July 21, 2018
Oof, I haven't updated this in a while.....I guess this could be an update in my life.

1st thing: So...July 6th, 2018...one of my aunts passed away...I overheard that she apparently died from a heart attack...she wasn't that old....and I didn't cry....My grandmother was really upset because that was her little sister...her funeral was a week later...I didn't go though because I knew I would be really emotional...I'm a very emotional person...I cried when my great grandmother died back in 2015 and I cried when my uncle (my dad's brother) passed away in November last year...so yeah...I'm very emotional when it comes to that kind of thing.

2nd thing: It's nothing that bad. I already talked to someone about it (I sadly still think about it sometimes) and she made me feel better..but I feel like I should still talk about it. So....all my life, I've been told I talk too much...and I think that's why I don't talk much on here....My parents have told me I talk too much and people at school have told me....I was told in elementary, middle, and twice in high school (which I'm still in, of course). I guess I just have a fear that I might talk too much on here and someone's gonna tell me I talk too much and I might either be hurt or snap and I don't wanna snap on anyone. I do know that I have people on here that think otherwise, but still....like I said, this is nothing big, I just thought I'd share it.

Last thing: So...this is recent....I started thinking about my ex best friend....again....The only reason I thought about her is because one of my friends (that I talked to on the phone the other day) told me that him and a guy he wasn't friends with became friends again....and it made me think of her....because all I want is for us to be friends again....I wish that none of the drama happened...all I want...is for things to go back to normal....but I know that it won't happen...and it sucks....I just.....I just wish she was on here...and she was reading this...but I know she'll never see it...I bet she doesn't even care that I still think about her...I bet she doesn't care that I still care about her.....I bet you she wouldn't care if something bad happened to me....I know I would care if something happened to her...I know I shouldn't...but I would....heh....I wonder if she would care if I died....probably not....I know a lot of you guys would care though.....because I know a lot of you care about me and love me very much.

Anyways, I thought I would just update this since I had stuff I wanted to talk about...I'm not sure who's gonna see this...I'm sure someone will......

Welp, I'm just gonna go..

Bye ✌️