pregnancy is her greatest achievement.

"You look sad and pale" she said with fake sadness "Is your time with the şehzade over and he doesn't want you anymore?"

I smiled a little even though I was feeling tired "You are the last person I want to see right now" I looked at her from top to bottom "If your time with his Majesty ended so quickly then rest assured that mine will last a lifetime"

She raised her finger looking annoyed, she always tries to annoy me but ends up looking sad "Respect yourself and don't talk to a pregnant woman like that"

I was about to answer her but I felt dizzy.

Before I could control myself I had already lost consciousness.

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I opened my eyes and by seeing the ceiling I knew that I was in my room and must be in my bed now, I turned to see two women standing next to me in addition to Ayse and Nurbahar.

"Thank God she regained consciousness" Ayşe said smiling and making sure that I was okay.

"What's the matter!" I said in surprise, I know that since I woke up my head was hurting, but I did not expect it to develop to the point that I would lose consciousness, I turned quickly when I heard the door and it turned out that it was Mehmet.

"I just returned to the palace, what's wrong!" He asked worriedly as he looked at me without paying attention to everyone who was bowing to him.

I started talking while putting my hand over his hand "I was a little sick and I must have..."

I did not finish my words because the doctor interrupted me and said "Congratulations, Your highness, Nurgül Hatun is pregnant"

I did not expect this even in my dreams! My God, I do not even know how I should react, should I be happy or sad!

Mehmet smiled and his face looked very bright "Great news" He raised my hand then placed a kiss on it "Congratulations to us, butterfly"

I smiled happily when I saw his happiness then whispered tiredly "Our dream has come true"

He nodded in agreement then placed a kiss on my forehead "You look tired, you need some rest"

Before he got up from beside me I looked at everyone in the room then looked at him again "Mehmet, I have a request"

He ran his fingers over my cheek "You can ask for whatever you want"

I sighed a little knowing that if they knew I was pregnant they would get rid of my family, me and Mehmet as soon as possible so I needed to keep my pregnancy a secret as spies are everywhere here.

I put his hand on my belly "I don't want anyone to know about my pregnancy, you know that there are many envious people, even where I come from we have a tradition that a woman hides her pregnancy for the first months until God blesses her with that pregnancy and she gives birth to her child in a good health" Well that was just a lie, in our country there is no such thing, but I need to convince him.

Mehmet nodded his head and he seemed very understanding then turned to those standing behind him "I don't want this secret to get out of this room"

They all nodded then he turned to me again "Okay butterfly we will hide it and enjoy it alone"

I smiled and felt happy then after a long hug I watched him leave the room so I could rest, I wanted to reward the doctors for this wonderful news but they told me that the prince will actually take care of this matter and he must give them very large rewards especially since they will keep this secret with us.

"Congratulations!" Ayse said as she sat next to me.

I smiled slightly "Thank you Ayse, you are really a kind and supportive person"

She put her hand over mine "of course I'm, if Alice was here she would be so happy!"

I nodded in agreement "Yes I wish she was here"

Ayse laughed as if she remembered something "I really can't wait to see Eylem's reaction when she finds out" She raised her eyebrows "But it's a good thing you hid it, that woman is crazy and could put you and your child in danger"

"Yes exactly, so it's my responsibility to protect this innocent child" I sighed as if I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders, how am I going to protect him when I'm not even able to protect myself, his father doesn't really know who I am and if he did, I think he'd end my life.

She nodded "Yes, if someone asks us why you lost consciousness, we'll tell them that you were poisoned by food"

After we finished talking, I slept well because I was feeling tired, then in the evening I went to Mehmet's chamber, eating dinner with him became a habit.

"Come on, stand up, I have something for you, butterfly" He said after he finished eating, then took my hand to stand up.

I smiled excitedly because I really like surprises "What is it?"

"You'll see" he opened a small box and took out a beautiful bracelet "I planned to give it to you and it happened that the day it arrived was the same day we learned about your pregnancy"

I couldn't take my eyes off the gift "What a coincidence.." I raised my eyes to meet his "You are really kind, handsome, affectionate, polite and charming I really couldn't find any negative things in you"

Mehmet smiled as he put the bracelet in my hand "Oh, if bringing a gift will make you compliment me like this then I will bring you gifts every day"

I smiled as I placed a kiss on his cheek "I can compliment you all the time without needing any gifts"

He put his hands around my waist as he whispered "How can a girl be this beautiful and this delicate"