Arachnology ... I desire to become an arachnologist ... I want to know ... what is your desire and what do you wish to be ... just curious is all ... my biggest fear used to be spiders ... they were always killed whenever they were spotted ... I was even forced to kill one once with a plastic hammer from an electronic "board" game ... spider blood and guts ... oh god on my face ... I don't like to remember that detail ... have you ever been bite by a spider ... if not ... I don't see how people could possibly be scared of them ... except ... if you have a fear of insects ... their legs ... their eyes ... their body ... everything about them ... their appearance  may be frightening ... but think about the inside and the outside ... people have pressured me so much and forced me to believe spiders were basically creatures from Hell ... killing ... all of them ...

That's the point ... everyone wants them dead ... everyone hates them ... everyone is terrified of the outside of them ... I got out of it ... I have this ... what shall I call this ... a net habitat ... full of them ... I bring them outside from the cold and all that wants to eat them ... from their wandering minds of crawling into houses for warmth to be slaughtered ... and to a small sanctuary where all of them can live in peace and harmony ... I feed them mosquito eaters on a daily basis so they do not starve ... I really do desire on becoming an arachnologist ... I want to learn more about them ... but what do I do with them after their dead ...

It's quite a disturbing fact really ... I keep them still ... in a jar ... but why on Earth would I do that ... I'm still learning about potions and such and I'm wondering if any of them require spiders ... or I shall keep them just because I don't know why ... none of them are poisonous ... they are quite terrified of anyone ... I got used to feeding them ... of course I have to get them away from the entrance of the net they crawl in ... but once you get anywhere near them, they crawl away from you terrified ... they only bite in defense because they're terrified of you and what you might do to them ... I never put them in a tank ... I know that's a proper habitat ... but a lot of these spiders back legs don't work and this net helps them climb and spin their webs as they please ...

I do not keep eggs ... I release them outside where they can grow ... they will escape from the tiniest spaces and get loose in the house ... I cannot keep them in containers ... I also do not know how to keep them alive or how to feed them ... I wish I knew ... I'd have different types of bug eggs by now ... if only ... yeah a lot of them are cannibals ... I don't mind ... because ... sometimes I cannot provide them with enough food ... that sounds wrong ... cannibalism is wrong just I sometimes cannot provide food for my spiders ... it devastates me as well ...