Konnichiwa Minna... I am totally in the writing mood... last chapter Lucy kinda... confessed her feeling but I didn't give Natsu's reaction... so I'm gonna start with that... also... this is gonna have more flashbacks... Gomen... I had a great dream and was like... I have to use this in my fan fiction... but it was kinda sad...I'm really sorry about making Lucy try to commit suicide... BTW I'm like really mad @ Lisanna because of last chapter... I almost broke my keyboard cause Lisanna made Natsu do that... grrrrrrrrrr... but then I was like... why am I mad... I wrote that -_- anyways NALU 4EVA

I have no idea when I'm gonna update... it'll be in the next 3 days... or 2 days... most likely tomorrow =D

I also added a video... YES A NALU VIDEO... MONSTER... <3

I added an external link... I was looking through wiki and was like OMG there is a whole page on wiki about NaLu <3... sadly there is NaLi, but at least there is a page on NaLu <3

I have horrible grammar and spelling so Gomen ne when it comes to that

DISCLAIMER: If I owned Fairy Tail... Natsu and Lucy would have children by now

I dedicate this to my distant cousin... he showed me my first episode of Fairy Tail... Arigato Ken

Feedback is always appreciated... enjoy reading.

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 (peeps... please read the Authors Notes... they have very important info... thxs)

STILL FLASHBACK

NATSU POV

I couldn't breathe... Lucy liked me... "What about Lisanna?" a voice asked me, "don't u care about her?"

"What about Lucy?" I asked it.

"Who care about her"

"I do"

"No you don't!"

"Yes I do"

"If you resist I won't let you think that"

"I WILL ALWAYS CARE"

I felt a sharp pain in my head... it was torturous, it hurt so bad.

"Give in"

"AGHHH"

Then my mind went fuzzy... I didn't really care anymore... All I could think about was Lisanna... Lisanna!... LISANNA... LISANNA!!!! I wanted to kiss Lisanna... I wanted to kiss her now... it was my goal... my one and only desire.

The voice stopped talking and I stared at gramps.

He looked back at me... I tossed the note in the trash can and said 3 words that I would later regret "I don't care"

He looked at me with a shocked expression on his face. I showed no emotion. I just walked out of the room, down the stairs, and out of the guild. I walked up to Lisanna and ran with her... I sat on the bench in the garden and we talked.

LUCY POV

I walked to the garden, Erza was keeping watch from a Lacrima she had. If I dare kill myself I would be paralyzed. I was walking when I heard Natsu's voice I quickly followed it, but I wish I hadn't.

Before I knew it tears were running down my cheeks. Right then and there my broken heart was now officially broken beyond repair, because right then and there Lisanna Strauss and Natsu Dragneel had kissed.

Natsu turned his head my way and saw me tears running down my cheeks. I took off.. today was the worst day ever. I ran and I ran.

I ran to the cliff, The cliff was a sheer drop... it was called Widow's Peak... If I actually survived the fall, I would die because of the sharp rocks. I turned around. Natsu was running towards me, I stared at him tears running down my face onto my white satin dress. The wind blowing my hair. "Goodbye" was all I said. "LUCYY" Natsu shouted (A/N: he had snapped out of the trance when he kissed Lisanna.) I fell I felt my body paralyze, Erza had tried to stop me but it was too late, my body was starting to fall, Natsu reached out for my hand, he reached for my hands but instead felt my finger tips slip from his grasp, I smiled the as hard as I could (which was only a little bit) and mouthed the words I love you.

Suddenly Erza came and picked me up. She put me on the top of the hill where Natsu was. When I was put down, I could move again. I dropped to my knees and crawled over to the edge of the cliff. Natsu came up to me and held me back.

"GO AWAY!!!!!!!" I screamed "GO WITH LISANNA FOR ALL I CARE... LET ME DIE... JUST LET ME DIE..." I struggled to get out of his grasp but he wouldn't let go. "I WANT TO DIE... IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK FOR??? WHY DO I NEED TO LIVE???..." He punched me and slowly the world around me dimmed... I could see Levy, Wendy, Gray, Happy, and the rest of the guild... I whispered "N-nat-s-su" then everything went dark.

END OF FLASHBACK

NORMAL POV

Natsu kept hitting the barrier... by then there was a humongous crack in the runes.

Freed had used his best rune and Levy and him had triple checked it... How Natsu was doing this was unknown... everyone knew he had gone into dragon force... his canines were longer, he had scales on his face, and his eyes where mean, cold, and soulless.

Happy had ran away a little while ago scared that Natsu would kill him, but he knew there was no escape his transformation would end soon and Natsu would go to the ends of the earth to find it... Happy tried his best to erase the scent and hid it...

Natsu was getting tired, but he kept going punch after punch... everyone had tried to make the barrier stronger but they still couldn't.

FLASHBACK

STILL NORMAL POV

The guild doors opened... everyone looked to see who it was... whoever it was, was covered in a black cloak... she walked up to Mira... everyone was about to find out who she was when Mira told them to stop... she led the person to The Masters office.

When the person in the cloak came out again she removed her hood.

"LUCY" everyone shouted.

She looked slightly malnourished, her eyes were dead, her expression bland, her clothes no longer showy and flashy... they were just a gray tube top and a medium sized skirt, her hair no longer had that vibrant shine and was grown out so her bangs completely covered one eye. and her once happy aura was worse than glum... Mira got the stamp... she got a gray stamp on her left... she looked disappointed to be back in the guild... everyone crowded around her. the guild decided to have a party that night.

TIME SKIP TO PARTY

Lucy walked in everybody greeted her, but a certain pink dragon slayer took her outside to be alone.

"How are.." he begin

"I'm fine and yes I know you are allowing me into team Natsu again but a decline that offer"

"How did you know?" asked Natsu

"I can't lie to you, I have traded my emotions for the ability to read minds, and stuff like that" She turned around. "Thank You for everything Natsu" and she walked back inside.

The rest of the night everybody partied, that's everyone except a certain celestial mage that had just came back. To her she Soon almost everyone was on the floor drunk, the celestial mage just took a job off the board and walked off telling Mira that she was taking it.

Lucy never went on missions with anyone... soon people knew her and called her 'The Solo Runner'

END OF FLASHBACK

STILL NORMAL POV

Natsu hit the runes one last time before breaking through... he immediately trace Happy's sent his scent was all around the guild... looks like he flew around trying to mess up his scent.

Happy sat in the bushes where he could still see when the letter was hidden. All of a sudden a hand grabbed him from behind.

It was Natsu. "Where is my letter?" he roared

"Not telling you" Happy said

" Fine then I will go everywhere you sent was."

Natsu began searching around... he stopped at the big oak tree and said. "I see you tried to cover it up, but it's no use. I can find the sent of Strawberries and Vanilla anywhere"

He found the note. Happy tried to fly but it was no use he couldn't transform.

Natsu ripped open the note and started reading.

His face contorted in looks of sadness, anger, and longing... Longing for a certain celestial mage to come back.

The note read:

Dear Natsu,

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OMG what does the letter say???

I'm biting my fingernails off (not really)

Wait... I know what the letter says... nvm then hehe... well I guess I might give u a sneak peak so here it is... this is not a piece... this is just random sentences/ words

I'm so sorry

Natsu feel to his knees

LUCY!!!!

The city was on fire...

Thanks for reading until next time

~AWH >^.^<