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𝙎𝙄𝙓 𝙈𝙊𝙉𝙏𝙃𝙎 𝘼𝙂𝙊

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𝗦𝗔𝗡 𝗗𝗜𝗘𝗚𝗢, 𝗖𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗢𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗔

"So, when will you finally be back home to help me shop for our babies' furniture for their room? When I'm finally in labor?" I asked Colton sarcastically as he got ready for work

He had been working 12-hour shifts the past two weeks and it's like all of our plans from the week he first came home have gone out the window.

And it stung because I felt like I was in this alone.

Ignoring me, my husband just continued getting ready causing me to snap for his attention and him to look over and say irritably, "What?"

"I have to go shopping for our babies' nurseries and I'd really like for you to be with me. I've been getting sicker lately and need your help" I said as he continued ignoring me

"Forget about it. I don't even know why I bother" I mumbled

"I don't know why either" He rebutted causing my eyes to water

"How much do you want?" Colton queried causing me to rebut, "What do you mean?"

"How much do you want for this shopping spree you're about to go on? That's the only reason you are asking me to come with you" He asked as he began straightening up his shirt

"So is that what you think of me?!" I asked with my eyebrow to raising in anger as I slid out of bed now fuming

"You're such an asshole." I mumbled going toward our closet before he grabbed my arm and said, "Dinah, what did you just say to me?!"

"I said 'You're such a fucking asshole'!" I then said raising my voice a bit more and snatching away walking into our closet

"But I have a problem? Meanwhile, you're throwing a fucking temper tantrum over nothing. You need to grow the fuck up, Dinah." He rebutted

"Yeah, and you need a fucking therapist!" I retorted as he walked into the closet leaning against the doorway watching me change

"Maybe we should go together, baby, because you're no fucking saint; you're clingy and annoying. So, do you think they have a cure or therapy for that because I hate that I married you sometimes" He then said causing silent tears to immediately stream from my eyes as I physically felt my heart break

Immediately noticing my expression his eyes softened as he stammered, "D, I didn't mean-" beginning to make his way to me causing me to whimper between my cries, "Please just leave"

"No, Dinah, I'm so sorry." He said as he wrapped his arms around me causing me to almost shudder from the frigid touch of his soul and hands

"Get off of me!" I then said as I pushed him off of me causing him to look at me with a scrambled expression before he tried to hand me his card while saying, "Get whatever you want...I have to go to work"

"I don't want your money. I don't even want you near me right now!" I wept as I wiped my continuous tears

"I love you" He then said emotionlessly before walking out leaving me to myself

I couldn't believe him. This wasn't the man I married. I married a vulnerable, loving man and that's not who I was sleeping next to at night.

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"Well, you know I can hang out with you all you need I'm still on leave because of injury in battle," Ross said with a smile as we walked through this furniture store

"Well I appreciate it since my husband doesn't seem too interested" I replied

"He being a meanie?" Ross then asked

"Mean is an understatement. He told me this morning that sometimes he wishes he didn't marry me." I said sitting down on one of the chairs; feeling my feet beginning to swell and ache as my eyes watered once more

"I'm sorry about that Dinah" Ross said with an apologetic expression

"I keep praying and asking God to salvage our marriage...and it's like things are just getting worst and Colton doesn't even care enough to attempt to get help," I said as my eyes teared up once again

"Dinah, everything's going to be fine..." Ross said empathetically as he placed his hand on my leg now kneeling next to me

"No, Clay, I don't think it's going to be this time. And if I'm being honest I wouldn't know how to be without him...he's the world and everything in it to me and that's why it hurts so much. I bring him up at his lowest and now he just lets me down in return yet when I think about how his smile can light my mind and soul or how his kiss can halt my breathing and pivot my heart it gives me more than a million reasons to want to continue to be there because me and Colton are a once a lifetime kind of love and how he feeds and nurtures my spirit will for eternity be something another will be unable to do for me. He has issues but my boundless love for him has disabled my rationality and held me hostage in that treasure chest he has for a heart." I ranted -tears still running- feeling nothing more than pitiful

Ross did nothing but hug me as I cried, "You're so strong" He said

"I just want my husband back" I sobbed

"You'll get him in due time, sweetheart, just focus on those miracles inside of you," Ross said as he gently rubbed my back

A/N: Dinah's going through it :/ What do you guys think? What about Colton's hurtful statement? Do you all think it'll get worse or better? Remember to vote, comment, and share!! Love yaaa🖤🖤🖤